Maybe we will see each other in another universe, another life.
The grief swallows me alive.
The gloomy memories that play,
in the back of my mind; aren't enough. Your voice i can feel but not hear.
Your face that is blurry,
that I cannot see,
cannot be; anymore.

In the stillness, a soldier lies,
Dreams of battles, now faded skies.
A uniformed figure, once full of grace,
Now gone, lost to a forgotten place.

Tears fall like raindrops, cold and clear,
A mother's love, lost in fear.
She holds the memory, a fleeting spark,
Of a child who dreamed beneath the dark.

Fallen soldiers, silent and still,
The world moves on, against their will.
But in the dreams of those left behind,
The echoes of war will never unwind.

You see a villain, but I see a person trapped inside.
I wear the mask of indifference, but inside I fight to be understood.
What you call ‘cold’ is a heart wrapped in struggle.

Struggling in school everyday,
Feeling like I'm behind.
Struggling with basic math,
teachers making fun of me.
Hurting deep,
Not receiving any support I need.
Why does my brain work differently?
Teachers, students bullying me,
Is it my fault?

The pain runs deep,
With no one to understand.
Why does my brain work in ways they can't see?
Am I broken? Am I stupid?

Laughter echoes when I stumble,
Words like knives, they cut me thin.
I wonder, is this my fault?

Students, teachers bullying me,
How long will it last?

My wings fracture as you demand what I cannot give,
Images of my form,
though I've whispered no.
In this strange dance, I despise the shell and cherish the soul within—
Yet you remain blind to its glow.

Your eyes seek only bare skin; they dismiss my silent plea.

The day you died you took my soul with you.
You are Gentle as the mornings sunshine,
I Know my soul is with you
and I want YOU to come back.
I pass by your grave
and talk with the dead.
Every time I remember that you are there, my heart shrinks deeper than the ocean's- end.
I go to your room, everything is still there like you are coming back.
Death is strange,
I can feel your soul but your body,
it will never come back.
The grief eats me up alive,
Death is strange and my inner child cries.

Everything is connected.
The old tree lines and the wrinkles that we get.
The ocean and the eyes.
The rain and the tears.
The fog in the forest and our gloomy dreams.
You braid your hair and suddenly you're back in history with your ancestors.
You speak up about your rights and now you see them in pure hopelessness, they fought but no one gave a thought. No one cared enough to give us the rights we deserve.
Go out in nature and listen to the wind dancing as you sing your favorite song.
Somewhere far away in the middle of nowhere you dance in the rain and enjoy life as the love fills your home.
The universe whispers to you. God hears you and loves you, this time enough to save you. You finally found peace.

Drowning in the ocean just to feel your skin,
Even though deep down i know you lust me.
Love is blind,
So I'd rather stay and live in a lie.
And the hot sand burns my feet,
I don't want to change you, i just want to love you.

Your beautiful eyes that i want to look at,
Your hair that i want to touch.
The sun makes me sweat,
Would it be okay to get your permission to feel your warmth?
Your flaws make me love more and more.
Even when i feel like you don't care anymore.

I swear im not evil,
I just want to feel you.
Skin to skin, lips to lips.
My only wish for this life.

Dear Holy Tree,
I invoke the thee.
Don't ever dissapear,
The gods have forsaken me.
Done me so wrong, so wrong,
That the voices never stop.
I thought they were my shelter, my refuge,
But all they did was give me an urge.
All i need is a bullet and a gun,
It's an act that can't be undone.

Why would I want to get to heaven?
What if in heaven is my assaulter that repented?
Why would I share an eternity with someone evil like him?
I would rather burn in hell and feel the pain of fire than the pain of despair for eternity.

I carved holes into my skin, to my bones,
just so a glimpse of light gets into my soul.

I carved holes into my skin to my bones,
just so a glimpse of light gets into my soul.

My heart that seeks the world to mend,
With kindness, love, and courage to lend.
In every thought, in every sigh,
The love I have for you won’t die.
The world may change, and time will flee,
But in my heart, you’ll always be.
In your presence, I find my peace,
A love that never seeks release.
You are the best person I've ever met,
May my love for you never end.

Some people exist some live, I rot.

My beautiful boy I never dated.
Sweetheart that gives me butterflies.
He thinks he is just a boy but he is my
salt in the sea,
warmth that you feel in the summer.
Love that you wish to receive.

3AM
And just like that its the night before Christmas.
You leave your room, go downstairs: you must be quiet, everyone's asleep. You stare at the Christmas Tree that's glowing like the brightest star, that reminds you of all the memories before it all went wrong. You stare at it for a while. But after few minutes you leave and go back to your room. You slowly grab the blade and slash down to your wrist. You scream, waking up the dog and mom. Mom only heard the dog bark so she isnt aware that you are bleeding to death.

8AM
The dog barks widely, waiting for you to open the door, not knowing that you won't.
Your mom screams down the hallway echoing at you to take care of the dog, but you don't respond.
Something is odd. You are not replying like you usually do.

8:30AM
Mom comes to check up on you, she assumed you were asleep, she opens the door and finds your dead body in a pool of blood. What a shame, such talentful child passed away by thinking it is a failure.

In the Danube’s endless flow,
Beneath the dark sky’s gentle glow,
A little dove soars high above,
Carrying whispers of a love unknown.
There’s a secret only the wind bestows,
Where beauty ascends to meet its god,
A hidden place where the heart unknows,
Yet longs to rest, though paths are flawed.

Listen, dear child, spread your wings,
No hands will break them, nor silence your song.
But tread with care, for shadows creep,
And predators prowl where trust belongs.

You won’t be lost, nor walk alone,
For somewhere waits a place called home.

I don't want to live anymore,
It hurts so bad I can't take it anymore.
I fight to survive,
for a life I don't want.
And I whelve on memories,
that I never had.
Somewhere in some other timeline,
I can feel happy without snorting a line.

I have so much love to give,
But none to receive.

I failed at it several times,
I shall not fail at it again.
The world is so ludic,
I need some quiet space.
Deeply in my soul there is a missing part,
And ill find it once i drift apart.
You won't find me for some time,
I will disappear for a while.
Somewhere far away from this cruel world,
Maybe in heaven where my thoughts lure.

I met my younger self for dinner today,
Her pupils were large and dilated,
She felt that she will never be sober again.
I noticed that she carried something with her,
It was substance just in case her high goes away.
I ordered some Caesar salad,
She couldn't think about food,
Because she would purge.
Then she spoke:
"Are my scars visible"
I couldn't reply,
I didn't want to make her feel bad.
And again she spoke:
"Are we finally sober?"
"Of course we are!"
-I replied.
If she only knew we have so much goals ahead of our life.

The silence echoes, deep and wide,
Where once your presence used to hide.
A shadow now, where love never lived,
A hollow place, no warmth to give.

In every room, your absence cries,
A thousand questions fill my mind.
Why did you leave? Why can't you stay?
I waited for you, but you’ve turned away.

Your absence leaves a mark so deep,
A longing that I cannot keep.

My head is calm like the ocean's shore,
I push the trigger and the gun goes off.
I accepted death,
I accepted my fate.
I know it will never get better,
my soul will stay bitter.
My cuts will go deeper
for every dog that has bitten.
I am not alive anymore,
my body is bleeding on the floor.
As my dead corpse lays in the pool of blood,
my favorite song still plays non-stop.

One two,
one two,
deep breaths.

Shaking crying,
what am I feeling?

Sun that smiles in summer,
waking you up.
Birds chirping their favorite song,
That you'll never forget.
The sound that you can never forget of the dogs barking widely,
on a dark summer night.
Ocean waves and the sound they make as they hit the shore.
Your feet in the bare hot sand,
Walking fast as you can.

Let them be at least a Reason To Stay

Well since we dont have enough math knowledgeto fully solve it we need one of the futuristic mathematical stuff using logic and intuition like they did back in prehistory to discover current maths. I believe the whole mathematical system works by following the golden ratio meaning everything will end how golden ratio ends. Which means RH could possibly end at complete 0 or ½. Why? Bcs it would fit to the golden ratio and also golden ratio is everywhere. Also as t takes up space it will have to end at some point and the largest 0 we could get is 0

Well math and philosophy need ro be together in order to discover new mathematical approaches and to advance maths. I know it wouldn't be approved but it can be used for more futuristic mathematical stuff making math knowledge expand with this idea

Culture rich, a heart of flame.
A realm upon seven hills it rose.
Barbarian winds blew strong and cold,
The empire is reborn.
Roma Aeterna!
The spirits reigns, through shifting sands and distant plains.
A world reborn,
all roads lead to Rome.

I stand beneath the rotted cherry tree,
Its branches barren and weak,
A reminder of all that was lost,
Of all the sweet cherries that once bloomed.

This tree was once a symbol of life,
Of love and happiness,
But now it stands, a hollow shell,
A testament to all that has passed.

The sweet scent of the cherries that once were,
Is now replaced by a smell of decay,
A constant reminder of the past.

Seven Minutes before you die,
You'll be flashed with the best memories of your life.
Seven Minutes before you leave,
You will hold on to them but not grieve.

Live for memories, for yourself.
And may life give you rest.

I dont feel safe anywhere ,
Your touch haunts me everywhere.
When I see you i feel an urge to throw up,
When i think of you i fall apart.
Sinking into this infinite loop,
The more I sink the more i feel like a fool.
You forgot about me .
But your touch haunts me .
I am scared that it will happen again.
It doesn't feel valid,
I wasn't *****.
It seems like they don't care.
Because we were kids,
Because i wasnt *****.
I would rather be lost with a bear,
Than be lost with a man.

she was 12,
of course no one believed her.
she was 12,
of course she was blamed.
she was 12,
of course she thinks its her fault.
she was 12,
of course they laughed at her when she opened up about it.
she was 12,
of course she thought it was love.
she was 12,
of course it was the clothes.
she was 12,
of course she couldn't press charges.
she was 12,
of course it still haunts her.
she was 12,
of course she's disgusted by her self.
she was 12,
of course she wasn't taken seriously.
she was 12.

When the Sun rises,
When the birds come out.
When the stars fade,
When a sunny day comes.
When I wake up,
The first thing I want
Is a message from you.
When you reply you make me smile.
I am so glad I met someone so special,
Thats you.

My heart aches for the life i never had.
Where I could stand sober,
Stand happy,
Or even stand at all;
without having the urge to harm.

How dare you? How dare you take away your future including ours for a temporary satisfaction? How dare you let us ruin ourselves without taking action against it? How dare you ruin only thing we have left?
 
How dare you?
 
Technology
The mass extinction of life.
 
Technology is not an advancement to humanity, it is the death of us. Most people don’t even realize they’re in a trap because the trap is comfortable.
 
Now as the technology advanced we became more overstimulated because of overconsumption which made our dopamine levels fall. I believe technology should be restricted and controlled. We as humans want to achieve so much like traveling to mars, explore the space and get AI to work instead of us. The mass downfall of human race and extreme laziness is becoming a concerning thing that we won’t acknowledge or do anything about it since technology is the "future" but is it? It will only ruin our capability and planet. As technology advances our bodies become weaker. Which ruins our future. We could survive the ice age because our bodies could adapt, we weren't lazy. Now as technology ruins our planet we will ruin our ecosystem and everything including ourselves. If technology continues to advance without restrictions rapidly, it will be the end of us. Planet as usually won’t find a way to protect us like it could in the past because the technological advances are rapid and extreme.
Technology is not evolution, its self-destruction disguised as progress.
Tech has made us overstimulated and dopamine deprived. Our bodies are collapsing and we act like its progress.
·      Decline in physical resilience
·      Collapse of mental strength
·      Skyrocketing dopamine crashes
·      Global distraction while the Earth burns
 
Technology is the downfall of humanity and the whole ecosystem including the extreme fall and rapid death of humans and other animals. If a WW3 breaks out, our extreme advanced technology will wipe out the whole Earth. Government is not calculated and strategic as we think. We will die. They rely on emotions more than they do on logic. Because if they didn't rely on emotions but relied on logic they would drill oils for money a.k.a. temporary pleasure. They would chose a stable future for them and future generations. Instead they exchange the whole future for a temporary satisfaction. But at what cost?
Tech isn’t just evolving, it’s accelerating beyond human control.
 
People won’t take action since we want instant changes and such damage to us and Earth is impossible to achieve until decades of action to save the humanity. We need to rewire the human brain, restrict so much, and do so much work and it will take extremely long time to reverse such damage. OR either they will think "nah it'll take too long what’s the point?"
 
Mars, AI, space travel, great dreams. But at what cost?
We dream big, yet can’t handle small things like:
 
·      saving the oceans,
·      dealing with plastic,
·      preserving natural species,
·      making people mentally healthy.
 
It's ironic: we want to build a future while burning the foundation we’re standing on.
 
In the past, Earth had time to recover. Ice ages were slow. Natural changes were gradual. But tech is fast. We’re accelerating the destruction, and Earth doesn’t have the time to counterbalance this anymore.
 
Climate change, mass extinction, pollution; the speed of tech outpaces nature’s healing.
 
So What Can Be Done?
Restrict overuse of AI and tech that steals attention and labour. Rebuild strong local communities rooted in purpose and discipline. Educate people early about dopamine, mental health, and overconsumption. Promote physical and mental resilience over comfort. Reclaim sovereignty from algorithms and automation.
 
We have built weapons and AI systems so powerful that war no longer means battlefield strategy, it means global extinction in minutes.
Governments are stockpiling nuclear, biological, cyber, and AI-driven weapons… And yet, they act emotionally, impulsively, and politically, not strategically.
 
Nature is screaming, but no one is listening.
 
Even though this chapter criticizes Technology and AI that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t use it. It indeed has a lot of benefits to humanity, but only if it’s used wisely and rightfully. The danger lies not in the tool itself, but in how we choose to wield it.
Technology is like a blade. It can be used to cut down disease, ignorance, and distance, or to cut down forests, truth, and human connection.
Artificial Intelligence can help us detect cancer early, but it can also write fake news and manipulate elections.
It can translate languages yet erase cultures.
It can help someone learn, or make someone stop thinking altogether.
What was supposed to help us evolve now keeps us weak.
What was designed to give us time now steals it.
People scroll instead of speak. They stare at blue light instead of sunlight.
Technology didn’t just change our behaviour, it rewired our brains.
We were promised freedom, but got dependency.
AI is developing faster than laws.
Children are exposed to things their brains can’t understand.
Deep fakes destroy trust in reality.
It’s all up to us now.
No one is coming to save us, we need to save ourselves. Stop with the false hope. Take the action now and watch the world change. One spark and it can start a fire.
 
Remove a person’s phone and they panic.
Remove electricity and society collapses.
Remove the internet and the world falls into silence.
This isn’t advancement; this is vulnerability.
 
Humans were never supposed to live like this.
 
We don’t need to stop using AI, we need to start using our brains again.
We don’t need to destroy technology, but we need to stop letting it destroy us.
If we don’t build discipline, laws, and moral awareness now,
Will there even be a future left to save?

The Field is not empty,
It is full of life.
See beyond buildings,
They hide away the true beauty of nature.

The Field is not empty,
It has grass and thats enough.
Flowers that bloom all day long,
Beauty that you can see when you listen to your favorite song.

The kiss of the man,
The scar on her head,
She saw the darkness in her.
The wrist that she cuts,
The wall that she punched,
She didn't speak that much.
The love she gave was never enough,
All she ever was her body,
Not her soul, not her heart.