We haven’t talked the same in weeks.
I miss waking up in your arms and
Falling asleep after an early morning
Waking up when the sun went down
And the moon came up. I miss the feeling
I got when I saw you and you pressed your
Hungry lips to mine and I could feel the
Desperation and how much you missed
My touch in that time that we were apart.
I miss the way you called me drunk and
Hugged me tight with every goodbye, the
Way you pressed me against the wall and
Kissed me when they left the stairwell.
That rush of adrenaline when we had a moment
Alone and those smiling eyes when we got caught.
****, I miss you. I miss falling asleep with a smile
On my face and your kiss on my forehead. I miss
The way I first fell in love on that balcony at
That nearly vacant club, the first time you kissed me
How my heart stopped and my breath caught when
You leaned towards me. I miss the way you smiled
Against my lips when I laughed at myself. I
Miss the way your hands explored me softly
But hungry all at once. I miss the giddy
Feeling I got when you first asked me to
Spend the night, the way I curled up next to
You with my head on your chest with the feeling
Of your heartbeat lulling me to sleep. They tell
Me to move on but they don’t understand. They
Don’t know how hard it is to ignore all these
Things I miss and simply move on.

- I miss you

I knew what it felt like to break
So I shielded my heart from ever feeling that pain again
I was so scared to love
But then you came along, with your kind words and soft hair
I wouldn't let myself feel
Because i'm not aloud to be happy
No one is suppose to love me back
But they told me you did
And maybe at one point that was true
So I pried open the bars of the cage
To release the damaged bird
And let myself feel
It felt so good
And for a while I soared
But then I noticed the way you touched me changed
Your words to me were no longer special
I could feel the void between us
Slowly it grew, threatening to destroy me
But I painted over it with false hope
And ignorance
I was so blinded by love
You never stopped loving her
And you didn't want me anymore
It was her
It was always her
And it was never me
It never will be
I'm always second best

She was a delicate Daisy
In a field of dangerous roses

She loved so deeply
Soared so high
That in the end
It was her heart
That destroyed her

I can’t sit still
I can’t muster the patience
I’m constantly frustrated and unsatisfied
It’s like the only way I can escape it
The only way to release the energy
Is to write
Write down every thought that comes to mind
Mindlessly
As ironic as it sounds

Oh how good your lies sound
When they leave your lips
Like silk
My heart yearns
For your heart
To yearn
Such as mine
To know
You'll never want me
The way I want you
But still I fall
Every time

No one has ever held me
The way that you do
No one has ever whispered
Sweet nothings in my ear
Or stayed up
And talked about
Silly things
While holding each other
Maybe
Just maybe
This is what love
Is suppose to feel like

I don't drink baby
But because of you
I've never wanted to burn my throat
With that poison more in my life

I can feel myself
Falling
And while i'm terrified
I've never felt
This
With anyone before
And i'm terrified
Because
If you break me
I know
It's going to hurt like
Hell

You hurt me
But I don't care
I cry
But still
I try
To make you see
I'm right in front of
Your eyes
Are you blind?
Or is it just
I'll never
Be the one