I miss the weight of "I love you"
The gentle pull, the soft breakthrough,
A phrase once whispered, raw, sincere,
Now scattered wide, to all who hear

I cast it out, a fragile charm,
A whispered warmth, a healing balm
To strangers, friends, and passing souls,
To mend the gaps, to patch the holes

It’s not a lie, but not the same,
It lacks the spark, the tender flame
Yet still, it blooms in passing hearts,
A love reborn in scattered parts

Perhaps in giving, I will find,
The echoes of a heart aligned
Until that day, I’ll let it flow,
To bloom in places I may not know

Ids and shadow selves
Wandering around
Forgotten like leftovers
Of unwanted takeaway
Neglected and repressed
Fed by our collective values
And abusive behaviours
A selfless act of a conscious psyche

In a disruptive reality
Used as an antidote for the painful truth
Failing to fail
Just to stay hurt
Missing the obvious
But dreaming of the unknown
Like great artists we admire
The self-orchestrated theft of our lives

Fallen short of an ideal that doesn’t exist
Not even in our thoughts
We wander around
Cultivating dullness and immorality
Covering our tracks with false beauty and self-esteem
Leaving our souls behind
Hiding the madness
Once called LOVE

From the top of the toes
To the tips of the hair
A permanent sway
Between hope and despair

Days with no sunshine
Nights with no sleep
Making the soul
Fall down deep

Frantic with anger
Sourced from within
Like closed road to heaven
And paved way with sins

Numb to the world
Nowhere to hide
Persistence of pain
Locks us inside

From the top of the toes
To the tips of the hair
With butterfly wings
We fight through the air

Wrong words
Lead to wrong feelings
Wrong thoughts
Wrong turns
Wrong doings

Wrong words
Lead to dreamless sleep
Empty hearts
Empty eyes
Empty seats

Wrong words
Lead to nowhere
No man's land
No man's smile
No man's soul

Wrong words
Chain our minds
Prisoners of war
Prisoners of greed
Prisoners for life

Before we say them out loud
Close the mouth with both hands
And hold it tight until they disappear
Like dark does in presence of light

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you word after word
With blue eyes and red lips
Like the dream I had that day
When my heart started beating again
As the rain whispered you exist

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you row after row
With curly hair and invisible wings
So we could fly together above the clouds
Embraced as now
Day after day waiting for the sunrise

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you page after page
With smiling eyes and gentle soul
Painted you in the colors of the light
So I could find you when it’s dark
And you could kiss me when it’s hard

If you haven’t existed I would have created you
Written you poem after poem
Drawn you line after line
Until my mind went completely blank
For you have countless rainbows inside your soul
Without which the world would not exist

One plus one is never two
When we speak of me and you
When our hearts dance in step
There is only one in true romance

In time when love leaves the floor
The hate we foster shuts the door
One plus one stands alone
With a minus sign between two souls

Love equations are a simple thing
We either fly or we have no wings
One is one no matter what
There is no two, there is no none

It took billions of years and a big bang
To come where we are
Billions of stars were born and died
In the darkest hour on a canvass of light

Billions of people have walked this earth
Billions more will come and go
Billions of rainfalls and armies of clouds
But what are billions compared to now

A crownless king lies beside me
Each night as the day surrenders
Singing a song, playing a game
With the moon of the twenty eight days

Heavenly voice breaks through the air
As the story unravels its blossoms
Making us sway from side to side
Embraced together in the face of love

At dawn of day as the light creeps in
It feels like we are kissing the sky
This king in my arms, his virtues and charms
Bring each day new dream to life

I am not deaf
They could say
What they want
What they need
To make me plead
Guilty for something
I have never done
Nor I have ever thought
But I would never run
From my faults and mistakes
Playing ducks and drakes
On an empty lake
Like they do
Just to be away
Cause they are afraid
Of being condemned
But I am not them
I am not mad
I feel only free
When the silence speaks to me

A four-leaved clover
I found million years ago
When I pursued love
At the end of the world
Lies at the bottom of my drawer
Together with the ashes of a fairytale
I don’t need anymore
I have found peace for my soul
Faith for my mind
And a patch for my heart
Underneath the starry skies
I lie weightless

Like a lost cloud
In the blue sky
You appeared from nowhere
Or somewhere
I cannot remember
It was a trick
Of some kind
Along the pitch line
Of the belt of life
I think, or not
But it was short
The me and you
And the them and those
Who never had a choice
To do more than they can
Than they want or wish
I cannot tell
I am not a golden fish
Nor a golden chance
Well not to you
But to me
I am the world
And the moon
And a distant star
I worship from afar
As you fade away
With the yesterday
We shared somewhere
I say goodbye
I say farewell
As the sadness dies
In my brown eyes
We fade away
Behind the horizon line
It’s yesterday
You and I
It’s a memory
An end  
Of a careless love

Lost my way
With your lies 
Lost my mind 
Lost my pride
Never going 
Back in time
Never going
In this life

I lost my way
In your maze
Full of dead ends
And misways
So goodbye 
At long last
You belong
In the past

It's not a lie nor a dream 
I am outside the labyrinth

Silent voices
In my head
Made of fear
Danger, pain
Never hear
Disappear
Only when
I am on the floor
Silent voices
Making choices
Constant knocking
On my door

Restless heart beat
On rewind
Makes me deaf
Makes me blind
Always here
A puppeteer
Inside my body
Soul and mind
Silent voices
Roaring sea
Go away
Let me be

I hope the dreams
Will be good to you
I would give it all
To lie next to you

When the night exists
We can still pretend
That the dreams we have
Will never end

And at the break of day
When the sky turns blue
I am imagining
I am kissing you

I cannot wait
For the night to come
So we could run
And we could fly

When you close your eyes
As you fall asleep
I cannot wait
For us to meet

It’s the end of day
That makes me smile
Because in my dreams
You are only mine

A full grown heart
full of scars
beats inside
an empty glass

The glass is full
when it rains
A sea of tears
wounds and pains

It gets empty
as the days go by
Heals the heart
until it's dry

A full grown heart
beats in us
sewn together
out of fallen stars

Nothing lasts
nothing, Love
all is dust
all is, Love

Woke up hoping
morning flames
dozed off hopeless
with no name

Day by day
all the same
blinding light
drunken game

I try to be
try so hard
caught inside
have no luck

I know I can
you say so
but cannot take
another blow

So whisper gently
in my ear
what I want
so bad to hear

Whisper gently
let me breathe
to hear your voice
is all I need

Nothing lasts
nothing, Love
all is dust
all but us

Like pink flamingos
flame colored we were born
among the rest
colorless souls
Just me and you
miles apart
so we could see our flames

Like the bird of wonders
each day we die
and we rise again
from the ashes
so we could start anew
till we make it right
or till the end of our time

Like singing lovebirds
we call each other
during day and night
till we hear the song
or see the light
of a flame colored phoenix
shining brightly
before our eyes

Of flesh and flames
we were made
to burn down like the stars
Against all odds
we survived
and against them all
we are still alive

Pushing the door each morning
Makes me feel unsafe
Write me a word or two love
So I can get through the day

Wasting time is not that easy
When the days are so long
And all I do is pray boy
That the nights will make me strong

So write me a word or two love
Write me a word each day
Not more I cannot read love
Not more but a word a day
Dreaming about you love
Dreaming each day
Flying like bird love
Flying away

When you are not by my side love
Summer days are long and cold
Just like the winter love
They make me stay at home

Chasing clouds across the sky
Is what I do each day
Waiting for those sweet words love
Before I fade away

So write me a word or two love
Write me a word each day
Not more I cannot read love
Not more but a word a day
Dreaming about you love
Dreaming each day
Flying like bird love
Flying away

But chasing clouds across the sky
Is what I do each day
Long and cold no matter what
I want to fly away

So write me a word or two love
Write me a word each day
so I can grow my wings love
grow them and fly away

So write me a word or two love
Write me a word each day
Not more I cannot read love
Not more but a word a day
Dreaming about you love
Dreaming each day
Flying like bird love
Flying away

Let's fly away love
let's fly away
with a word or two love
let's fly away
just you and me love
let's fly away
write me a word or two love
before I fade away

In a corner of a round room
Since the rebirth of the silver moon, I sit
Waiting for a righteous trial
Like a fallen soldier in denial

Hoping like a scared kitten
They’d be kind with their decision
They’d be human and not just men
As I was, when shooting at them

But how kind were my bullets
To the people who’d never done me wrong
Even those inside my gun
Waiting to be fired, one by one

In their eyes I am looking at
Seeking for forgiveness
Hoping for a teardrop
That will make my suffer stop

I call myself a man,
A human
I call myself names
Where I should be a no-name, a forgotten letter

How much a life is worth
On this sinful blackened earth
From our death and back to birth
How much a life is worth

Chasing smiles
Is like chasing rainbows
In a world
With no rain
Only those
Who are brave
Will take a step
On a thorny way
Crossing deserts
And mountains high
Until they reach
The starry sky
In the deepest seas
They will dive
Until they reach
The other side
Chasing rainbows
Is like chasing smiles
In a world
With no laughter
Only those
Who are brave
Will look for rainbows
Before the rain

Behind a wall of curtains
I slept longer
The night
I was supposed to be awake
The moonlight
Gave me warmth
To mend my wounds
And forget the ache
I felt weightless
Like the air
****** up
By a candle light
As the gate
Behind my shadow
Closed its wings
Deep in the night
A secret world
I thought at first
As I entered
With an empty heart
A meadow
Filled with dreams
Of Gods
Waiting to be picked up
A pleasure hunt
A voiceless whisper
Revealed the secret
I’ve kept so long
A rush of blood
To the head I felt
As I lost my body
To a distant song
Shameless truth
Made me blush
As the pleasure
Crawled down my spine
I felt alive
As I walked inside
This secret world
That was now mine
As I went on dancing
With the dream I’ve picked
From the fairest meadow
My eyes have seen
The empty heart
I took along
Started singing
The unknown song
As the sun came up
And the curtains fell
I closed my eyes
And turned my back
Took my heart
Filled with joy
And walked away
Step by step

Oh what a night this one has been
I danced embraced with my dream

I stumbled over a perfect dream
As the moonlight made me feel
Like I was the only one
She wants to give a smile
And whisper in my ear
Tonight you are only mine

As an empty page to be filled
With sweetest stories and some dreams
I runned into the world
With the heart sawn onto my sleeve
Forgetting about the wounds
That made me feel so weak

Into seedless grape I changed that day
Not by wish but by my faith
Kissing with the rain
Smiling to the moon
Dancing with my soul
I never thought I would

I stumbled over a perfect dream
As the moonlight made me feel
Like I was the only one
He wants to give a smile
And whisper in my ear
Tonight you are only mine

This dream I never thought I had
Made me feel like seedless grape

I got a tattoo of you
The ink penetrated my skin
And went deep inside my blood cells
It wasn’t a choice nor a wish
It happened out of the blue
Like you did when you entered my life
As I faded away like shadow does
When there is no light
Far away from home
My heart felt it belonged there
Among the clouds
Hiding behind the mountains
Of forgotten snow and lost dreams
Like the ink inside my body
That made me glow
I am the light now
I left the shadow behind

I feel free
Free of you and every mad man
Pretending to be lonely
Free of all the demons
Haunting me at night
Free of dreams and burden
Dragged along for comfort
I feel free
Like the wind you cannot see
Flying close to earth
Like the leaves of the tallest trees
Flying as they fall
Like the birds born with wings
I can fly with open eyes
I can fly free
Free I am at last

Lost smiles
Like lost birds
Walking the pavement
Of a forgotten city
That once was an empire
Of lost clouds
Seeking refuge
During summer months
When the sky was blue
So the sun could warm up
The souls of the lost loves
Wandering like lost ghosts
In an abandoned house
Dancing like the window shutters
Making music during summer storms
Lost smiles of lost loves
Is what I hear when I walk the streets
I wonder if you can hear them too
Since your soul left you

As the day gives birth to the night
“Have faith” a voice whispers
The skies turn dark
And the only light I see
Is the reflection of the moonlight
In the river I am crossing
My eyes are too tired to look up
So I enjoy the reflection
As though she came down on earth
Just to make me company
I like the night
It’s the only time
I can hear what I think
And think what I really mean
As I cross the river
I enter the woods with no light
Even the stars are not to be seen
But I just continue forward
Till I reach the other side
“I have faith” I say aloud to the velvet skies
As the night gives birth of the new day
On the other side of the woods

I lost 
What I never had
But it felt mine
I lost
A fight in my dream
That was never real
I lost
A kiss I was wishing for
But never came
I lost 
Time searching for an answer
To a question that was never asked
I lost 
Myself in a story
I wasn't even in 
I lost
A game to an imaginary friend 
In an imaginary world 
Imagined but not in my head 
I lost it

You are a story that I write
Since the age of five
Since I saw that butterfly
Landing on my finger
I kept my breath
So she wouldn’t fly
Away like the rest of my dreams
For a moment longer
I could have been dead
But I never thought of that
As I exhaled
I scared her off and she was gone
Quicker than the image of my first kiss
With the frog I thought would turn into prince
But it didn’t
Who am I to dream
But a wounded soul
Trying to tell a story
Since the age of five
when I saw that butterfly

Each night I dream of a dancing muse
Moving to the music only we could hear
Tone by tone like drops of rain
Falling gently on her hair

As I close my eyes she makes me see
Blurry pictures of an unknown world
Though it feels like home I am never there
Like drifter lost along the dusty road

When the morning breaks she fades away
As the ink of a long lost letter
But as the moon shows up on the starry sky
We dance again, my muse and I

His eyes oh his eyes
They’ll make you kneel
They’ll make you fly
They’ll make you reach the starry skies
Oh his eyes his honest eyes

His lips oh his lips
The softest touch
The finest kiss
They’ll make you dream of endless bliss
Oh his lips his sweetest lips

His voice oh his voice
Making thunders
Causing storms
It will leave your heart without a choice
Oh his voice his tender voice

As I close my eyes and fall asleep
I let my dreams take me to him

Who took the smile out of our eyes
As we walk down the street
Pushing luggage we don't need
Reading lies from the lips
Killing time as we please
Hearing voices lost in fears
Who turned our smile into tears

Who took the joy out of our lives
As we move hand in hand
With the one we love
Taking paths up the hill
Making things against our will
We move in pair but feel alone
Who turned our joy into stone

Who took the life out of our souls
As we drive ahead without control
Faking love for the show
Losing ground for the wrong reason
As we keep ourselves imprisoned
Like the pearls closed in a shell  
Who turned our lives into hell

Running over a bridge that falls apart behind us
With  no turning back
Nor a button for rewind
No magic pen
Nor eraser for the things we don’t like
Only forward hoping for
That the new day will bring us more
As we run over a bridge that falls apart

Walking over a bridge that falls apart behind us
Is what we do
As the pace gets slower
And we forget how to run
With no wind in our backs
Letting burden from our past
Take over our lives
As we walk over a bridge that falls apart

Crawling over a bridge that falls apart behind us
Is the only thing we know
As we take our lives to go
The good and the bad
The smiles and the tears
Every single moment
That has made us real
As we crawl over a bridge that falls apart

Flying over a bridge that falls apart behind us
Is something we are wishing for
As soon as we lose some of the burden
We drag with us
As a memento of a future
That has already passed
Dreaming about lost freedom
As we fly over a bridge that falls apart

Whisper whisper from afar
Guided by the northern star
Dancing dancing in the night
Like a burning candle light

Thunders thunders breaking free
Making music I could see
Riding riding on the waves
As the water wildly raves

Coming coming like the tide
Filled my soul with morning light
Whisper whisper sweet as kiss
Made me dream of future bliss

There were two bodies
Plaited into one
Like the horses tamed
Like the birds flying free

If you leave them
They'll reach up to heaven
Beyond the end
Of the world we could see

When separated they fly
When one
They don't leave their nest
Forgetting about the rest

Even time surrenders  
When they meet
not passing by
Lying down at their feet

There were two bodies
Plaited into one
Lost in their embrace
There were two bodies in love

Lost the rhythm
Lost the sense
Lost my time
Missed a chance

Lost the mind
Lost it slow
Sold my freedom
For a show

Lost myself
Lost my dreams
Let them fall
As the leaves

Lost my way
Lost it all
Lost my body
And my soul

Lost in future
Lost in past
Watched my burden
Make a blast

Lost the battle
Not the war
Picked the pieces
From the floor

I lost the one
Who I used to be
But built myself
A new me

Lost is good
For a while
As long you keep
Your inner smile

A bag of dreams
And a shot of freedom
Is all we really need
Instead of that
We have a bag
Full of shiny things

And we fight each day
For an unknown reason
The demons of our past
There is no break
Nor a time for rest
We fight until the last

As the days go by
And the autumn comes
It seems though
our lives have passed us by
We try to empty
The bag of greed
And fill it with our dreams

It’s not that easy
As one could tell
The bag is bigger than we are
The empty thing
Will never come
If we don’t know
Who we are

So we take some time
To make some peace
With the past and present too
To find a way to the
Worthy things
And make our dreams come true

A bag of dreams
And a shot of freedom
Is all we really need
To mend our wounds
And fill our days
With life without greed

I am falling
Like the leaf
Of an unborn tree
That has yet
To bloom
Like the drop of rain
Inside the sea
That has yet
To climb its way
I am falling
Like the cup of tea
That hasn't made it
To the kettle
Like that time
When I broke my heel
I am falling into you

From time to time
I drift away
Down by the sea
And let the waves
Break my shields
And set my spirit
Free

It's not that easy
But I like the way
They cleanse my soul
They wash away
My countless sins
And heal me
As I go

From time to time 
I drift away
With my spirit free
And I take a flight
Just at night
For in my dreams
I could see

From time to time
I drift away
Wishing you were too
It would be nice
To share a dream
With a drifter
Such as you

As I fall asleep
Each night
I let the dreams
Take me home
Where I feel
Like a colored cloud
Over forest
Full of lime trees
Where she dances
Like the breeze
On an August night,
I surrender
To the shades
Of her soul
And the scent
Of her passion
That makes me burst
Into particles of light
Oh how I love the night
Oh how I love my dreams
When I am there
I can kiss her
Any time I please

There are many shades 
That make a man
Some are white 
Others black

Some are wild 
Like the sea
Others soothing
Like cup of tea

I met a yellow
And I met red
I met men
When they were sad

I met pink
Like a princess dress
Some were gold
More or less

I met green
They never grew
Some were purple 
Others blue

But I've never met the shades of you

On a distant beach, I see you 
Smiling to the sea
As the mellow rays of sunshine
Fall upon thee

On a distant mountain, I see you
Smiling at the road
As the dancing clouds
Take away your load

Loving with your heart
Singing with your soul
Kissing with your lips
Melting as you go

It's not that distant future
When you close your eyes
Before you fall asleep
Under starry skies

They told me I should
I didn't listen
They told me I can
I didn't care
They told me to do
Told me to go
Told me a lot
You know 
things that start
With must or ought

They told me I shouldn't
I didn't listen
They told me I can't
I didn't care
They told me I'll never
Told me to stop
Told me a lot
You know 
things that start 
With no or not

They told me
But it was just a noise
I chose me
And my own voice

I think you are 
one of the few good things 
I have at this moment
Not that you are mine
Nor that I am yours
But it's just us 
Here and there
Silently talking 
To one others souls 
Or to the void
For that matter

I wish I was as good 
As You give me credit for
Or as bad as I am used to
But I am not
This is me being myself
For no other reason than 
To impress me and not you
Funny thing 
This soul of mine
I cannot get enough of her

I don't know you 
My humble one
Other than the times 
You bow your head 
To take advantage
Of the scent I have

Neither have we met
During night of
Sweet surrender
When the moonlight shines
Upon the thorns 
I've hidden out of shame

You seem like a rainbow still
That makes me smile 
With no reason
But I'd like to see your true colors
Beneath that tender heart
You showed me until now

In your gentle whisper
I found a refuge
During this monsoon season 
That will shortly end, I hope
But until then 
May I call you just a friend

Sounds like drops of rain
Following a perfect pattern
Are crawling up your broken body
As the scents of spring
Spread the joy
The trumpet slowly breaks your walls
The piano makes you find your peace
The clarinet starts to flirt
Your soul melts down
By the double bass
As you fall in love
With all that jazz

Blue was the deepest see
Blue as the sky above
Sending waves form a far
Crashing her eroded heart

Loud was the sound they made
Loud as a lion roar
Broke her dream into two
As they sneaked in through the door

Purple was the scarf she wore
Purple as a summer night
Made her shine bright as star
Shadowing the moonlight

Cloaked in dark
They climbed the bed
Creeping slowly
In her head

Erased her pain
As she slept
Burned her thoughts
Made them melt

The next day
When morning broke
She was free
As she woke

She found her peace at last
With the spirits of the past

Her graceful wings
She got at birth
And her talent to dance
Used her wings to fly away
Whenever she got a chance

With her happy feet
And a smile that heals
She dances through every pain
Her truthful heart and her humble soul
Will save you from the vain

The righteous way
Is the only way
For a hero like she is
No matter what she has your back
Shadowing her bliss

Blessed with love I must have been
To have her by my side
She gives me wings
So I could fly
My dancing butterfly

Keep in touch
With your soul she said
Before turning her back on me
Disappearing before my eyes
Was the last thing I could see

My eyes went blind
My ears gone deaf
My crippled heart refused to beat
The instant she left the door
I crumbled slowly on the floor

She must have felt it
But never shared
Or I have never listened to
To break a heart it takes two
Lovers being untrue

The seasons changed
The years went by
At times I’ve cried at others smiled
Life is a journey through good and bad
Before feeling sane you have to go mad

My soul sings now
Even in the rain
If asked, I’ll go the same road reliving every pain
Love is a story that unravels on the way
Some things we lose and some are here to stay

Our souls are here to make us see
There is more to life than just to be
Though life is full with pain and ache
But only there for our sake

When faced with love
One does need
A full grown heart
Used to bleed

The heart is full
when there are two
To melt together
As me & you

Teach your soul how to kiss
It's the only way to an endless bliss
And never settle for something less
On your way to happiness

The snow on the mountain top
Before the sun melts it down
The leaves on the trees in autumn
Before winter undress them completely

The first flower in spring
that blooms despite the cold
The most beautiful cloud one could ever see
that dances around for no particular reason

The scent of the grass
Just after a pouring rain
The sweetest cherry
Picked right there from the tree

The baby snail
That just learned the best friend could be human too
A dreamer with the nicest smile
that makes wishes come true

If you ask me that is who I want to be