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461 · May 2017
Maybe You're Just Fireproof
Julia Aubrey May 2017
maybe it's because I'm cold or just because you're cold hearted.
maybe it's because the memories of your lips leave mine parted.
maybe it's because the words you never told me are still a wish that is longing to come true.
or maybe it's just the color of my mood, oh deep deep blue.
maybe because all of the things I once leant upon were temporary, I wanted to cherish every last hazy moment.
maybe because even while it was fake offer, I was sold on you and the price I paid for it.
I'll leave you slow dancing where I first approached you...in your bright, blazing room.

-Julia Aubrey Rhodes-
455 · Sep 2015
As If
Julia Aubrey Sep 2015
I can't seem to understand when a person says you're less annoying that it is meant to be taken as a compliment.

Or that poking at you're stomach is a sign of friendship, and then comparing it to someone else when I feel uncomfortable about it.

What in the hell crossed my mind when you did that?

Oh, thanks. It means so much, especially coming from you.

As if I need your approval on everything?

When we aren't even around each other, I can tell you don't even care to ask how I am doing.

When I am sitting parallel to you at last, you finally have the nerve to ask about me.

As if you actually care?

As if every little detail about me was important only when you wanted it to be?

Your best friend is a sweetheart, but still I can tell how much you rub off on him.

Even now, he's beginning to avoid me.

Not answering my texts or calls, both of you are just so stuck on yourselves.

As if you are the best thing that's happened since sliced bread?

Haha, as if...

(j.a.r.)
Julia Aubrey Nov 2016
I had a dream about you.

Dancing we were, in front of numerous strangers under bulbs of flaming light that lingered just long enough to see each others face.

My dress was a deep indigo, effortlessly matching your b&w; tux.

The melody of the song allowed us to dance as if we were professing our love for each other through ever step, every glance.

And through out the dance, I hadn't fully studied the crevices of your face until I finally looked closely, for that was when I realized I wasn't dancing with you at all.

I was dancing with him,
and I quite enjoyed the rhythm we swayed to much better than I thought I would.

-Julia Aubrey Rhodes-
419 · Jun 2015
Stolen Thoughts
Julia Aubrey Jun 2015
a false premise was the start of everything that went wrong in the end, or in correct thinking, it never actually went wrong, as it was actually wrong all along. lets just say it was wrong from the beginning.

a void was blinded from our eyes, and the only way we kept from seeing it was seeing each other, balancing the unruly truth from flipping us inside out.

your laugh sounded as smooth as silver as it played back in my mind like on old, crackling vinyl left on a dusty shelf. honey soaked skin made everything seem just natural to me, and as simple as it might sound, this attraction that at first seemed so wonderful is now unbecoming.

I just wish it was more efficacious to my thoughts.

(j.a.r.)
407 · Aug 2015
Without
Julia Aubrey Aug 2015
how can I feel like flying and dying without you.

~ a ten word story

(J.a.R)
405 · Apr 2015
A Billion Fireflies
Julia Aubrey Apr 2015
"As I look up to face the night sky, it's like a billion fireflies flutter from my eyes into my soul. The way each star makes its own statement, it's almost like the people in our independent lives, each so notorious in their own way."

(j.a.r.)
395 · Jul 2015
This Plan of Love
Julia Aubrey Jul 2015
I watch them drift gently back toward the shore, hands intertwined. "So, this plan of yours...You start with avoiding him?" I sit silent for a moment, listening to the licorice kisses, and when I look over, there's genuine sympathy to think about him as a regular person, and not feeling the sun seep all the way into my soul. It's like watching dragonflies buzz, and just like that, I see the clutter for what it really is. They're memories, and once he's gone, they're all I have left of him.

(j.a.r.)
381 · Aug 2017
Forever Yours
Julia Aubrey Aug 2017
I am so grateful.
so grateful for the fact I was saved...
saved from the pain, sorrow, and weakness of which the world layed upon me.
grateful for the fact that all of the choices I make that are filled with regret are wiped away when I look up.
grateful for the tears that pour down my face without ever calling out Your name...the heart of mine which opens without even meaning to.
I am grateful to be called a child in need of a Father, a child with a Father.
I am forever yours.

-Julia Aubrey Rhodes-
Julia Aubrey May 2015
you know, way back then  I thought you liked me...
and not just in the "cool dude" or "chill but nothing in common so we won't talk" kind of way, I mean like like me as us kids would say.
the way you would just stare at me as I read my book, being interrupted without a single word ever passing between us, you made the words change directly on the page from some random sci-fi novel to ours, or better yet, the one you hoped to write, the one you hoped I would somehow read. I mean heck, I barely knew you...I just knew your name and the way you answered your presence everyday aloud. freckles dotted around your face from the sun, oh how he wished he was more than one star alone, hoping to plant specs of them upon the skin of another. you know maybe it was because I was insecure, or maybe it was because we both we're.

You read my poetry and writing, letting me know you were listening, and I was just to stupid to notice.

I didn't really know what to do.

Then you dated her, and it honestly made the rose tinted world black.

Don't get me wrong, I mean she's a lovely girl, I was just left in a tug.

Ah, well, confidence showed somewhere, just no where near how I expected it to. She rubbed off on you, and I guess it was for the better, it had to be.

After a while, words became more common between us, and finally they stopped completely again, except this time I didn't even get the daily "here" or  "present" from the passage way of your words, not even a glance.

Months upon months passed, and here I sit in my boring bed room writing how sorry I am for never taking a chance as you sit with you group of lovely friends talking about current events.

I know you like her, so I'm not ever going to bud in where I shouldn't, believe me I couldn't, I wouldn't have a chance against her.

Your a great guy.

Much Love.

(j.a.r.)
362 · Nov 2015
Falling Short
Julia Aubrey Nov 2015
I'm falling.

No, not that kind of falling you feel when you begin to like someone.

No, not that kind of falling you feel when you trip over a curb.

No, not that kind of falling you feel when you collapse into a warm bed.

No.

I can't believe how emotionless I can be in this situation. I can't feel any guilt at the moment.

I want to but I can't.

My soul, the one thing that no one can really see is falling.

I'm am falling away from the Father.

I have been ignorant and selfish and every time I ask to be forgiven, it seems I've turned away again.

Tears have overwhelmed my eyes, but now, I can't feel anything.

Maybe thats just me being selfish, wanting the world more than I want my own creator.

I shouldn't be like this...

A falling soul is much more painful than a broken heart, a cut knee, or an over slept morning, for it's rarely noticed, and if it is, it's too late.

(j.a.r.)
319 · Apr 2015
"Your Decision"
Julia Aubrey Apr 2015
It's remarkable you know? I mean you were put on this earth with no unoriginal quirk in your mind. Your brain was painted with neurons of hope and expectations for the best.

When we were barely able to speak properly, and our hair ran in all different direction, our mind did as well.
We to anyone that's everyone clearly stated that 'we', yes 'we ran the world.'

Things begin getting gloomy as the fog hit our minds, and the only thing we could ever worry about was who if anyone at all admired a broken compass like ourselves.

We chased fake love until the night ran out of dust and tears, made rules, regiments, and diets to follow, and in the end, still were convinced that who we were could never be good enough.

Money piled up in our brains but never in our banks, and we began working harder than we ever thought we could under someone who's only concern was that they were 'above us'. But they weren't, not literally at least.

Consumed by time that only ever made us worry about our life even more, we left our dreams in a silver bin in dark alley.

We finally take that one wise choice that reminds us why we started living in the first place, because 'we', yes 'we run the world.'

We put our lives together like a mosaic as we take the shattered pieces, and we put them together unlike anything else ever made. We eventually find someone that will look at us, and seem how amazing and phat we are.

They can look at the way we scrunch our eyebrows when we're thinking or the way we bit our lips when we're nervous like a kid at a kid store, because they can never get enough of how remarkable we really are.

We can finally get up and propose our dreams to the mirrored image in our mind. We push our selfs to the extreme in one way or another, and whether it be good or bad, well, that's your decision.

(j.a.r.)

— The End —