I can't do my homework
I'm staring at a blank screen

My throat is closing
My body is shaking
What if I fail?
What if I get judged for this?
I'm going to fail this
That's when I fail at life

Oh.
My.
God.
I'm going to fail
Maybe I should do my homework
NO

(2 hours later)

Oh.
My.
God.
I'm never going to finish this
I might as well give up

(1 hour later)

Maybe I should clean my room
I have too many things
Why do I have so many things?
There's no point

I'm so ashamed
Why can't I do anything?
What if this is for me?
What if I go crazy?
Am I crazy?

Everyone must think I'm crazy
I should just be alone
I'm so scared to be alone
But I'm probably annoying
What if I can't please everyone?
I'm such a burden

(another hour later)

I seriously can't breathe
Why am I crying?
I'm too sensitive
People can't know about this
I should just do my homework
What if I fail?
Everyone must hate me

My throat is closing
And it's all my fault

In order to have a good flight...
You first need to know falling
So if you're flying freely at the sky...
Failing won't cause fear, darling

I hate how I care so much about the future

Every exam that I took made me afraid of failure

I just want something satisfying to happen to me

Knowing the feeling of satisfaction of what I am gonna be

The negative effect,
Can affect what you see,
Like the way you feel,
And the way you like to heal.
The negative effect,
Is a choice,
You either believe and succeed,
Or you let negativity consume you,
Until there's nothing left to bleed.

I WANT, or desire paved over with a crucial embolism/parking lots made to
house the homeless...
(¤)
its the chills that drown you first, alone
(¤)
A pensive futurist:
What is moving on when you don’t know where you were in the first place