I was once a blind man; I sought after something that simply didn't exist.
I climbed the stairs, to reach the roof of the building. Looking down was a sea of hope. I did not want hope~
I tried, I jumped wanting to sprout wings and fly, soar above anything that may put me in harms way.
But like a stalled plane, I fell hard and fast.
I was never this trusting, I sealed my heart within the confines of my eternal jail cell -the mind- hoping it would never escape the darkness.
My weary mind only brought angst and distorted memories.
those feelings I had never wanted to feel again.
Like melted glass, my heart was sculpted from pieces of my broken past.
shattered over and over, I fought for whatever remained but my mind can be malleable. It can be twisted and believe in the lies that one may bring upon myself.
The will to love, to trust, to become one with another was all but forsaken until an enlightening soul entered my life.
How the memories of the taken, were brought back onto my mind and to hell they went for the sins they've committed. I didn't care. I broke the circle and without hesitation ran toward the inflicted. They were torn. Just like I.
They're heart shattered just like I.
I saw them, atop the same building.
About to jump.
But it was then I realized, it was me. Again and again the cycle continued.
I was the one who pulled myself toward the hope.
I was the one who wanted to love again.
I never wanted to grow wings, to glide into the vanta night sky alone once again.
I never wanted solitude
I realized myself. Who I am, who i'm meant to be.
The sins I commit are ones i'm proud to speak for if they are sins at all; why should I abandon those who sought to condemn me to hell?
I am a man of my own free will. I am a man who seeks his own happiness. I am a man who controls his life.
I am me.
I hate myself
so please dont try to convince me
I'm worth it
Because no matter what
I'm my worst enemy
And I'd never lie to myself by saying
I shouldnt have self hatred
So I promise you that I will always remember
That I'm the epitome of my mistakes
And nothing you say will make me think
I still deserve a happy life
Because no matter what
I'm not good enough for people
And I will never believe that
I'm good enough for anyone
Because whenever I look at my reflection I think
Have I ever deserved a happy life?
Read top to bottom then bottom to top
A Sin! A Sin! Yet one i shall keep!
For whatever we sow,
Together we reap!
I learned guitar
just for the perfect moment
when i find me and my future
perfectly in tune
ready to play the melody
that is life
Dont end me
My heart so eroded
Dont end me
Melt my eroded heart
Until it become
Glass once more
Dont you feel like
Life is easier emotionless
We try to seize the moment
But in the end its always "goodbye"
And forced to face reality
Because we're all going to die
My fake smile is all you see
Because we all know the
Tears are real, the smile's not me
Do we truely know whats inside of us
That deep down we are nothing but
our broken hearts and lost parts
Fallen glass and broken shards
We try so hard to realize our strengths
So we can mask our greatest weaknesses
But in our heart and souls
We know what we are...
A hollow shell
Of handcrafted beauty
Hidden from a world
to forsake our existance-
Like a shadow
On a winters day
Like a pencil mark
That has been
Like a tear
Like my self-esteem
After they claim
They're strong and I'm weak
Like my voice
The well of society
Like my heart
With all of the
Like the words
Of my family
When they say I'm blessed
When they all know
Im nothing but