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Ellen Piper Sep 2014
The bicycles were a forged parent-permission slip
But well-forged.
I lifted myself over the tear in the truck's seat cover, not sliding
Not perforating further for today.

The road was short, short enough to have ridden the bicycles from first start to real start.
But that would not have been exotic
Connection is exotic, and channels must be followed through an antfarm
Proper etiquette must be observed with touch-me-nots

The bicycles were easier to lift from the bed with two
I gave him that, passing a front end, and jammed the wheelspokes with a jabbed finger
So that the damp spinning would not flick his face with groundwater
I expected it to hurt. My expectation tapped lightly.

That narrow pock-marked blacktop was my windtunnel
The air stroked its thumbs over my eyelids and I ached to push, breathe, push further
He held me back with his slow handlebars,
His slow kickstand clicking.

Pedaling slowly is more difficult than flying.
One finds gladness in choosing leaves to crunch with an inch-wide tire
And high-fiving low-hanging branches is socially satisfying.
He smiles behind the white mustache, and I don't mind.
Parenthood tells me
Eating ***** daily
Deliciously hard work!
wes parham Jun 2014
This stupid book has nothing to offer me
In eight pages on stiff paper board.
The pictures are saccharine,
A fat headed boy
In colorful clothes
Shows us what he can do.
How could I see the value
In knowing this simple stuff?
I’m too far removed from my point in time
When “jump” and “run” were just sounds,
When jumping and running were just what they are,
Far removed from the labels we gave them.

So it comes to this: this stupid book
Among all of God’s ink-sodden paper,
Is an achievement of gold,
the height of literature,
a swell in my throat,
When you brought it to me
just today, and said,
“dada”
“read”
I never liked reading that book. When my daughter asked me to read it specifically, I knew it wasn't because it held some special place in her toddler heart. She wasn't talking much, but she said those two words to me, holding out that stupid book, and I realized why we read together. It's to BE together, *******, just as much as anything. I understood so much in that moment.
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wes parham Jun 2014
Do you see yourself there,
In this life that you've made?
Arcs traced, just so, by the motion of eyes?
The flicker as they search, the pause before they rest,
The metrics of biology, could they possibly tell?
Whose child was whose,
and what they were thinking?
My children's eyes fascinated me when they were infants, the consciousness burning so bright within.  I wanted to know what experiences sounded like to them, pristine and yet disconnected from the source from which we all derive being.
..read here by the author:
https://soundcloud.com/warmphase/the-lights-of-fires
wes parham May 2014
Take countless photos, when the mood so inspires.
You may as well have not even thrown the shutter.
For the things that move you right in this moment,
Will not adhere to the chemistry of film
Will not flip one single electronic switch
Cannot be stored, except in the mind,
(A shoddy storage medium)
For the sight of your face,
Your beautiful otherness
Mingling with me in the air in between us-
( As you try to pick my nose… )
Your head is on my shoulder,
Heavy with sleep
And trust, always growing,
As your eyelids drop lower
My arm, sore, bends to raise you up.
I’m relishing the time
To be quiet, close, and still.
When I can find, in my heart,
All the words that mean something,
Not tossed about casually, in the noise of the day.
Children turn you into a media machine, hell-bent on capturing the way you feel all the time.  Give it up, it's impossible!  Seriously, though make sure to enjoy the moment and don't miss it by trying too hard to preserve it.  The title refers to blue lines used in old technical drawings that were, essentially, invisible to a camera when you went to photograph the drawing, but still visible to the eye.  That is, something impossible to capture.
Read here by the author:
https://soundcloud.com/warmphase/non-photographic-blue
A C Leuavacant May 2014
Daughter
So young
In my mind you sleep
Your tiny hands
The love in your eyes
It will be my downfall

Daughter
Someday I'll meet you
And show you the world
Take you down paths
That I once walked

Daughter
So warm
I'll sit along
Your hospital bed
Through your first ever sleep
From the moment you're born
My life won't be the same

Daughter
I wait
Because I know it's for you
The piece of my life
That will fix me forever

Daughter
You're everything
All that I need
The clasp of your hand
I know will complete me

Daughter
You're older
Have a child of your own
But always I love you
The seed of my heart.
Change is constant
Even when we have lost it
Our souls, our bodies
No longer clinging to meaningless hobbies
The only thing guaranteed
In a world full of greed
All warnings we did not heed
Taking without need
Corrupted images destroying self esteem
We should be working as a team
To undo the damage
Of the rich man's rampage
Stealing resources
Wars on false pretenses
Thinking about the future makes me tense
So many of my friends already have their mind set
"Having a family, that's what's best"
Why would I want to bring another life into this
An innocent soul
You're supposed to protect
shape
and mold
Truth be told
I am not that bold
Although your hand I would love to hold
I dare not bring another fragile human into a world so cold
wes parham May 2014
Young, you watch the wheels, mama's car reflects the sky.
Turning,  shifts the scene across the glass as she drives by.
Good-bye for now, good-bye until the dusk begins to crack.
Hello is payment for the night to ransom her hugs back.

Young, the wheels are slowly turning on a new red trike.
Older now, two wheels race beneath a brand new bike.
Two and three wheels' independence foreshadow what's in store.
The freedom found in two wheels, three, compared to that in four.

Drive away, the day was always waiting in my heart.
You drive away, this is the task I took on from the start.
That once you knew  enough to really take care of it all,
To seek the challenge of the world, to fly, and hurt, to fall.
To measure all the joy and pain, the cost from what was free,
I hold you close, but teach you how
to drive away from me.
Here's one more paradox about parenthood.  
Our whole goal as parents is to make sure that, one day, these little people _don't need us.  It's bittersweet, because your pride in their independence contrasts with the love and holding close that helped them learn confidence, compassion, and strength.  I can barely read this without weeping.  **** changes you, man.  At the core.
wes parham May 2014
Perhaps you’ll remember,
though most of us don’t
recall our earliest days.
What relative scale could you use
to describe the things you saw
and the things you felt?
It seems too unreal for a mind
you would one day call mature
and an intelligence
deemed sufficient.
If you could, would you choose,
and what would you find,
if you could retrieve these moments?

when a warm, familiar heartbeat
kept reassuring time,
in a comforting bed at blood temperature,

when hands twice your size
would cradle you completely; move you
from bath to crib,

when loving giants would come
when you called,
to sing or to soothe your pains,

when sleep held dreams of this and more,
in a language we all have spoken,
Beautiful to hear, forgotten on waking
As I struggled with the challenges of being a new parent, I imagined what the perspective might be from my infant daughter's mind.  I wondered what she thought of us, how she would describe us once she could do so in our language.  I say "our language", since the mind must be forming thought before language comes around, some ur-language of the collective conscious mind.  The phrase "loving giants" kept coming to mind, since we must seem colossal to a newborn as we move them about, cause some discomforts, alleviate others, as we sing and laugh to let them know they are safe and cared for.
Read aloud here by the author:
https://soundcloud.com/warmphase/loving-giants
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