Once again

I fell into those eyes,
Once again.




Garrett Johnson.

I hope that one day, you get a text from someone and think “wow, I love her so much” or “that’s my girl, she’s gorgeous “ or anything like that. And I know that it might not be me and that’s ok. It will hurt for a while I promise you that, but no matter what I want you to reach a point of being completely in love with someone. I want you to be happy and if you reach that moment, that moment of complete love, with or without me.. I will be happy for you because if I love you, I would want to see you happy. I still love you... but love is indescribable.. it can build you up and tear you down at the exact same moment. Love begins and it can end in the exact. same. moment. It teaches you lessons you’ll remember for a lifetime and all I can say about it is... I’m glad to have the opportunity of loving you.

I had such a great thought
but its gone away now,
never to be heard from again.

I can feel it getting tighter
And
It's strangling me

My heart racing
And
Head pounding

I thought this was gone
But
It's back

I was done with this
But
I guess not

Someone help me
I'm suffocating

Ice
A knife

There's blood
There's so much blood

This is not what I wanted
I just wanted it gone

I wake up
To a day half gone

It wasn’t her fault
The sun didn’t rise
In my world
Today.

It wasn’t his fault
That I watched
Her hair create a halo
Around the head of an angel
As she fell.

It wasn’t their fault
That hand in hand,
They left this world
Hoping
The next one
Would be better.

There they were
Hand in hand
Forever, so it seemed.

Their hair creating halos
Around the heads
Of angels
As they fell.

Moonlight streamed through the trees
Illuminating the wicker basket
Toppled on the ground.

Casting light on the lonely
Checkered blanket
Splayed out beneath the tree.

Hand in hand,
They left this world
Hoping
The next one
Would be better.

trying to calm myself down as I flee
all I can remember is that body decaying
his last breath was with me
and it went something like, “no please!”