i'm all sorts of inebriated
but you need to know something

i think i love you
and it's funny

i know nothing of you,
you're far above me

but i think about those
words you write,
every day
and every night

how do you do it, dear?
how do you make such
beauty so?

i read my tears
and fears and all

there on the page
in front of me

& your signature
is signed at the bottom

i know nothing of you
but i love you

and i would tell you if
i could

but i have nothing but
this mediocre chorus

drenched in the harmonies
of my heart and mind

and it will forever pale,
always fall short

you are a poet
i am a fraud

yet regardless,
i know only the shadow
of your profile,

& the singular
heart that colors
in the black &
white lines

regardless,
i love you so
and you need to know

I yearn for meaningful conversation.
I crave touch.
**** emotions and expectations.
I hold back in fear of being consumed.
Why do I even try?
Destroy or be destroyed.
I can't hide anymore.
You infiltrated me,
I fail at removing you from my bones,
the scars are too intertwined.
I'm abandoned and I shatter,
I fall to pieces.
Utterly alone.

A Valentine Poem

Think of green and gold, sapphire hues,
With darkness gone your freedom is fun,
There is nothing wrong with staying you,
Natural love and joy is best shared in the sun.

Before the whole of all we see, let dreams be,
Sometimes there is nothing to be seen,
The truth is life is real, yet in the night you
Can feel that you're truly living in the dream.

Fantasy is left to the best, some can even be
There in "your concern" but the real test
Is learning to be true to what you yearn,
You shall rise to the top when it's you're turn.

Think of green, think of gold, her wild strength
And beauty to behold, playful and tough, such gorgeous sight,
And oh so cute-you can see he's the right one for you,
Be mine, my green and gold valentine! I'll be in your arms tonight.

And I still love him.
After all this time.
My heart still longs for him the way the ocean yearns for the shore.

Relentlessly, hopelessly, pitifully.

No matter how many times the ocean draws away,
it always finds itself crashing back into the arms of the cold, unstable shore.

I am a glutton for your LOVE
Not the pink pedals from a rose.
But to engulf in chills of
Feelings - risen from YOU.

I yearn to be wrapped in YOUR
affection - that is enough.
To indulge in your passion poured -
From gashes but fearlessly entrust.

I yearn for you to give me all of YOU
The you that "you" keep encaged
Is the YOU that I long to love too.
I'll take all of you, have no fear.

Just let loose your baggage -
And let me love all of it
As I live to love you and ALL
That comes with it.

Because,
I love you dearly, but
I think you're an idiot.
So delicately strumming on
My heart strings
So tactfully selecting your words,
The ones that will burn the most, hurt the most, yet,
spark the fire the most -

She stood so serene, enticing me full of desire.
Simply gazing at her would set your soul to rest-
But she set my heart in a blaze of fire.

Always longing to be in her presence.
Though, never wanting to become vexatious.
Of beauty she was the quintessence.

My eyes had never been so honored.
Then when fixed upon her.
Every moment apart from her was a moment squandered.

She was the most exquisite human being I have ever known.
I yearn for all of her.
And all of her
Alone..

To be
Or not to be

That isn't the question
To be here, to be there
To belong
That is the question of life

How to belong
How to feel
How to get there
How to remain
Those are the questions

Life is about belonging
You have one moment in life
Where you know

You feel no different when the day begins
But after it occurs
Whatever it may be

You know where you need to be
For the rest of life

A pull from deep in your chest
Lets you know it will never be the same
Behind your lungs
A longing wraps its self around your very spine

You know from that moment
Any work necessary to feel that way again
And everyday
Will all be worth it

To be without that experience
Is never to live

So where should you be