I watch as you stir beneath the covers - they are not silk like you deserve, yet you wake stretching and smiling a crooked smile. And like the deity you are, you clamour through the kitchen for a cup of tea and sit atop a desk where you speak with the sun through glances alone.
I like to believe that you are looking for something in that red glare of morning -hope, perhaps love. And yet, I love you so: I love the way you unfurl the pages of a book like moth's wings -I love that you know where all the lost things go and your habit of brewing a second cup for breakfast when you laugh around bites of buttered toast.
I love you most in those moments when you seem to hold all of time in your hands. Before the day begins, when you are most yourself -and at your most wonderful.
It is very important to take care of yourself, and to make peace with yourself - because you are one of the persons who will never leave you.
Awoke to the sun beautiful this morning the kind of day one feels alive admittedly still a sense of losing emptiness but somewhat less than winter days I suppose days like these It's that I want to live for the both of us Helen would not want me sitting around moaning but to get out there live for Her too Go some of the places we went together just to sit and remember all the fun things she loved to do and to think back to days at seaside those Ice creams dinky doughnuts and of cause donkeys But just to Imagine she In the sat beside me which I'm sure she still Is giving Instruction how to drive all those things at the time might seemed annoying I'd have all back tomorrow without complaint because I loved her so much never stop missing her one In a million a real rare gem priceless
Helen was like rare Gem priceless one In a million there will never be another
Days of late I've learned to forget of reality or lies that newspapers tell news I never see use the Internet to check If there's anything I need to know Other than that I'm blind to what going on any more and surprise surprise I'm not bothered at all for I now live within the very poetry the words I write far removed from reality I'm truly happy where I don't miss the real world I've found where real love lives within that of poetry It's my own place from the harsh realities of life can't touch I'm untouchable from the evils of this deteriorating world being destroyed by It very Inhabitants but I'm safe I live the world of poetry writing where freedom really Is I've arrived at the point In my life to where I want to be and this Is what Its going to be poetry all the way from now on In
Found at last arrived at the point In my life I truly want to be that of the world of poetry writing
And as I lay upon my bed looking at our wedding pictures on my wall and know that my darling Is free of the pains she suffered throughout her life And with her loss small comfort I know but comfort all the same to know she free of the worsening problem of this world No longer to face the suffering of degrading assessments by people that are not even qualified to determine her right to disability allowance Helen required a wheelchair because of walking disabilities breathing heart problems Osteoarthritis crumbling bones her spine was twisting she required oxygen a ventilator mask at night and through the day She reached a point where no amount of pain killers worked for her she was left to suffer the pain She was so Incredible In her bravery shown but still, she wasn't given the correct amount of money she was entitled too I to have been through that assessment process I know how degrading It Is so as for gaze upon our wedding photos on my walls wedding photos a comfort to have for having lost her but I know In my heart my sweetheart Is free of the terrible pains she suffered through her short life her quality of life was so poor she's at peace now God bless her soul, I shall forever love her
Helen Incredible In her bravery right to the end I will always love her and have the greatest respect for her so very proud to shared twenty years with her as man and wife an truly an honour
Every day I sing In praise to my sweetheart deserved so much more In life than she ever received there Is no justice In this world to which we live
A world I'm not to keen on anymore when I see the way the misfortunate of our society are treated they are cast-aside as If of little Importance for God shake they fellow humans
What Is wrong with our society that allows this to happen shame on those Involved who make these poor people lives so miserably
We send out foreign aid nothing wrong In that but we don't take of our own It's as the authorities are ashamed of the situation but don't want to admit to it or the big part In causing the terrible suffering they have created I'm lost for words
So much unnecessary suffering to our fellow humans at times It almost Unbelievable the suffering
Muhammad Ali had such an Influence on me saw every fight from first to the last never ever be another Muhammad Ali For he was the greatest there ever will be never had an Interest for boxing till Muhammad Alli he floated like a butterfly with a sting like a bee truly was the greatest Muhammad Ali
A tribute to Muhammad Ali who had such Influence on my life a true Inspiration the greatest
I'm still finding people who didn't know Helen had died a nice Hungarian lady she didn't know I had to tell her the smile fell from her face the shock It broke my heart to see her she said how sorry she was told me look after myself then high fived me that was a nice touch Helen was loved and missed by so many, the testimony of the loving and caring lady she was there will never be another Helen a true great