My fear became real
My love for you gone
My eyes dry
You disappear
In my mind
I hold you tight but
The feeling I feel
Deep inside me
No one should know
My biggest fear
As a secret
I keep it
My dear
I don’t want to lose you

I am ugly
And no one can convince me that
I am beautiful
At the end of the day
I hate myself in every way
I'm not going to lie to myself by saying
I am good enough
I am worthless
Don't try to convince me that
There is beauty inside of me
Because no matter what
I am not good enough to be loved
Don't tell me that
I am perfect
When I look in the mirror I know
I am ugly
And nothing you say will make me believe
I am beautiful

~j.l.

An alternate universe
I created in my mind
to see reality in reverse.

Where stupid tyranny
is just a laughing matter
and serious chatter
only carefree pink irony.

Oh, what would I do
without this corrosive
intoxicating glue.

I am cold.
But everyone says
You just need to get past my walls,
I am a warm person deep down.
They see what they want to but
I am cold as ice inside.
People will tell you
I have a sensitive side but
Hardly anyone sees.
What I truly am inside,
A heartless monster.
Still, my peers think they know
I am really a big softy.

Now read it bottom to top.

you're so high,
white glowing light,
I'll never let you go,
always blowing me kisses from the sky,
I send you kisses,
we're two in one,
you know all of my secrets,
we'll be together every night,
you've always been there,
you always stay until the sun shows up,
protecting me through the night,
every night,
white glowing light,
you're so high.

Now read from last line back up to the first.
~SacredInkedBlood ©112718 via Ven Jencie Clifton Arnold

Walk in my shoes
& feel the sun beam
upon my dark skin

Feel the burdens
pile, inch by inch
depth, width, height
& mourn

Let your eyes tear up

Drip.Drip.Drip..

Let them fall
& replace your ignorance
with compassion

I am human
but you fight me
with a shield

Your eyes are the window
to your weapon

Resist the urge
to growl
grumble
&
complain

Close those barrels
in your mind
&
rest

Relax the tension
in your heart
& breathe
in a new air

Let dawn approach
as you become
a new being

Ready to take on
the ugliness
of the world..

Sincerely,
a servant