my therapist told me that I should
try to imagine my mental illness
in the form of a person.

she said that sometimes
it's easier to fight these things
when they aren't invisible.

she said that maybe
doing this would help me to
remember that I am not crazy,
and that a mental illness is
just as real as a physical one.

she's told me over and over
about the chemicals in my brain,
and how my ****** literally
changed the way that I function.

she told me that he put
my body into a chronic state
of fight-or-flight mode.

she made sure
to use the word "chronic"
and not "permanent."

she makes sure
to remind me that
recovery is possible.

but when I try to picture
my mental illness
in the form of a person,
it has his face.

all of my demons
have his face.

imagination cannot be contained
with your fingertip
trace the border of the trees against the sky
now see the clouds behind
and make them mountains in your mind

Star flower shine so bright
Star flower light up the night

Star flower next to the moon
Star flower grow and bloom

Star flower warm to the heart
Star flower with colors of art

Star flower sings with love
Star flower raise up above

I never wanted to change the sheets,
    as I always smelt you even though

you weren't there.


I loved you from the distance,
             from a kiss from you to us.

But I knew that I needed you to know,
          that I was here even though
you weren't between the pillow
           and sheets keeping me warm.

Sleeping without you, clutching the
             the cusion that had
                        you head rested

next to mine..

Closing my eyes I'd imagine you looking
               lost into mine.
Breathing deeply I feel a moment
       when you loved me.
            

I felt lost till you were next to us,
       we weren't apart.
      But I lost you every time you
             closed the door.

But now you're next to me, no longer
               cuddling pillows of dreams
I  have the real thing, you next to me.

You can't imagine
How glad I am
For every single meter
Walked with you

And

You won't be able to imagine
How I feel sorry
That
Early or late
Our
Paths
Will be divided...

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.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀[ i ] am a rocket⠀      a little one
⠀⠀[ i ] will make it⠀⠀⠀to other worlds
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀  ⠀ that are blue
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀( and ) are slippery pink
⠀⠀( and ) different kinds of worlds
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
that have sayings about
⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ how funny it is
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀that
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ their trombones
dont stand
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀u
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀p
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀r
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀­⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀g
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀h
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀t
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀­⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀( and ) things like this
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀( and ) [ i ] will be proud with tears
                                                           ­ that
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀[ i ] came for a while ( and )  shared
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀< a > wink
⠀⠀< a > kiss
⠀⠀< a > secret⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ( and ) went on
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀to
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀other worlds,
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀too
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
.