Kai - Hello Poetry

Jun 16

Nobody

you noticed that his room was becoming messy.
"lazy."
you noticed that he had stopped showering.
"disgusting."
you noticed that he had started talking less.
"he's just going through a phase."

but you never noticed how his short sleeves turned into baggy hoodies.
you never noticed that he had stopped eating.
you never noticed that the happy little boy you used to have was leaving.

you never noticed it was getting bad
until it was almost too late

some things i wish i could say to my parents. i dont know how i feel. i want to say sorry but i want to scream at them because they never even noticed.

#depression #ed #eatingdisorder #parents #anxiety #mentalhealth

Jun 16

Nobody

here's to the kids

here's to the kids
who learned to cry with no sound
here's to the kids
who are too afraid to admit they've drowned
here's to the kids
who drag knifes across their skin
here's to the kids
who feel like they'll never win
here's to the kids
who are trying their best
here's to the kids
who just need some rest
here's to the kids
who cry themselves to sleep
here's to the kids
who survived the week

you're doing so much better than you think
i believe in you

jesus christ its like my brain was constipated and i just took cerebral laxatives

Kai Jun 15

The Riptide

The riptide fell
It probably felt unwell
One toppled on another
Few weeks later
And somehow a tsunami awakened
The riptide is back
Tired
And running away
Hoping to not get consumed and torn up
By the tsunami again

Oh, btw my name means ocean so I think it's cool I feel a really deep connection with water and my name means ocean (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

EDIT: ignore that comment. It's Ryan pretending to be Dom. I can't delete it because he blocked me. Fore clarification, I'm not RGH. That's disgusting. Plus, why would I out myself? I'm not that stupid.

Kai Jun 15

child hypersexuality(?)

Start up and log in
Find the website that'll keep me busy
Find the headphones to tune out

Finding my mind roaming
Finding my mind in bad places
"So what?"
So what?
I think about nearly EVERYONE in a bad sensual way
It's bad
Terrible
I know it
But I can't stop
Like my mind it tempted to keep coming back to the subject

I keep finding myself
Touching my friends in ways
That is not suitable for children's eyes
I keep finding myself
Talking to my friends
Saying things only meant beneath the covers
Or with my lovers
I keep finding myself
Thinking about myself
In vulnerable positions
With others

I keep finding myself
Disgusted
Yet amazing
As I feel a person's hand on my neck
Slowly squeezing
Pushing back
Like I love the pain it creates

I keep finding myself with these ****** thoughts as if it were a full time job and working overtime
I'm disgusted

She's going back into that phase again. ****** abuse again!!!! At least I think so.

Anyways let's not mind this. 'Kay? Thanks. (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤

EDIT: ignore that comment. It's Ryan pretending to be Dom. I can't delete it because he blocked me. Fore clarification, I'm not RGH. That's disgusting. Plus, why would I out myself? I'm not that stupid.

Kai Jun 15

Fun

It's funny
How everyone is such a dummy
Acting as if they were high off their rockers

"Don't believe everything on the Internet!!!!" They say
They say this nearly everyday
Yet they believe
Believe

It's funny how I can act
I can act serious
Then start laughing till I cry
Putting a mask over my face
And convince people that I'm fine everyday

It's funny how grown men
Act like children

It's funny how the education system
Is ****** up mentally if it were a human

It's funny how you don't even know
Who I am really
By birth
So who are you to define who I am?

It's funny how we let people belittle us
Well it's obvious who has ***** and who doesn't...

It's funny how people lack common knowledge

It's funny how people are so insolent and arrogant
Bold I say.

Hey so like I'm kinda bored and I haven't posted in about a month so idfk