to the land, to the sea
it talked to me, showed me another
version of
myself lying in the
flow of the creek;
adrift

I watched on log covered
in moss;
“Who is that.. and where is he going?”
I wondered

Off the cliff of
Silent Waterfall;
heavy misty rain on the way down
will he land in world of dreams?
To glorious to even comprehend?

Or was it just
a splash at the bottom?
And his spirit kept flowing
until he fell ashore

the beauty of life
and it’s **** question
we’ll never know
until we know

maybe i do
need to
toughen up,
maybe im to
easily
knocked down
by the slightest
gust of
life

not sure if life
building or falling apart
thing’s changing all
the time
and missing you
is killing me

sometimes when i wake up
after i dream of you
i pretend for that first hour
that maybe that it means
we’ll come back around

it’s a monsoon outside today,
it made me think about us.

yesterday two cars were racing each other, one just slightly gaining past, it made me think of us.

i see 2 birds fly side by side, everyday, they make me think of you
all the time.

when can i skip to the
part where your mine again?

if you ever were at all

i wonder
if in his lonely hours
of midnight,
in spaces where
bones and spirits
meet,
do you dream of me
that way i
dream of you

am i on a
pedestal of
your ridicule
or just someone
you miss
from time to time

you told me
the truth
oh how you came
into my life,
a sacred oasis

it never was,
but i still showed up
for you

now i
check in
time to time,
even though you think
it’s best we end this-
i can’t believe you
suddenly don’t trust me

i say i understand
but what if i don’t

i tried, maybe somewhere
i knew it would end like
this for us,
maybe you just should’ve
spoken up more

im not who
you say i am
or who you think

it wasn’t stage
but it was enough,
at least it should’ve been
to me,
im sorry i threw to the
side so easily

to grow is to
let go of what is.

we become
anew, with friends,
hobbies, and environments

we become new seeds
of old flowers we
dreamed we be,
now it’s time to
sprout again

a new seed of
flower, planted in
new soil,
ready to bloom

there will be
a price to pay,
you won’t get away

starving innocents, murdered mothers, wounded fathers,
traumatized families-
there blood will
be the reason
we face a reckoning

this doesn’t go unnoticed, unpunished,
this is genocide.
you will have to speak up about
the devastation .
tragedies left for centuries

you are not god.

high above
the the trees,
i accept this
new timeline

take some soil; earth,
cover your town,
plant the seeds and
bury back into the earth

let your tears be
the rain
that fertilizes your dreams

one, the first step,
acknowledgment-realization,
a moment of clarity

three, the ending,
a daydream of balloons and
tossed-flowers in the air,
congratulations you made it

two, the hardest part,
the de-center of mindsets, old habits
keeping pace,
breaking molds and trying
not to catch a case-
waking up everyday
to make it to the next

is it because of
of how beautiful
daylight reflects off
the leaves
or how the winds
makes the branches
dance,
i know i have
a life to create,
id just rather sit
here all day
and watch
it go by

i had a dream
she was there
too,
but when I
looked back at
you, something crawled
into your
eye

i reached
to remove it

something alarming
unfolded, literally
in my hands

so fast I couldn’t utter
a word

he has layers, more
than what meets
the eye

it’s the way
the music moves me
the way
my body falls back,
it’s the feeling in my brain
that says
“play pretend”
that’s what my high is

it’s everything
i used to
want.
every word swallowed,
every mask i
put on,
unprocessed feelings
im scared to
***** up

intuition
speaks through art
speak through
your craft

to be with you
would have been
infinite

a path only we
understood,
the past lives
cheering us on
knowing in every
lifetime it would’ve
been
you and me

and while
i change my mind
i’ll dance
as the stage fades

the stage was
always meant to
go, it was built
out of unspoken
regrets, ignored
intuition, harsh reality checks

a dance
that flows like
cosmos bursting’

lyrics speaking
in past,
present, and future
that shoots
through your heart

his voice,
one of a kind,
the one that speaks
to you
in the middle
of the night

a sound that can’t be recreated,
timeless

soul feels like
a pull,
a call,
an ache,
a hand
reaching out beyond
our eyes
soul is the
real heartbreak
soul knows what it wants
love, the purest form
the one without words
a love without struggle
my soul reaches for something
but what?

the one that suffers,
you bear it all,
i ignore ache of
skin to skin
my body calls to
the stars
what if i don’t
believe in soulmates
anymore
maybe I’ll be
the one

the catalyst of thoughts
creating thoughts so loud
they crowd the mind,
body, and soul
my mind says
don’t boy,
you’ll cut yourself on
jagged thought

I feel it pull
on me,
im not meant
for it,
the weight
of love

my mind
is a
place where im
adored

you’re chanting
my name
im giving
you everything

don’t forget me
i do this for
you
and only
you

vacations heal me, i love
to leave ,
i love to watch
the sea,
we see the
world in
new perspective
new faces with
new stories

my life can be described
as one,
constant grief,
falling for the
same tricks
as the ones who came
before

grief the stages
you carry come in
some many seasons
time blends
you almost forget it’s
passing you

grief is cause by
a lost, a wound
sometimes grief is
the lesson but why
must I continue
to endure it?

i once thought
our love would
burn
bright like
the sun
the center of the
cosmos

a subliminal,
a tool to our subconscious
you speak to me
over the quiet chatter
in the mind
even when you’re
not there

trees in the wind

what am i doing?
everyday i wrestle with
the thought

**** and my pen
and i just have
to decide