I confess
I'm not good enough
But for some reason, you don't see that
You don't mind that you deserve so much better
So I strive
Every day
To be better
Just to try and justify
You loving me

I wonder why things always turn out to be lies,
Makes me wonder, why am i alive?

So I think what would it be like, To fly?
Creating a close harmony with the sky.

It's a question of time,
To step out of line,
and to strive to make her mine.

Hope
is a benchwarmer,
a mere spectator-
wistful as the game tarries,
useless as a goal jockey.

I want to rip you apart
until you are merely fragments of human
ripped and vulnerable
then I could finally tell you
how I feel
about you
about us
about the way I strive for us to exist together
in this lonely universe.
I would glue you back
piece by piece
carefully and slowly
making sure you are still just as perfect
as you were before.
but I know that no matter what
you will be
you make my heart sing pure joy
just by the look you give to me
the sensation of your warm hands on my skin
nothing could make me feel more secure
even since the first time I saw you
my soul was awakened
I was given a purpose
to fall in love with you.
you don't love me though
and you never will.
I am nothing to you
just a foolish female
who will give you anything you desire
that is my own fault,
not yours
I have let myself lust for you
too many times
and now I am stuck
craving your presence and voice
your affection and promises
I know I am a sucker for you
and I am not sure
if I will ever not be

The universe has given you everything you dream for.
The question is, how determined are you in claiming them?


Persistence is Key.

You're always be the struggling thoughts
Of your imaginative dream
Threshold of life expectancy
Why or why not still the same?
Places you go
People you meet
Events you're in
Something isn't right?
Why or why can't it be?
For the same ground
to land on
For the things that you can't move on
For it is the time
to the open door once more
Even if its scary
or a little bit dangerous,
go on while you can.

What?
What do you mean?

This isn't how it's supposed to be
This isn't what I want for me.

When did it all go wrong?


It would've been at the very beginning
Before we even knew it was a mistake.

We can't go back
There never was anything left for me.

But

Pretend this is the beginning
The day that it all will start.

There's nothing holding us back

This wasn't forever
It doesn't have to be.

We can still be free.

new beginnings

softer endings

hold me til my head stops spinning

stop the laughing

you're not having

anything other than winning

so let's begin

this over again

and when you come to see

what it is that's wrong with me

you can confess

that I'm the mess

while you're the striving

boy of stress

You've got some real nerve thinking we could be friends again,
And I've got a real problem telling right from wrong again,
I think I stood strong, you still wouldn't admit you were wrong,
I understand I was harsh, but don't forget how you led me on,
You threw me away and ruined what we had,
After you found more strife in another man,
Now I'm ****** up, because you couldn't keep your legs shut,
I know you'll try and talk to me again this year,
But this time, I might legitimately give a ****.