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16.2k · Sep 2018
Yourself.
eF Sep 2018
“You’re not good enough”
Is the one sentence you should
Never tell yourself.
Hi. I’ve been struggling with this my whole life. It’s like I’ll never be able to convince myself. I feel like my poetry is at a decline. I feel as if nothing I write is good. I couldn’t tell you the amount of “drafts” &  private poems I have on here just because I’m afraid.
Afraid of ridicule.
Afraid of hating myself more.
Afraid of everything.
4.9k · Jul 2017
Grave.
eF Jul 2017
You dug your own grave.
Now you're upset because it's
Too deep to get out.
3.7k · Sep 2017
Ghost.
eF Sep 2017
When I am a ghost.
Those that weren't around, will say
They were there the most.
Where were you when I needed you most?
Only around for the good times.
the champagne,
And the toast.
3.3k · Jul 2017
Overwhelmed.
eF Jul 2017
Lying to myself.
Can't seem to escape this hell.
Feeling overwhelmed.
Hi.
2.1k · Apr 2017
Contest.
eF Apr 2017
They say the home is where the heart is,
But all that's left in my chest
Is an ugly mess, a vacant nest.
Another day, another stress.
Feeling like the prize isn't worth the
*Contest.
Quick something.
I wanted to keep it going.
But didn't want it to feel forced.
Last line had me sold.
1.9k · Dec 2018
Christmas.
eF Dec 2018
Christmas is pointless
Since they misinterpreted
Presence for presents.
Hi.
You can’t buy time.
No matter how hard you try.
1.8k · Jun 2018
Happiness.
eF Jun 2018
I ran out of breath,
Trying to chase
Happiness.
I hate trying to consider myself a poet/writer.
1.5k · Mar 2017
Puzzle.
eF Mar 2017
The words just don't flow.
Like pieces to a puzzle,
With no where to go.
Ive been blah lately.
I have no motivation to write.
Feel like I've lost my spark.
Feel like nothing flows anymore.
The words rhyme.
But have no purpose.
I feel the same.

Trying to keep this outlet alive..
1.3k · Feb 2019
Hate.
eF Feb 2019
I give myself,
I give it all.
You never notice,
No one ever does.
It’s like the more I give,
The more you’ll take.
The more I love,
The more you hate.
I’ll most likely delete this. It’s not my norm.
It seems like pointless rambling. Just need to stop bottling it up before I explode.
Sorry. Hope you enjoy.
1.1k · Mar 2017
Vacation.
eF Mar 2017
Speaking now,
Is pointless conversation.
Like the fluid talks we used to have,
Got lost in filtration.
It's sad because lately,
I've come to the realization.
I used to hate the distance,
But now it feels like
A  **vacation.
Self worth.
Stray from those who make you feel less than perfect, even if it's hard at first.
1.1k · Oct 2019
Colors.
eF Oct 2019
They’ll paint pictures of you without knowing your true colors.
I’ve dealt with this my whole life but it’s never effected me like it has now.
No matter what, I feel like I will always be misunderstood/misjudged/mislabeled.
Sorry this isn’t even poetry.
960 · Apr 2017
Gust.
eF Apr 2017
I left the room,
Feeling like a* million bucks.
But once I closed the door behind me,
A
gust of wind came by
*& blew me away...
Depression *****.
Sitting in therapy feeling invinicible.
Leaving therapy feeling invisible.
One second everything's fine.
And the next it's all a lie.
953 · Mar 2017
Clover.
eF Mar 2017
Happy St Patrick's day,
I wrote in a note..
But you didn't read it,
& That made me feel low.
On the page,
A 4 leaf clover I drew.
Thought about how,
It reminded me of you.

I wrote.
Good friends are like 4 leaf clovers,
Hard to find and lucky to have.


*You might've been hard to find,
But all the luck that you gave, was bad...
Avoid the people who make you feel worthless. Surround yourself with people who make you feel worth it.
If you don't feel like your worth their time.
Then they aren't worth yours.
952 · Mar 2017
Salt.
eF Mar 2017
I never liked the ocean,
But lately I've grown a taste.
To the way the salt water,
Runs down my face.
Into my mouth,
Taking saliva's place.

I've grown to appreciate the ocean,
Though I haven't seen in it years.
But I feel as if I'm near,
Every time,
**I ******* tears.
Trying to write.
Keyword
Trying.
904 · Jul 2018
I wish.
eF Jul 2018
I wish you knew how hard I’m trying.
How hard it is to get out of bed.
How hard it is to be around people.
How hard it is to crack a smile and pretend.
I wish you knew how much I loved you.
I wish you knew it’s not your fault.
I wish
;
Delete.
884 · Mar 2017
Handle.
eF Mar 2017
Tears getting soaked in my beard,
From constant questions and fears.
Do I leave or do I stay?
No pro's and cons to outweigh,
The love I feel for her everyday.

When I try to grab the door,
I can't seem to get a handle.
My emotions run deep,
On my words I trample.
Face feels warm,
As if lit by a candle.
Falling to weak knees,
Feeling dismantled.


Feeling lost,
Feeling hopeless.

Breathing in air,
But, still choking.
On my words,
I'm sorry...
You can feel it,
In my heartbeat.

You can see it in my eyes.

The eyes that would never cry.
Are now the same eyes,
That *
never dry...
I feel like I've cried more the past few months than I have my total existence.
875 · Mar 2017
Equaled.
eF Mar 2017
Not feeling myself.
    If depression equaled wealth.
   I'd be one rich man.
2nd haiku... when your feeling unmotivated haiku's can really help get those creative juices flowing. Felt unmotivated today. Felt like today was a waste. These haiku's helped me feel like I didn't waste the entire day atleast.
861 · Apr 2017
Dressed.
eF Apr 2017
Time to get* dressed
*Put on a smile for the world
Try to act normal.
Getting out of bed.
Even though I really don't want to.
Family functions are the hardest to go to. They want you smiling the most.
Fake or not.
826 · Feb 2019
Monotonous.
eF Feb 2019
Feels monotonous
Searching for glimmers of light
In such a dark world.
I’m a ray of sunshine,
Surrounded by dark.
Spreading light,
Hoping it’ll reflect.
Only leaving,
Me upset.
796 · Mar 2017
Broom.
eF Mar 2017
Gloom fills the room
Can't be swept under the rug
With the biggest *broom.
Sorry. Blah.
789 · Jul 2018
Shelter.
eF Jul 2018
Please don’t leave me alone.
Be my shelter from the snow.
Hold me in and pull me close,
Tell me that you won’t let go.
I love you all.
679 · Mar 2017
Broken.
eF Mar 2017
Hold my
 phone close to myself

Remember this is who I am.


Broken words
,
Broken heart
,
Broken man.

Even though you'll try to.

You'll never understand.

I do all of my writing on my phone.
Journaling etc. I pulled my phone in close
Basically pulled myself in close.
678 · Apr 2018
Story.
eF Apr 2018
They all want to know
What my story is but don't
Take time to read it.
Calling yourself a friend only helps YOU sleep at night.
665 · Feb 2021
I miss you.
eF Feb 2021
I miss your laugh,
I miss your touch,
I miss your face,
I miss your embrace.
I broke a part of you
I never can replace.
Wounds once where
Scars have taken place.
You have my soul
All control.
Send me to hell
My forever home.
Sorry.
662 · Aug 2017
Blind.
eF Aug 2017
It's like I've grown* blind.
*I'm trying, but I can't see
The point anymore.
Life.
643 · Mar 2017
Reocurring.
eF Mar 2017
Reoccurring thoughts.
Ring in your ear like gunshots
Reoccurring thoughts.
Don't know if repeating yourself in a haiku is acceptable.
But it made hella sense. To me atleast.
629 · Jan 2019
Eyes.
eF Jan 2019
Your eyes, they stop time.
Wondering if it happens
When you look at mine.
One day I’ll write more than 3 lines.
Sorry.
610 · Sep 2017
Circus.
eF Sep 2017
You hang around clowns,
Wondering why your life looks
Like it's a* *circus.
Wasting time.
597 · Aug 2018
Pawn.
eF Aug 2018
Used.
Always.
No matter by whom.
I will always be the pawn.
In your next move.
Rip
594 · Mar 2018
Roam.
eF Mar 2018
Crowded yet alone.
Searching for a place called home,
Forever to roam.
Ever feel like you just don't belong?
593 · Apr 2017
Creativity.
eF Apr 2017
Creativity
Has strayed off and went missing.*
*Please come back to me.
I feel like I lost creativity.
Idk I feel like haiku's are the only decent thing i can pump out anymore. Longer poems are just hard for me right now, there's no meaning, there's no muse & i feel repetitive.  I'm not good at writing about happy things or haven't tried much I see more beauty in pain and darkness. I have random entries I would like to put on here but I never do because I feel like poetry needs to rhyme. And i'm not sure if its ok to put random nonsense on here.
so here's a haiku instead.
584 · Feb 2021
Past.
eF Feb 2021
I hate myself for what I did to you.
I never wanted to leave.
I’m sorry that I couldn’t make you happy.
I’m sorry that I wasn’t enough.
You brighten up the room more than a camera flash at the Cheesecake Factory.
You brighten up my soul more than that.
I question how I’ve made it this far without you by my side.
I was trying to change.
Nothing I say will fix anything.
I just hope you’re happy now.
I don’t think I’ll ever be.
I love you more than life itself,
And I’d give it up to relive the past.
I think about if often.
I’m hurting.
Since 13 life has been a dream.
582 · Apr 2019
Wish.
eF Apr 2019
I wished to die every day this year,
And every single day my wish never came true.
Happy Birthday to me I guess.
I really don’t want to be here anymore.
578 · Dec 2018
Shelf.
eF Dec 2018
I wish that I could go back,
Erase the pain I felt.
Everyday seems like a mission,
With the cards that I’ve been dealt.
We all live in pain baby,
Just admit it for yourself.
Despite my current attitude,
That’s hanging on the shelf.
Um yeah.
Hi.
578 · Apr 2017
Pieces.
eF Apr 2017
I'm losing myself.
Pieces *of me everyday,
*Slowly fade away.
blah.
563 · Jul 2018
Bending.
eF Jul 2018
Bending over backwards for you,
Only hurt my back and left me
Broken hearted.
Hi.
559 · Feb 2019
Snow.
eF Feb 2019
I gave you the shirt off my back,
And I watched you buy a coat.
You told me it was cold,
And left me naked in the snow.
I just want my shirt back. It’s the least you could do.
549 · Jun 2017
Overheat.
eF Jun 2017
I haven't been writing lately,
Can't get out of this funk.
Not sure what to do to get over this ****.
I've been driving but I can't seem to pass the peak,
I kicked the car in overdrive, but it started to* overheat.
*I took a break and had a seat.
Got angry and started to overthink,
Remembered that it could be all over in a blink.
Realized I haven't been appreciating whats under my feet.
Merp. this is probably gonna get deleted soon. I just really need to get back into writing. It's therapeutic for me.
545 · Nov 2018
Last.
eF Nov 2018
Why do I bother
Being the nice guy when we
Always finish last.
Life ***** lately.
No matter how much light I spread into the world it gets drowned out by darkness.
I try to do everything right.
And I always get wronged.
533 · Jul 2017
Time.
eF Jul 2017
A minute of* time.
*I didn't think it was too
Much to ask you for.
520 · Mar 2017
Smile.
eF Mar 2017
When did my smile,
Seem to lose all its meaning?
To me, not the world.
Forcing a smile on your face daily.
Cuz that's what the world wants.
Sad clown.
510 · Jul 2017
Difficult.
eF Jul 2017
You make being me
Extremely* difficult.
*Love me or leave me.
.........
499 · Feb 2019
Misunderstood.
eF Feb 2019
I’m misunderstood
Like torn and scattered pages
From a lengthy book.
I’m not sure if everyone is just vanilla.
Or if I see the world too openly.
But I’m constantly getting put into boxes I don’t feel I ever belonged to be in.
494 · Sep 2017
Life.
eF Sep 2017
What is a* life *worth having,
If the life you have isn't worth living?
I  feel like a college student that can't hang out with his friends  because he's too busy studying.
And I'm not even in college...
494 · Mar 2017
Overlay.
eF Mar 2017
Words don't flow today.
                   Sadness seems to overlay.
                       Smiles can't escape.
First haiku... today's gloomy.
481 · Nov 2017
Low.
eF Nov 2017
Sometimes you make me
Feel the lowest of the* low.
*No deeper to go.
Just another sad haiku
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