As the seconds turn to minutes,
The minutes into hours.
I move along the fibers of time,
Hoping I'll make it through the day.
As the days pass by,
It's getting harder to
Convince me
That I'm okay.
I tell myself:
It's only temporary.
But this sinking feeling
Comes in like a tidal wave,
Crashing over me.
Some days I feel
I can conquer the world,
Other days I feel
I'm not good enough.
Sometimes I feel I'm not fit for this life.
Everybody makes mistakes
but all I do is ***** it up.
Just when I think I'm okay,
There's a constant reminder
I'm living under a guise.
I'm not happy.
And I'm not okay.
I crash under the stress
And crawl back in my mental cave.
I feel like I'll never be good enough.
I feel like I'll never succeed.
I hope one day I can break free,
Of this mental torture consuming me.
Inspired by the ballad version of "The Drug in Me is You" by Falling in Reverse. I have to stop listening to sad songs. It really messes with my emotions. However, in this case, I had to write my thoughts down.
I'm going through life, adjusting to new jobs, and adjusting to that work-school-life balance. It's bringing back old memories – and I have this constant fear of failure.
Everyone isn't perfect and I'm no exception. But sometimes I feel like I **** up more than everybody else.
