All I seem to do anymore is
cry
      and sleep
                     and cry
                                  and think.
The thinking is horrible.

Worse than any salty tear
burning the cuts you left on my cheek
from your razor blade lips.
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All I seem to do anymore is
pass out
            and dream
                               and pass out
                                                    and scream.
The screaming is horrible.

Not because my vocal chords are straining to keep up with my upsurge of emotion
But because it sends a shudder through me  every time the illegible shouts start to sound like your name

You are the omega of my heart
the foundation for my conception of love
when I think of what a think of a man
and what he should be
its you tha i think of first

you will never fully understand
how deeply my heart feels fro you
i  worry that well grow apart
and ill end up losing you

You bring me to ****** without ***
and you do it all with a regal grace
you are my heart in human form
a friend I could never replace.

You're into drugs and im into you
maybe one day I can become
something you're addicted to.

I think about you a lot
and it hurts, it really does.
I can't think about your face
without feeling alone.

When you pass through my head
there's that moment
you only know it if you have experienced grief
its a second
if that.
a mili-second.
When you forget they are gone
gone for good.
You want to invite him here, or go there.
You want to watch this with him, or eat that.


Then you remember he is gone
not gone for a moment or a few days
but gone forever, far away.

Oh Shakespeare, how’d you know?
All about how we love
and what we do not show.
You knew the story from the very start
You knew it before I broke my heart.

I love you like the moon
and I love you like the sky
I love you till forever but
I can’t tell you why
Shakespeare knows all about us
he knew about the a party
and he knew about the star crossed love
Love is just too much.

That’s where it starts,
look back when
to a party or
a function or a
grand fancy-pants swaray .
Hey, Juliet-
Romeo can’t breathe without’cha
He can’t eat and he cant sleep
and he wants to be with you
Your running through his mind babe,
how bout it?

Hey, Romeo-
Juliet loved you rom the start.
She hated all your girlfriends
It pulled at her aching heart
She wants you to know all that she cannot say
so she’s writing you a love letter
oh, baby.


You knew about how it ended,
how our hearts broke into to
You knew about how I ached
and cried to think about him too.
It felt like death the serum from that medicine.

I should have thought about eternity
I thought you would always spend it forever here with me.
But who would have known that we gave up way too soon..
I should have thought it through
Before I blew off my parents
and said *******!

Dear Adam,
Guess what?
All I have of you is an iPod.
It's filled with your songs
It's filled with your thoughts.

I was in your room
i peered insid a box
I was hoping to find something
but you didn't keep much
Not your ****
or your pipe
or your old secrets

I don't understand maybe we wanted to keep it.
I see nothing of you
this is not your room
you didn't live here, I can't tell
It smells like you and your picture is all over
Your blue painted walls
the room is getting older,
There was a bag of razor blades but I don't know what they're form.
I felt kind o awkward in there sitting with your mom
maybe i wanted to kiss you
before you left
or tell you  you were cute
you knew nothing of my heart
and I knew so much from yours
Im torn.
Being in this room makes me squirm and feel all wrong
you left us in the middle
of a new found fairy tale.

You were no prince and I was no princess
but I didn't want that all quite yet.
I wanted you to know, all the things I wrote ini my heart
but you being here to hold my hand and ill say thats a start.


Sometimes I think you'll come around
you'll say you didn't go
you'll say you panicked and got lost
but really it was a joke.
I know its not true
I know I'll never see you
They found your body
They found your car
you were still hot
because you went so far.

now I'm here with your ashes in my bag,
feeling absolutely mad
knowing that I didn't help,
that you cried for me and I couldn't do
what i needed to.

You are gone and i am here,
Ill spead you out here and there.
your dust will flow for a thousand miles
ill float you in the sea
ill flow you in my favorite rose bush
and under your planted tree.

It's funny how it ends so fast,
how people can be gone.
How drugs can make your mind possessed by heartless hopeless thoughts.

It's wired how I can't hold you,
or tell you how I feel.
I wish i could have yelled at you enough for you to stay here...

How did I love you
you reached for my hand
but I never took it
I'm still thinking I can


You went to that mountain top
you stood up strong and tall
then came out my hand for you
all you wanted to do was fall.