The *** Ed booklet:
man and woman hand in hand -- keeping their distance.
Poem "At the River" (2009, Louise Glück)
Collection "Loves Tricks Gains Pains in the 0s"
You are the diseased soil in which these doomed seeds were sown,
You are the poison tree from which these evil apples dropped, And you are the acid rain that raises the earthworms from their underground abodes and eats eats eats away.
Today I turn 18.
There’s something so comforting
In trading in everything The taking and giving Of motherhood What does it mean to be whole? Shifting your insides around an additional soul? The pain and the toll Of motherhood How to express The vastness of universes Alongside the mundane Of getting dressed in the morning? There’s something so absolute Something so boundlessly true In the brown of the root and the red of the fruit In the green of the shoots Of motherhood
We are home, we will
wait for you, yes, they once have -- said that to me too.
"Het tankstation op de route" - 2 ("The filling station on the route" - 2, 2013, Jan Baeke)
Mama keeps chasing
me, I give me the advice -- she would have given.
Poem "Moeder" ("Mother", 2022, Ester Naomi Perquin) --- Collection "On the fly"
Every time I think
what my mother would have said -- Yet, do I know her?
Poem "Moeder" ("Mother", 2022, Ester Naomi Perquin)
Collection "On the fly"
The girl just watches,
her parents build tall towers -- till they fall over.
"Sommarsömn" ("Summer sleep", 2020, Jens Christian Grøndahl)
Mother shakes her head,
she has a different view -- of my path in life.
"Se..." ("If...", 1898, Luigi Pirandello)
Things are starting to fall into place
I think or am I lying to myself What more could I ask for I got the man I got two beautiful kids So why wouldn't I be Yet I'm still stuck Anxiety overloads Scared of myself What have you done to me Wanting acception from you But why You don't care about me You only cared when I sed Yes here take it Yes here control me Yes here's my life Your meant to show me How to live How to survive How to grow up How to be strong Yet all you taught me was How to relay on you How to struggle How not to budget How not to love So all I will say is Goodbye The hardest goodbye I've ever done Soo .... Bye mum bye dad I will survive on my own I will teach my kids I will make them stronger I will make them smile I will make them laugh Because that is what A parent should do
I swear her eyes were the ocean
a world unparalleled humming behind her eyelids offering but a seldom glimpse when briny streams soaked her cheeks delicate sand entwines my ankles creamy shells pepper the shore her laughter glides within the salty breeze combing my hair most gently I miss her so, but I fret not for there is one thing I always knew a deep-sea soul surpasses land and she swims at ease where she belongs as tides lull and waves become whispers her ocean eyes smile back at me
written years ago