To be nineteen again;
Blissfully ignorant,
Wrapped up in conversation that eventually lead me to be tightly secured in your arms.
Laid out together underneath the warm August moonlight.
We crept outback wrapped in a blanket and you made love to me as the sun came up on a rickety old lawn chair
I was so afraid of being caught,
But we were together and you kept me safe;
Until one day you were the one my heart needed protecting against.
Years pass, like time through the hourglass.

I forgive you.

Wandering I was, but now no longer.
Captive I am, my cell bars made stronger.
For wit of words beat the enamored eye.
Unworthy are we to stumble and try.
For surely your tongue strikes like a lance,
To slay dragon hearts and pierce short-lived chance.
Defend your strong castle with unyielding wall.
I will await if in love shall you fall.

As if I couldn't already see all my faults, you hand me lenses daily

Words are meaningless
When you've been hurt before.
When lies are what you've known,
Words don't hold the same weight.

Half of my heart.
Will forgive all the pain you've caused.

Half of my heart.
Can fight back when I thought i've lost.

Half of my heart.
Feels everything and still breathing.

Half of my heart.
Is your love and our lives between spaces.

I'm getting better at deleting messages.
I'm getting better at ignoring calls.
I'm getting better at not saying "I miss you."
and not paying attention to the "I never loved you at all"s.

I'm getting better at guarding my heart.
I'm getting better at not falling.
I'm getting better at saying no
and ignoring boys who are good at stalling.

I'm getting better at loving myself.
I'm getting better at forgiving you.
I'm getting better at moving on
and recognizing that our love wasn't true.

Just a thought

You remember me
I will remember you
Come to me walking
I will come to u running
Commit a sin ask forgiveness
I will forgive u
Such is the mercy of Allah
If the almighty can forgive
Us puppets made of clay and water
Who are we to hold grudges
Against each other
Love forgive forget