maybe if you didn't give any hint
like that time you liked my new tint
and when you gave me my favorite mint
i just wish you didn't

maybe if you treated others the same
like how it's only me that can tame
your only light and burning flame
so that's how it became

maybe if you were careful
and kind of less of a fool
a little more truthful
just thinking, it's wishful

maybe if i wasn't naive
for like a child, i believed
that you would not leave
however, i was deceived

Another age-old tale
of love too frail
to save two lives torn
by love's self-destructive scorn.

If love were
a worn leather chest plate
doubt would be a
piercing sword
to seal a lover's fate.

Trust, a slippery step
on a steep climb
that if her feet would falter
she would never again be mine.

Has this calloused heart
become too cruel?
but what of
once deceived
and twice a fool.

So I have learned
that Love is not blind.
For the faint flame
of love in one's eye
slowly starts to die

Never again can i stare lovingly
For all I have is uncertainty
She starts to tear when I am near

For my stare forever holds
The weight of
"what if?"

What if it is not what I imagined
What if the cold breeze is harsh on me
What if I couldn't find my warmth then
What if I feel lonely, even though I wish to be alone
What if that dream stays as a dream
What if I fail to love the moment
But what if,
What if all my "what-if's" are wrong

and if you love me
tell me with you arms open
little by little i shall also start loving you
with my heart open and my love driven

and if you love me
stop at that moment, and let it fade
for i shall also do the same
for love is for the loved and bereaved
not for me nor you

and if you never love me
i shall also never love you too
with my heart full and my regrets much
and my days in thoughts wishing you did

and if you love me at this moment and unsure of forever
i shall also love you then and not till whenever
for love is time and time is precious
and we'll save everybit of it we have

and if you love me without words
I shall also love you without actions
and leave the universe to sync our hearts
till we understand each other by just thoughts

and if you love me like i love you
i will be elated beyond reasoning
for i shall love you like how you love the beauty in darkness
for your love is mine and my love was, is and always be yours

some days i worry
that the person i said i won’t be
will eventually end up to be the future me
in ways that i never could dream

what if i never get out of this mess
worse, what if this is my best
what if i fail all of life’s tests
& what if the problems never get less