nothing but static
i despise the static
i wanna **** it
but it's
untouchable
invisible

it's a metaphor
it's another realm
it's another life
another universe
a timeline i wish to erase
a heart that only breaks

i don't feel like myself
i feel unreal
reality feels distant
like a fading memory
when did this ****
when will it end
dne ti lliw nehw

metal, iron, sharp and narrow
canvas, skin, blood and marrow
metal meets skin, iron comes rushing
scarring the canvas, all but hushing

i'm tired of trying, i'm tired of fighting, i'm tired of the psychosis and i'm tired of lying. i'm tired of yelling, tired of creating delusions, tired of everything in between.

tired of fusions, tired of breathing, tired of always taking and never giving. i'm tired of myself. i'm tired of you, i'm tired of everything we ******* do.

i'm tired of life, i'm tired of living, i'm tired of how i'm always fake and never revealing. i'm tired of the loneliness, tired of breathing, tired of not having a knife to my throat.

so i dig it deep down, down to my core. right through my throat, past all my bone. let it all out, let my life end, i hope we begin after we end.