They'll never understand this thirst
So much heart in one verse
So much love, but never been put first
Maybe there is more to this than meets the eye
Maybe something's brewing in these lightning skies
Maybe I'm starting to read between the lines
And everybody elses conscious lies
Maybe this was what I was trying to find
Doesn't do any good to run and hide
That's why I take it a day at a time
So that I don't get stuck in this web of life.

©2017 Written By Benji James

I've been waging a war against hate
How was I to know this would be my fate
Open the doors to heaven’s gate
But more like I’ll be drenched in acid rain
And who the **** am I to complain?
It gives me the drive to make a name
I keep on swinging back
when I hit, I hit like a train
don’t need drugs to stimulate my brain
I've been walking around dragging a ball and chain
And I’d never been the guy that could just shoot to fame
I’m too caught up in my own ways
Arguing with myself for days upon days
I’m just nothing like those Jay’s and Kanye’s

This is my function
Can’t stop this blood rush and
I’ll always come up with something
To knock these trolls back down
Stepping up to the platform now
10 Feet above the ground
I rock these coliseums
I’ll break them down
I’m unstoppable
When my heads up in the clouds

A lot of people thought I lost my confidence
But isn't it a coincidence
that they believe in every word that I say
I know I wouldn't trust me.
if I was someone else.
Just don’t let that secret out
To the people who want to bring me down
And that’s nearly everybody in the crowd
They're trying to drown me out
No, I won’t stand for this
I’m cranking up the volume
Screaming through this microphone
You’ll never take me out
So shut your mouth

This is my function
Can’t stop this blood rush and
I’ll always come up with something
To knock these trolls back down
Stepping up to the platform now
10 Feet above the ground
I rock these coliseums
I’ll break them down
I’m unstoppable
When my heads up in the clouds

©2017 Written By Benji James

She's staring out of her window
as the cars roll by
Thoughts in her head
thinks she is better off dead
Nothing further from the truth
Girl come on get your chin up
There's more to you than meets the eye
Forget what all the haters say
Forget about impressing that guy
True beauty comes from within
Through your actions
and your heart

Girl you've got a confidence
Girl you just shine
Don't listen to what
those haters say
Get ready to blow some minds
You've got style
With a whole lot of grace
Essence oozing out your soul
You tried laying your heart down girl
You put it all on the line
But now you've got a world to grasp
A mark to make, with every smile you take
To be encrypted into the stars of the night
for the rest of time

Hey girl, don't get broken hearted
Down on your luck
Cuz you ain't out of this race
With a little positivity, you can change
Your whole mindset
Get those negative feeling
out of your head
You've got the mic
You've got the thrown
You've got the spotlight
Girl, don't you know.
Don't carry all this weight on your shoulders
Leave it on the floor
Set yourself free,
Come on girl and just soar

Girl you've got a confidence
Girl you just shine
Don't listen to what
those haters say
Get ready to blow some minds
You've got style
With a whole lot of grace
Essence oozing out your soul
You tried laying your heart down girl
You put it all on the line
But now you've got a world to grasp
A mark to make, with every smile you take
To be encrypted into the stars of the night
for the rest of time

You've been bathing in pools of doubt
Girl, I am here to pull you back out
So if you are feeling down in misery
Don't hold it in and leave it a mystery
Sometimes you've got to just strut
Just don't give a ****
forget about the make up
Natural face, sweatpants
Don't need the leather or lace
You're beautiful, just as you are
Let in a little light
That can carry you far

Girl you've got a confidence
Girl you just shine
Don't listen to what
those haters say
Get ready to blow some minds
You've got style
With a whole lot of grace
Essence oozing out your soul
You tried laying your heart down girl
You put it all on the line
But now you've got a world to grasp
A mark to make, with every smile you take
To be encrypted into the stars of the night
for the rest of time

Boy says you ain't special
Forget em
Boy think his got you
right where he wants you
Gives you all of these lame lines
You've seen this **** like a billion times
Can't help but sit back and roll your eyes
He thinks he can just cut you off
in the middle of a conversation
He thinks your whole world
should revolve around him
But girl, Don't let him
"You wanna know why?
Alright, alright...
I'll tell you why."

Girl you've got a confidence
Girl you just shine
Don't listen to what
those haters say
Get ready to blow some minds
You've got style
With a whole lot of grace
Essence oozing out your soul
You tried laying your heart down girl
You put it all on the line
But now you've got a world to grasp
A mark to make, with every smile you take
To be encrypted into the stars of the night
for the rest of time

©2018 Written By Benji James

Just when they think
I have nothing left to say
I come out with lyrics
The very next day
You'll never hold me down

I'll just keep dropping these ******* down

You'd better hold on

Because I'm just getting started 

By the time I finish
you'll be 
Dearly departed, deeply missed

Nah I'm just kidding,

You may think that you're the best,
But I've had better baby

Guess what...?
You're never going to break me
You aren't my savior
You aren't my queen
Better read between the lines
You mean nothing to me
And I'm not joking
I won't let you see me fall
I'll just get back up
Make you look like a fool
Oh girl don't keep coming around
Trying to say I'm still your man
Shouldn't have played all these games with me
All these games of hide and seek
Who'd you think you were playing with
Kept my guard up
So you wouldn't break my heart
Oh girl don't keep coming round
There's no love left to be found
Eh, eh
You can't take my breath away
You can't bring me down oh no
Your just gonna hurt yourself in the end
You may think the story just began
But you won't find your happy ending here
Think I've made that crystal clear
So stop following me
Like a lost puppy
I ain't falling for those innocent eyes
You've got no innocence left inside
So take it from me.
You ain't seen the best in me

Razor blade cuts
Aren't enough 
Deep gashes 
Ashes to ashes 
Pour salt in my wounds 
I'd only burn for you
People say that its crazy
I think it is maybe 
But I'd give anything 
For her to be my lady

©2017 Written By Benji James

2004 I discovered
I could write
All the emotions I felt inside
That's when the lyrics
Just started to flow
But it started out slow
2011 I was on top of my game
2014 I took a break
2015 I lost pretty much everything
Guess that means
2016 I have to start over again

I used to **** this lyrical ****
Now I can't be bothered
with any of it
In fact, I don't even care about life
I'm sick of all these fake smiles
I'm tired of feeling alone
I'm sick of trying to move on

I'm done with this
Feeling like ****
Trying to get better
That's not working
Trying to find reasons to live
I'm done looking for it
You can't give me a reason to stay
Pass me the blade
It's time to fade away

Stop pretending you care
When I know you don't
I see through your lies
Nobody here can
Make me change my mind
I've seen a dark world
Through these eyes
Thought I could ignite the world with love
Should have given up from the start

I used to **** this lyrical ****
Now I can't be bothered
with any of it
In fact, I don't even care about life
I'm sick of all these fake smiles
I'm tired of feeling alone
I'm sick of trying to move on

I'm done with this
Feeling like ****
Trying to get better
That's not working
Trying to find reasons to live
I'm done looking for it
You can't give me a reason to stay
Pass me the blade
It's time to fade away

I've tried coming to grips
With the things that I think
I can't let this brain keep running
It drives me deeper into the ground
I'm better off when I'm not around
Eternal sleep that's for me
I said it before and I'll say it again
I've taken my vows
It's time to let these lights go out

I used to **** this lyrical ****
Now I can't be bothered
with any of it
In fact, I don't even care about life
I'm sick of all these fake smiles
I'm tired of feeling alone
I'm sick of trying to move on

I'm done with this
Feeling like ****
Trying to get better
That's not working
Trying to find reasons to live
I'm done looking for it
You can't give me a reason to stay
Pass me the blade
It's time to fade away

©2017 Written By Benji James

Just give me a minute

To catch my breath

Girl don't move too far ahead
Slow down, Take it easy

Just take a moment

To consume these feelings

There is nothing else in the world

I would rather do 

Then spend the rest of time

Loving you
I'll lay these rose petals

On your bed

And when our eyes connect

Let me lie you down and love you

©2017 Written By Benji James

Went through so much together
Until you hurt me so much
Had to leave you
Before there was nothing left of us
Day by day, things got worse
Friendzoned from mistakes I made
Not saying I didn't deserve it, still hurts
Can't say, you aren't always on my mind
Everything that could have been
Now a distant memory
Didn't want me in all the ways I wanted you
After everything I said
After all the assumptions that ****** with my head
Even after all of that, Even after hitting rock bottom
Still, want you, Still, need you
I was better when I was with you

Even after all the ways
you broke my heart
I'm still in love with you
You're everything I see
You're everything I dreamed
Even after all the ways
You shattered my soul
I'm still in love with you
And I hope you understand
I still want to be your man
I still want you to be my world
I still want you to be my girl

And maybe this all falls on deaf ears
And maybe you'll never read this
Put it in a letter, just so you know
All that you mean to me
Maybe one day, you will see
I was sincere in these words I wrote
Maybe one day, you will see
You should have been with me
There's nothing I wouldn't do for you
There's no distance that could stop me
From making it to you
Even if you're sent to heaven
I'll follow you there
Hell couldn't hold me back
If I was what you wanted
I'd be there
With you is where I want to be

Even after all the ways
you broke my heart
I'm still in love with you
You're everything I see
You're everything I dreamed
Even after all the ways
You shattered my soul
I'm still in love with you
And I hope you understand
I still want to be your man
I still want you to be my world
I still want you to be my girl

And I'll never live down
The hurt that I caused
And I was stupid
For letting go
Of the one girl, I truly loved
And they said to have faith in gods plans
But I questioned his plans
With the way we ended
All I'm left with now is what ifs
and a longing for your touch and kiss
And I hunger for your graceful gaze
And the way you light up my face
I miss us and the way we talked
I miss everything we were
But most of all I miss you

Even after all the ways
you broke my heart
I'm still in love with you
You're everything I see
You're everything I dreamed
Even after all the ways
You shattered my soul
I'm still in love with you
And I hope you understand
I still want to be your man
I still want you to be my world
I still want you to be my girl

©2018 Written By Benji James

You should look beyond the surface
Dig a little deeper
You’ll see it's worth it
You shouldn't believe that you’re worthless
The hurt, the hate, the lies, the break
All the scars damaging your heart
The strings, the ties, bound and chained
Nobody should be left to feel this way
I haven't given enough blood
They thought that I was done
They thought this was all too much
Nah I'm coming back with a vengeance
This time I'm even more reckless
No rest for the restless
They’re all going down tonight
Yeah I'm ready for the fight
I'm ready to turn the tide
My war on hate is waged
No time left to play
This time I got game
And I’m not going to fade away.

As words dance around my head
I find new meanings again
A rebirth?
A resurrection?
Something tingles through my toes
Working its way through the streams of my blood
Ink pours out of my finger
Splashing the page with vibrant colours
Shapes start to form
trying to will all my power and gain focus
Something flashes before these eyes
A world rotating in slow motion
Pictures covered in black and white
Splotches of colour start to melt in
Like rain hitting the ground
I feel a warmth the likes I haven't felt since I was a child
A youthful feeling
One full of imagination and wonder...
A sound gently lingers in the background
It's soft yet calm
It's kind of soothing
A vibe slowly swaying my body
A rhythm that life slowly bounces to
I hear soft synths and quiet humming
a memory slowly unfolding itself
Pixelated pictures start fading into clarity
This soul feels new, vocal, bold
Is this confidence?
is this knowledge?
This is just poetry in motion.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Guess I'm never meant to fall in love
Guess I'm never gonna be the one
And the rivers of love are starting to run dry
And my heart is sinking on the inside

Into the blackness of this stormy sky

And baby when the thunder comes crashing down

I know I'm all alone in my house

And I tried to give you the best of me

But that doesn't seem to matter

Because you're leaving me alone 
in the dark
trying to hold on 
and it's just not fair

How can I breathe when you're my air

I'll never get to kiss her in the summer rain
I'll never get to experience our first date
And I thought I was dedicated
But it just leaves me frustrated
That she never gave a minute
To take the time to see
That she, She could've been the one for me

People seem to keep leaving me
And I don't understand
Am I that bad, That bad of a friend
What ever happened to staying until the end
People seem to keep leaving me
They find someone else
And forget about me
I'm tired of being alone
How am I supposed to deal with being on my own
When I can't stand who I am
And I wanted to be your man
But you keep leaving me
And It's not fair
You didn't even give me a ******* chance
You didn't even give me a chance

I'll never get to kiss her in the summer rain
I'll never get to experience our first date
And I thought I was dedicated
But it just leaves me frustrated
That she never gave a minute
To take the time to see
That she, She could've been the one for me

And I don't wanna go another day
Without your love
And what you're giving isn't enough
But there is nobody else like you
And theirs a whole lot more we
Need to work through
A whole lot more we need to do
You could at least pick up your phone
And talk to me baby
So come on baby don't leave me
Lying alone, Because I'm tired of sleeping alone
What if I'm afraid to fall back in love
And I can't give them what they want
Thanks for leaving me,
Thanks for confusing,
Everything I do,
Babe, I did it for you.

I'll never get to kiss her in the summer rain
I'll never get to experience our first date
And I thought I was dedicated
But it just leaves me frustrated
That she never gave a minute
To take the time to see
That she, She could've been the one for me

©2017 Written By Benji James

He's just starting to lose control

He's been through all this before

And all the weight on his shoulders

Is starting to take its toll

Where has the light at the end of the tunnel gone

I thought that drowning myself in tears was supposed to help

But one thing is lifted to be replaced by another

What happened, to depending on each other

You are supposed to be my lover

But now I find myself taking everything on alone

Now everything is starting to go wrong
And I'm not sure I can keep moving
When I'm stuck in this circle of emotion
Whats going around keeps coming back around.
Where does this all stop, Where does it end?
Because I'm starting to think,
I'm trapped within myself
nothing really seems to help
Everything that I used to do
to pull my self through
Just doesn't seem to agree with me, anymore.
I've tried to keep writing
Doesn't seem to be working
Soon I'll just start disappearing
No one around me is hearing my call
No one is left to break my fall
Guess I'm caving in tonight
Guess I'll have to do it on my own this time

©2017 Written By Benji James

Loaded, up on pills
Feel fake, don't feel real 
Think they found my Achilles heel
My weaknesses are drowning me out 
My secrets have started coming out
I'm so dosed up 
Can't tell the difference
Between reality and make believe
That has me questioning 
What I'm doing to myself 
Why can't I put these pills 
back on the shelf?
Why am I destroying myself
And everything I stood for
Maybe it's cuz of 
what burns me at the core
Maybe it's the reason I'm still sore
The reason I still feel torn
Pop another pill 
so I can't feel a thing
Numb the pain 
Crumble each part of me away
The past locked in my head 
How the **** am I not dead?
So much blood I've bled 
But razors aren't enough 
To rip my skin in half 
Make sure it scars 
To remind me of all the hurt
I've caused
To remind me of the fall
How do I even come back 
from this at all?

©2017 Written By Benji James

I’m sorry for swearing.

The guilt kicks in
Tears run down these cheeks
Bedrooms dark,
thoughts become bleak
Haven't eaten for a week
All these feelings consuming me
Torture my heart, ripping it apart
All these drugs just aren't enough
To cleanse me of all my mistakes
Tried locking all the memories away
And nothing seems to be working for me
I'm pushing through each day
Looking for a reason to live
And everything I've tried to give
Hope has been stolen out of my pocket
I've been left an empty shell of nothing
Thought I was something
When I was with you
Truth is I'm nothing
unless I have you
To keep me grounded
You were the one
that reinvigorated my soul
You were the one that brought me up
When I was low
When you were around
I never felt alone
You were my safety, my home

©2017 Written By Benji James

It was here in the meadow
Where I carved your name
Into the old oak tree
And we swam in the Brooke
until our fingers were like prunes
And I saw you smile back my way,
Caught a glimpse of heavenly light
Ooh you're my angel, my life
And I ain't letting go anytime soon.

So I pray to the sky
On this cloudless summer night
Oh star in the sky shining so bright
let me make my wish tonight
So I can hope, I can pray
That she'll always stay
On this shining summers day

It was here in the meadow
Where I held your hand
We laughed till we cried
Talked long into the night
Danced and sang all the songs
That we could think of
And you, You looked at me
With your vibrant gleam in your eyes
And it strikes me like lightning
A feeling so frightening
Is this love, Is it love
I don't know whether I can
Keep us together,
but I hope to god this never ends.

So I pray to the sky
On this cloudless summer night
Oh star in the sky shining so bright
let me make my wish tonight
So I can hope, I can pray
That she'll always stay
On this shining summers day

And it was only the beginning
thought she was going to be with me
For the rest of time
But all good things must come
to an end eventually
Even though we hoped that it wouldn't be us.
So here is what is going on just listen,
Listen to my song.

It was on a rainy day I watched her walk,
Walk away, Away from me.
Through the window of my house
Watching from my couch
Trying to figure out what went wrong,
Wrong with you and me
It's not clear why you left me stranded
And I don't feel any better
that you're gone, gone away from me.
I need you here
So I can hold you near
While I run my fingers through your hair
And show you sweet tender loving care

So I pray to the sky
On this cloudless summer night
Oh star in the sky shining so bright
let me make my wish tonight
So I can hope, I can pray
That she'll come back to me
On this shining summers day

So we can be here in the meadow
Where I held your hand
We laughed till we cried
Talked long into the night
Danced and sang all the songs
That we could think of
And you, You looked at me
With your vibrant gleam in your eyes
And it strikes me like lightning
A feeling so frightening
Is this love, Is it love
I don't know whether I can
Keep us together
but I hope to god this never ends.

©2018 Written By Benji James

You're on your own
That's what the world
Said To Me

When I looked in the mirror

It couldn't have been clearer

It's time to say goodbye

Surrender Now
That's what life
Said to me
Inside these walls
(They all came crashing down)
Inside my heart
(His life fell apart)

When I looked in the mirror
It couldn't have been clearer
It's time to say goodbye

They handed him a razor blade
and said now take your life away
That's what the voices said to me
The feeling of his soul
(Was a never ending scar)
When the wounds opened up
(That's when he fell apart)

When I looked in the mirror
It couldn't have been clearer
It's time to say goodbye

As he looked at his reflection
He knew he found redemption
He turned to the sky, and he screamed
I don't believe in religion
but I do know
You've got to make it on your own

He looked in the mirror
He couldn't have been clearer
It's time to say goodbye
(Smashes Glass Sound)

©2017 Written By Benji James

I've written to many lines
Trying to define how I live my life
They wanted a front row view
So I'm gonna give it to you
Feel the tears roll down my cheeks
To many years have I been haunted,
Taunted by past memories
Trying to shake all the hurt inside of me.
And when you despise every part
From your head to your toes
Hate every part of you 
From your heart to your soul
To many times people have dragged you down
And I don't think of myself as a victim
But sometimes I feel like I have no reason for living.
You've been shot down so many times
Believe in one to many lies
Can't you see despair in my eyes
And inside innocence dies
To many times I heard to many cries
But how can I save people
When I can't save myself
How do I hold everyone up
When my strength just isn't at it's peak
And all they see is weakness in me
Take my tears, consumed from fears
I don't like where I'm at right now
I wanna break and tear these walls down
Cuz I'm afraid of being left in the dark alone.

Remember when life was perfect?
Nah life has never been perfect
Yeah but at least I'm making it worth it
So stop taking everything so seriously
I find it hard to believe
That everything should be done so irrationally
I've been unintentionally
Influencing the wrong kind of idea's
But maybe lately I've been thinking about changing
My philosophy and possibly
I think that this could be it
The reason for life is to live
Not to stand or just sit
Don't worry about the future
Your in the here and now
Do something every moment
That will make yourself proud
Lets start living life out loud
Come on just shout it out
Standing tall, Standing proud
Never backing down
Never drowning in the crowd
Standing out
Each individually crowned
The Kings and Queens
Of our own scenes
That’s just the way our story reads
It’s what I choose to believe.

No boys and girls I won't **** with greatness
I just wanted to get a taste of it
I never really wanted to be in this game
But all these People keep tempting me
And I'm still trying to figure out how to shine
I'm still not sure that it is my time
Sure I gotta few hits locked away
But they aren’t any good locked in a safe
I'm still trying to discover my image
Ladies and gentlemen this is just business
And yeah I tear myself apart for my art
Everyone might think that I'm crazy
For letting this shot break me
But it's what's put in that's special
That's why everyone's relating to this
Yeah I'm not trying to prove a point
I'm not hiding things deep down inside
Regrets are another part of life
And that's why I'm letting them out to fly

©2018 Written By Benji James

There are articles spread across the wall
Buildings in picture displays
Headline says the great escape
And he can't help thinking
Why am I here 
Yeah what do I do

Conflict between his head 

And his heart

He used to draw pictures 

Which he thought was art

Comments said otherwise

They said he should give up

That's when he wished he would just die

Hey, Bae
Hey, Bae
Let's run away to L.A.
Yeah honey
You got big city dreams
And I've got a plan
Let's go catch a plane
And get the hell out of here

He started to write down lines
That sprung from his mind
He was saying things he didn't quite understand
But that's when somebody else said
She said I see what you're saying
And I tend to feel that way to
I've had all these mixed emotions
But I won't give up on you
You got a gift
A way with words
You're a modern day poet
I just think you should know it
That is what she said
And he was thinking

Hey, Bae
Hey, Bae
Let's run away to L.A.
Yeah honey
You got big city dreams
And I've got a plan
Let's go catch a plane
And get the hell out of here

He asked her, what are her future plans?
She said I've always wanted to be an actress
Everyone said I was not good enough
And that I should just give up
He looked deep into her eyes
And said I believe in you
You can achieve anything you want to
She smiled back his way
And said that's the sweetest thing
Anybody has ever said to me
That's the most precious gift
Another person's belief
and he said

Hey, Bae
Hey, Bae
Let's run away to L.A.
Yeah honey
You got big city dreams
And I've got a plan
Let's go catch a plane
And get the hell out of here

©2017 Written By Benji James

There is one thing in life you need,
it's love
When it hits you
It takes you over
It moulds you into all that you can be
That is how you know
You've found that special someone
And they are all you can see
they inspire you to be
The best that you can be
With tender hearts
full of love
We could be set free

I want you, I need you
To show me how to love you
We can feel it
It teases
To make us believe it
You've got to know it's true love
I want to kiss you
Feel you
Because you mean everything to me

Never leave me
Because I couldn't bare
To stand the pain
Because you've made me
Everything I am today
Without you, I have no hope
Because you're the one who helps me fly
You help me feel that fresh air
And I can't help but look at you in awe
In all that you are
Because when these feelings strike me down
Hit with cupids arrow now
I know there's not a care in the world but you and I

I want you, I need you
I feel you
You've always got me
Where you want me
You've got that special gift
I'm sensing it
You've got that special touch
To make feel everything at once

Don't ever let this end in tragedy
Because from the first time I saw you
You completely caught my eye
Felt everything heat up on the inside
Blood was rushing, face was blushing
Oh, girl, I think I've got a crush and
I was precautious
But you smiled with that tender touch
Your eyes and lips, they lit me up
Don't want this to ever stop
You grabbed me and wrapped me
In your enamoured heart
and I fell deeply in your love
Everything falls into place
When you're around
You keep me in control
and that's why I need you

I want you, I need you
I can't resist you now
I want your kisses
You're my princess
You're the only girl,
I need in my world
So stay with me
In the moments forever, together
You're all I see,
You bring out the best qualities in me
And that's why it's just you and I
Together for the rest of our lives
Because nothing beats true love

You call this a gift?
I call it a curse.
Turning all my thoughts into words
I don't qualify for love
Cuz I'll never be good enough

You think Say Goodbye wrote itself 

Nah I pulled that story off my dusty shelf

That's where all the skeletons and demons lie

The ones that taunt me deep inside 

this is just a glimpse into my tormented mind

Don't like tapping into my darker side

All the things that I've applied to life

Is to try and fill a hole inside

One that hungers for more

Then I can give 

Watch your soul; you could be next.

The soul to fill the hole in my chest 

And all the darkness that lies dormant inside

Ignites a fire in my eyes

So tired of hiding all these lies

But I've got no senses I can hardly cry.

Maybe I should try one last time

To shed a tear and clear my conscience

To set free all the skeletons in my closet 

To set free all the spirits in my mind

I should try that one last time

even if costs me my life.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Sometimes it feels like your a rocket 

traveling at the speed of light

The fire works that burn so bright

Like a comet flying across the skies, 

A burning flame that never dies

And nothing can bring us down 

We're right where we belong 

We've never ever felt so strong

We're right where we belong 

Right where we belong

We got stars in our palms 

Lucky charms on our arms

can't believe we've come this far

Can you see the view?

I believe that you do

Never felt happiness like this

Must be a product of luckiness

I wished, hoped and prayed for so long

that the vision I'd seen 

Would become a reality 

And now I'm starting to see it

Now I'm starting to believe 

I'm getting to where I need to be

We got stars in our palms 

Lucky charms on our arms

can't believe we've come this far

Can you see the view?

I believe that you do

Never felt happiness like this

Must be a product of luckiness

©2017 Written By Benji James

I love my music loud even when I am sleeping, Cuz I love to drown in all the emotions that the music brings out in me.

It's time to come to terms
With the past things I've learned
How the hurt and pain
Affects people in so many ways
How you think you'll surpass the storm

The everlasting damage 

From the lightning striking 

Wait let's not move too far ahead

Because surviving the storms rage

Is all part of the first act in the play

Well guess what I'm trying to say

Is that the blood we gave 

To make it to the place we made

Was a way to create 

A haven somewhere to escape 

Reflect on the past decisions

The hurt and pain it comes in visions

All the incisions 
were encrypted, into my skin

To remind me of the scars you made

All of the mistakes I'd make

The ones I could never shake

So I inflicted pain 

For all the rage I'd face

Stuck in a constant state of hate

Lost in space, caught in a cage

Stole the innocence and grace 

that is what I gave to pave my way

Into the future, I'd create.

©2017 Written By Benji James

It hit me through the arteries
She tore apart my heart 
Yeah beat me up 
Girl keep shaking up my world 
Girl keep breaking me in half as well
Cuz I love the pain, the hurt
The situation grows worse
Baby chew me up, spit me out 
I'm committed to being the victim 
But we can switch places
I'll crush you to dust 
You won't rise up
I'm far from done
Smart but dumb
For sticking with you
But your addictive 
Your my drug
I can never get enough
I like it when she gets rough
This **** it gets tough 
And yeah it gets hard
I try to leave, but I keep going back
I see the reflection 
through the mirror crack 
I take a step back 
Rearrange the situation 
Make another observation
On the monster, I've created
I gotta let it go,
Before it goes too far 
This relationship it's been pushed to the edge 
If we take it any further will fall off the ledge
This is my last pledge
No more depression, no more pills
I'm walking away before more blood is spilt.

©2017 Written By Benji James

I want to see you in my sights
I want to feel you're on my side
I want you in my life
Be my light
This feels just right
My hearts in flight
Watch this love ignite
A fire so bright
I need you in my skies
I wanna watch you shine
Like the stars at night
I see that sparkle in her eyes
Time flies by
Every time I see her smile
I need that drug, every once in a while
I wanna see her in my sights
I wanna feel her on my side
I need her in my life
Oh be my wish that comes true
I wanna feel you are feeling me too
Wanna be stuck to you
Stuck together like glue
Yeah just us two
Let it be, just me and you
Will stick it through
Together we can prove
That we can do
Anything we put our minds to.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Girl, my world is falling apart
The last light went out
now I'm in the dark
I can't see one star of hope
I've tried to brush these tears away
There is nothing left that I can say
to make everything feel like a brighter day
And I've tried out every single way
to find a way to make you stay
I still can't see a message coming through
Guess I'm left here in the dark waiting for you.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Hello Poetry
Not a poem just a message from me to you
It’s been a long, long time.
I’m just back to share
Now thanks to A.I
I’m able to make my lyrics into songs
So far I have only uploaded to TikTok and FB.
Working on a YouTube though.
So if you want to hear the lyrics in song form.
You can find the ones I have done so far by searching benjijamesmusic

Regards, Benji James