Be unrealistic, congratulations! You are privileged. And think me wrong, I am only a realist. If you don't like the observational It's because you fail to see Things as they really are And rather, how you'd like them to be.
Take a minute to think about all the things you've said and all the things you've done. If you put them all together, it all adds up to one. One moment. The moment you realize your mistakes aren't failures. They're teachers.