Until when do we,
have to hide away?
All we do is chase the day.
Do we stay or flee?

Farther we inch apart
to places we've never touch.
****, I will miss so much
the things we did at heart.

I'm indefinitely impatient
and you were inevitably,
indefinitely,
complacent.

How could it all end?
Two years of this.
All I wanted was your kiss.
But to you I'm just a friend.

It hurts to see.
You caught up,
while I was your backup.
I hated it. I didn't agree.

You never really know what’s coming,
a small wave, a big one.
Life is surprising,
because someone came along.

With every crash of a wave,
the stress is washed away.
Every minute spent with you,
I have faced the earth, brave.

The day arrived when I had to wear my veil,
a beautiful white lace of purity.
This day embarks us to set sail,
of our moments of gentle charity.

It may be inevitable,
for the high tides to drown us away.
Let’s not make our impulses irrevocable.
Together we can fight the days of gray.

Waves don’t die,
same as my love for you.
Look at the sky,
the stars shine for me and you.

My heart beat like a drum
endlessly falling for you.
I licked my lips of colored plum,
hoping it will touch yours too.

You held me like I was yours,  
and it meant that you were mine.
It was a night like no other,
a feeling of cloud nine.

Your left hand wrapped upon my right.
Your right hand on my immobile arm.
I held on to you too tight
hoping that it will be no harm.

It was a feeling like no other
to finally feel loved.
Fortuitously slept, rather
than talking to my beloved.

You chose her
A heart was broken
Two eyes blur
A dream was not woken

"I wanted you."
*******
All alone in the skies of blue
Was it all a skit?

'Her' didn't want you at all
You have no one but an empty space
Now who is standing tall?
To me, you are just a familiar face

I am haunted by a past,
full of nightmares and a gun shot,
a melancholy day,
a restless night.

To when will I be,
at a place of a new me.
Here I am again.
Lost and never found.

I thought I was fine.
Little did I know
that I was wrong to say.
I was never fine.

A home is where
your undying heart stays.
I lost my home.
All I have is a place to live.

Every hour I am awake
at a place not a home.
I turn inevitably insane
like a gun unready to aim.

I am all alone.
Not a single one
can interpret what I feel.
Moreover, I am the black sheep.

Do I get to keep who I am?
NO--I can't.
I am limited to what I need.
How can I be better?

A water pipe that has a hole
can be fixed with a bit of tape.
However, it is never fixed
only pretending to be fixed --covered.

I was never fixed.
I was only pretending to be.
It's been a year,
and yet I am found at a grave.

Friends help.
Family don't.
I though we'd go as one
to overcome.

No one is listening.
I am watched over by
a ghost of
---nothing.

A common regularity,
far from a classic rarity.
Painted streaks of words,
in a monotone minor of thirds.

A repetition of strokes in action,
unaware of the situation.
Beautiful abstractions,
of created translations.

No words of assurance,
could explain the abrupt piece,
destroyed for insurance.
A beautiful disaster to release.

We were never an inch
closer; to what could have been.
A repetitive game of trying to reach
Is it my fault I spread myself too thin?

A close second to be yours
Thinking all the spaces were filled
You got me for two years,
all locked up and unfulfilled.

Done crossing the finished line
Came in last and unsurprised
You were never mine.
I went home with no prize.

It has arrived at last
where my heart is never wandering
of the time another heart beats
It is not functioning yet pumping

The neurons in my brain
they never electrify anymore
It was too felt: the pain
The stigma now invisible

Air is now only drawn for
a pair of lungs that are mine
breathing for less not more
The O2 was unassigned

legality is yours to conquer
with me or not
you, you have the power
never forget me in your thoughts

"I don't know who and where I am anymore."

"You are here."
"You are hiding like the sun behind a cloud."


When the sun is ready to shine and leave her hiding place, she will shine so magnificently bright.
She is so bright that she gives light to everyone.
She is too beautiful to be forgotten that it is saddening to encounter when she sets at 5:52pm, but she never disappears.
Despite the darkness making it difficult to see her, she is present.


"I am disoriented."

Even the sun has her moments of disorientation --the solar and lunar eclipses.


"I want to hide forever."

She is too bright to keep herself hidden for too long. She will come out, eventually.


"You are the sun."

I never saw the night like this
Countless stars shining through the abyss
A quarter moon full of light
I never knew this is how beautiful the night is

I wander through my countless thoughts
How it would feel to twinkle like the stars
How it would look like to be as bright as the moon
I wander every night that I see how beautiful the night is

To see is to believe the wonders of the night sky
Its color of blues and whites makes me
Calm as how the wind is
To see is to believe *how beautiful the night is

Come over
I'll be waiting
Hours has passed
and yet I am still anticipating

Sun has set
curtains have closed
Are you still coming over?


My eyes shut close
from the waiting
A warm touched
my bare shoulder

Sleepover.

An awkward place
the whole world is facing
a tragedy; a seemingly lost case
What should we be doing?