When you wouldn't hear my words
I tried to show you with my actions,
You just stopped looking at me.

Once I wanted to be a party girl,
Now I just wanna be your girl.

I've shown you all my favorite things,
But you never remember.

I could tell you something yesterday
And you'd act like it had been forever.

If you broke my arm
I'd still ask you to sign my cast,
And that is why
I must go.

Every time I get comfortable
Without you
You show up again.

Every time I get used to sleeping
By myself
You crawl into my bed.

Every time I fall in love
With you,
You leave me again.

I don't know what it feels like to be someone's first choice.
To be a priority.
To be special to someone.
I'm tired of aching for things
That I won't receive.
I'm tired of hurting for people
Who can't even remember
What color my eyes are.

Each time you call me dumb
I believe you
a little bit more.
I'm dumb
for loving someone
Who is not capable of
loving me back.

I say I attract toxic,
Deep down I think
I crave it.

Restless and stressed over things
I cannot control
I wish I could stand back
And look at things as a whole.

I've got pictures living in my phone
Of people I haven't checked on in years,
It's weird how long I've been alone.

I tried to disappear a few times,
You always found me.
I don't know if that makes me
Love or hate you.

Whenever I flip my lucky cigarette
I always wish for you.

I remember bottling up the beach for you since you've never been.
To you it's just sand.

I can't stand you unless you're between my legs.
It's not love but can we just pretend a little longer?

She spent so many nights wiping off smeared make up she won't even put it on anymore

She wants me to fail, and I know it.
I'm too intoxicated by her presence to care.

****** coffee,
Sleepless nights,
Broken hearts,
And drunken fights.

I always run to your bed when I'm lonely,
And fifteen minutes later I'm still lonely but at least I'm
satisfied.

I can't remember your name but I remember how wrong it felt to let you inside me

I was familiar with rough hands but I'll never forget how gentle she was when she touched me

I never fully understood why you felt the need to beat me into submission when I'd already surrendered myself to you after you said you loved me.

Sometimes when I drink coffee I find myself missing you,
So sometimes I don't drink coffee.

A word used only to be polite.
You don't love her if you think she's "nice"

I broke my own heart dreaming I could deserve someone as perfect as you are.

I hope someone can heal you,
I'm done trying.