Tears falling down my face, you say and do nothing.
    My heart is telling me it's hurting, but it doesn't matter.  I'm screaming inside but you can never hear me.
   Once your angry at me, I No longer exist.

it happened so long ago
i'm not even sure anymore
just how much i remember or know
all i know for sure
is that reaching that far behind
sometimes makes me
want to lose my mind
and run off screaming
into the abyss of eternal sleep
yet even there the dreams
might find a way to creep
back into my head
and awaken me in fright--
did i ever mention
how much i hate the night?

It's this lump in my throat that seizes to be swallowed.
The missing thoughts in my mind that keep me from reality.
There are burns on my wrist from the ropes that bind them.
My mouth is shut tight from the tape that conceals it.

It's the screaming in my head and the ringing in my ears.
The shake in my hands and the ache in my feet.
There is a burning in my muscles from the tension in my body.
My deserted frame is collapsing.

It's the filth in my bones that wont wash away.
The haunt of 2:00 am that relentlessly feeds this exhaustion.

Screaming

Easier than Singing

But to me, the Same Thing

Singing

(oh please, please **** this
take this life, I don't need it
I don't know, what reality is
because I cant see through all of this)

{digital heaven, electron clouds
negative zero, screaming out loud
digital angels, burning in hell
downloading demons, no soul to sell}

(it is time, time for change
it is time, for better things
to get away, to the other side
to fall asleep, and open your third eye)

{getting away now, ascend into blue
digital cancer, the way out is through
through my digital heaven, electron clouds
negative zero, screaming out loud}

(that was once, was once me
it was once, was once us
what we've become, something processed
feeling so numb, take my last breath)

{getting away now, ascend into red
digital healing, waking the dead
getting away now to the other side
breathing in slowly, spun out of my mind}

lonely street lights
guide us home
show us the way
chilled to the bone

I wanna get out
out of this town
scream in the city
dance all around

i have lost
my oldest home
in the
f
a
l
l
i
n
g
rain
i can smell
gasoline and
now i know
what i've done
i can't
see you
i can't
know you
can you
show me
who i
**used to be

Your passion lit me on fire like the end of your cigarette
You had me screaming my love from the rooftops
But just like your cigarette, you put me out
And now I'm screaming from the fall

Standing stock still as your eyes
bored into mine.
Ambivalent of whether i should
stay here or leave.
Ignorant about the situation
i have been in.
Screaming in my blank face
i'm just hopeless.
Tears remain unshed inside,
i broke apart.
Watching you feed the flames,
i stepped right in.
the moment i was engulfed i knew
that i was home.