you’ve tried to hide it
but it’s too late
i already saw it
the hesitation
the hesitation
in your eyes, in your voice
i told you it’s fine
to spare you from explaining
and to save me from shame
but i saw it, i knew it
the hesitation
the hesitation in your heart

~
*The world has reached it's death
"Wake me up when the world is green again"*
Billion years have passed
But still, she's in a deep sleep

Himala
Miracle,

Kasalanan bang
Is it wrong,

Humingi ako sa langit ng
To ask the high heavens,

Isang himala..?
*for a miracle?

i’ve got the brightest halo
amongst the devils mob
and behind these smiles
are the sins i hide

Don't ever build home in people
They all come and go
And when they leave you
Again and again
Homeless you'll be

Matuto kang magmove-on
Matuto kang mag-let go
Matuto kang bumitaw
Dahil minsan, kapag ginawa mo 'yan,
May biyaya palang naghihintay sayo..

Call me hopeless but not romantic
Chocolates, flowers are not automatic
Saturday date becomes mandatory
Celebrations are now obligatory
Don’t blame me for being like this
I am not much a fan of cheesy flicks
My love, why state the obvious
The way I look at you is so much of a proof
That I am hopelessly inlove with you

Sa mga sinambit **** salita
Sa mga ngiting ipinakita
Unti-unti, ako'y nabiktima
Unti-unti ako'y nahulog na

Oo gusto kita, pinili pa nga kita
Minahal nga ata kita
Ayoko lang aminin sa sarili ko
Ayoko lang pakinggan ang puso ko

Takot ang nangibabaw

Takot masaktan
Takot maiwan
Takot na maging ikaw ang mundo
Takot na mahalin ka ng todo

Kasi sa pag-ibig, ganoon ako
Buo, buong-buo
Yung wala ng para sa sarili ko
Yung lahat ibibigay ko

Nagustuhan mo din naman ako diba?
Ikaw naman ang unang nagsabi diba?
Ikaw naman ang nagpakita ng interest diba?
Ikaw naman ang nauna diba?

May mga plano na nga ako
Para sa iyo
Para sa akin
Para sa atin

Kasi sa tingin ko handa na ako
Handa na ako

Pero wala
Bigla na lang nagbago
Wala na tayong magagawa
Wala pa ngang "tayo" ay naghiwalay na tayo

Sana totoong nagustuhan mo ako
Sana totoo lahat ng ipinakita mo
Sana totoo lahat ng sinabi mo
Sana, sana, sana

Hindi ako galit sa'yo
Galit ako sa sarili ko
Kasi pinili kita
Kasi nagustuhan kita

Ang huling hiling ko na lang sa'yo
ay sabihin mo na ginamit mo lang ako
baka sakali ay matauhan ako
at ako na mismo ang lumayo

While you offer me those
sweet words and lovely poems
I am writing the same for him

And while you whisper
“I miss you” to me
I silently say the same to him

Sorry but it’s true, I ain’t over him
So tighten your grip, don’t slip
I don’t want you to get broken just like me

And as much as I hate saying this
It’s not you, it’s me
It’s always me, always me

And I can't accept anything you will give
Because I can't give what I do not have
-my heart, because sadly, he still owns it

it must be
the shared loneliness
the craving for warmth
the longing for love
and then there is time
and distance too
but there is us
and i hope it’s enough

iloveyou
without a space
there’ll be no room for mistakes
no it doesn’t make sense
it’ll make no difference

I’m in love with the moon
For it never leaves me when the night comes full
It gives light in the dark sky
Which makes me love even more the night

I’m in love with moon
For it shows up every night
When I’m all alone and wanted to plight
When I’m sad and there is no one beside

And I am wishing that you are the moon
So that you’ll never leave me when the night comes full
And you will give me light
Under the sky of the night

But you will never be the moon
For the moon is consistent every night
While you are away and not by my side

in between the words i speak
there are secrets that i keep
in between these lines i write
there are words i decided to hide

In between seconds and minutes,
     Lies an infinity of words we wished to say
     Are we going to leave it to the winds,
     To deliver our hearts messages?

     An instant connection, we feel it resonates
     Our eyes gave us away, screaming for attention, affection
     All the gravity in the universe
     Is pulling us towards each other

     You feel it too, are you listening?
     Will you walk through the storm of fate,
     That will lead us into each others embrace?
     I am listening, I will..

O iindak na lamang sa tibok ng puso mo
At aasahan ko na lamang ba na di mo aapakan ang aking mga paa
Pipikit na lamang at magsasayaw...

who knows how many universe there is
who knows how many creature exists
in this  place where science and faith rules
i am just an insignificant matter who doesn’t truly matters

Be the flower amongst the grass
That blossoms like it’s always spring
Climb a mountain, touch the clouds
Feel the air in your face and hair
Soar up high, spread your wings
There’s so much beauty you’ll need to see
There’s so much in life you’ll need to live

As the dusk kissed the dawn
the moon starts to shy away
fireflies replace the stars
lovely birds start a lively hum
gradually waking up the sleeping sun

Slowly the flowers will flourish
waiting for the first sunbeam
that will pass thru the dashing trees
inside the pale green mountain
where unfathomable beauty hides

Soon as the moon bid goodnight
cold day air is born
perfect for the orange juice sky
dancing clouds will make a way
for the mighty sun to show its might

The first strike of the light
turns everything into emerald green
the energy is renewed
and the mountain is proud
for the wonder it holds will be seen

The bushes, the trees
the insects, the animals
the flowers, the grass
the rocks, the pebbles
all live in harmony

Didn’t know such beauty exist
wonders of nature truly a gift
And only those sucker for beauty
will dare to find, such places
where magic lies

The scars may have fade
But I still bleed inside me
I still feel the ache

Great about the net?
Is I get to stalk my crush
Get some pics and blush :)

Dancing with my own shadow
To the beat of my breaking heart
My silence is screaming to be heard
My soul wanting to be freed

I do not know to what should I be freed
I do not know to where should I be freed
I do not know what I seek
I do not know why I seek

Sure there is a hole,
But I do not know my goal
So how can I be whole?

I'm in the middle of chaos
Am I considered loss?
Or I really am a dross?

My body is losing my soul
And my soul is drifting from my body
My mind doesn't have a heart
And my heart doesn't have a mind

Yeah, my body, mind, heart and soul
Are always in contradiction
So I always end up in mess
Drifting into abyss of nothingness

the way you speak
the way you kiss
the way you grin
oh i read poetry in your lips

In Hebrew, her name means devoted to God
She was consecrated,
An oath to God
But she never fulfilled her purpose, for she went astray
Endless and countless sins, undeniably a sinner
Living not according to the Almighty's will, but
Living according to her choice, so
Expect her to be, both good and bad


Imperfect she is, but it is what makes her human
Special, she may not be, but still out of the ordinary


Many times she was lost
Yet, still managed to be found


Not wanting to be astray, again she trusted the invisible hand
Afraid of what might she become, again she started to pray
Miserably she asked for His guidance,
E*nlightened, her faith restored, and now trying to serve her purpose

I said “no” for the first time
At first it doesn’t seem right
I felt so guilty
And kept saying sorry
I felt so sad
It felt like I was so bad
It consumes me, guilt
It felt like it was my fault
As for the second time
It was a lesser crime
Still, there was a guilt feeling
But it somehow felt freeing
To say no without explaining
To say no without minding
To say no because you simply don't like it
To say no when you truly mean it

Okay lang, isa pa
Papatawarin din naman kita

The splash of water slowly fades
I managed to stop the exploding grenade
The lightning bugs didn’t even bother to buzz
The birds, the cats, the howling wolves, i hush

I quiet the city sound, the busy street
I suppress my heart, every beat
I shut everything, everything to hear you
I silenced the milky way galaxy to listen to you

And then there I heard, i heard everything
The silent cries, the tears pouring
The commotion, uproar in your heart
The emotions wanting to burst

I heard your heart shattering
I heard the blood dripping
I heard every breath you released
As you picked every broken piece

I heard a happy noise
Followed by a cracking voice
You break out a long sigh
Then a very desolate cry

I love the riot in the stillness
Because I can clearly hear you
Every fiber of you
Every sound of you

And for you, my secret love

I will shut the world and open my ears to you
Until the day I finally hear a genuine laugh
I will silence every galaxy in the universe
Until the day you finally hear me too

Ms. Yin, meets Mr. Yang
Heaven and hell, it's a bang
I can hear the angels' sweet voices
But tempting is the devil's whispers
To whom shall I pray,
to blow the tedious night away?
To whom shall I listen,
to see the far glisten?

The angel promised a paradise,
told me to be kind and take each sacrifice
The sinister said, like the sun I will arise,
power and might, but you know the price

I admit, sometimes I'm losing hope
wanted to confess and talk to the pope
But then, an ill voice spoke
told me to get a rope or a dope
When I want an easy way out,
I listen to the ill voice, even in doubt
When my angel seems to abandon me,
In the darkness I flee

Is it immoral to stick to the dark side,
when fading is your guiding light?
Is it wrong to cling to the dark side,
when you find comfort in it and just want to hide?

I will stop smelling the clothes you left
I will stop doodling your name in every paper
I will stop looking for your face in the crowd
I will stop wishing for you in every shooting star

I will stop here, I will

I will stop writing poems about you
I will stop writing songs for you
I will stop sending messages
I will stop calling your name

I will stop here, I will

I will stop thinking about you every morning
I will stop calling you my sun
I will stop dreaming about you every night
I will stop calling you my moon

How I wish I can stop right here, right now
How I wish..

she’s afraid to scratch
the itch in her heart
afraid of what might come leaking out
afraid that it might be love
afraid that it will bleed her out

----
*Piece by piece she picked herself up
Stitched each broken parts
Until she's whole again
There are holes and cracks
Marks and scars
But still, she's functional

Soon her tears will dry
Soon her soul will recover
Soon her wounds will heal

And when the healing process is over
She will be the best version of herself
That nobody expects her to be
Braver, stronger
Nobody can ever hurt her
Nobody can ever break her

Yes she will
She will recover
But she will be untouchable
Emotions will never consume her
And her heart
Her heart will turn into a stone

Piece by piece she picked herself up
Glued each broken parts, until she's whole again
There are holes and cracks
But still, she's functional
Soon her soul will recover
Soon her wounds will heal


And when the healing process is over
She will be the best version of herself
Braver, a stronger one, unbreakable
No more rivers of tears
No more sad lullabies
No more breaking hearts


Yes she will recover,
But her heart will turn into a stone

My soul starts to shake
My heart starts to ache

But my tears, my tears
*The tears stops falling

i touched your soul
and scribbled my name on it
love, you’ll never get lost again

My feet aches
it longs to touch the sands of the unknown
places, strangers, cultures
it wants to step on possibilities
take chances, leaps of faith
My feet aches and it reaches my soul
waking up the wanderlust in me

Notice the sun, it's beaming with delight
Look at the sky, oh the crystal clear blue sky
Busy bee ******* a flower
Love birds humming together
Feel the air in your face
Do not mind your messy hair


It's a beautiful day,
I can't help but smile
Greet everyone in your way
and spread the good vibes

the silence of the night
it keeps me awake
waiting for you at my bed side
oh it makes me ache

the silence of the night
the absence of your scent
i want you at an eyesight
empty space is a torment

Pushed the button to 6th floor
With my new dress, new hairstyle
Plus my most winsome smile
Cheerfully, i opened the door

Shocked expressions upon my entrance
Wide eyes, stares of awe
Made me feel like I was in trance
"I know, I look wow"

That moment took quite long
They start to eye me like I don't belong
Then I also start to comprehend
I do not know the faces of these men

Slowly, the smiles turns into a loud burst of laughters
My face, form blazing red to color of ashes
As I realized I was in the wrong room
To save myself, I laughed along with them

With an apology
I tried to exit gracefully
All the confidence I gather for today
Was all at once eaten away
Because I was a fool
For entering a wrong room

all i ever wanted is to hear
you say that you’re jealous
secret love, when you do
i’ll stop this madness of
baring pieces of my soul
to people whom i tried
comparing you

The ocean current was strong
I could not find my way home
I was floating for so long
in this ocean, alone

The wind, it's not a zephyr
I'm almost to sever
Could not fight the wave
So I have to face and be brave

Sometimes its dragging me up and down
One moment I almost drown
Sometimes it leads me nowhere
And I'm feeling hopeless I swear

But since I've been floating for so long
And able to breath for another furlong
Maybe I just have to go on
Stop battling, just hold on

If this was my fate
and I could not escape
Maybe I just have to go on
And just watch how my show goes on

let me
just this time
let me walk away first
spare me the heartbreak
of watching you leave
spare me the pain
of setting you free
let me, just this time
let me walk away first
let me feel the pride
of the one leaving
not the pity
of being left behind
let me, just this time
let me leave you first
i’m tired of watching you leave

why can't it be the two of us...


Kasabay ng pagkawala ng mga linya
Sa saliw ng isang malungkot na musika
Muli na namang pumatak ang mga luha
Na unti- unting nagpalabo sa aking mga mata

Muli na namang tinatanong ang sarili
Bakit nga ba hindi,
Bakit nga ba hindi tayo?
Bakit nga ba walang tayo?

Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman
Sa tunog ng iyong pangalan
Mga ala ala ay bumabalik
Parang sinasaksak aking dibdib

Akala ko okay na ako
Akala ko lang pala
Akala ko tanggap ko
Hindi pa pala

Muling nagtatanong sa sarili
Ano ba ang aking mali
Patuloy ang pagtulo ng mga luha
Sa indak ng malungkot na musika

Kailan kaya magiging payapa
Ang pusong mas durog pa sa paminta?

read this when you come back
.
.
*kiss me long
kiss me hard
kiss me the one that
will make the stars go down
kiss me soft
kiss me wild
kiss me the one that
will send ecstatic waves to the universe
kiss me sweet
kiss me lust
kiss me the one that
will make this adrenaline rush

Nariyan ka pa ba?
Hindi ka na matanaw..


*Love, are you still there?
Why can't I see you?
Why can't I feel you?

stay with me tonight
one last twilight
keep me close
don’t close your eyes
together we’ll wait
for our last sunrise