I hear you beckon me
The Sea she echoes
She breathes
Follow me for a time, to a place to be
And you will see,
You will feel where you are supposed to be
And if you find it blissful
Why not stay a while and visit when you can

If you watch a candles flame She
burns calmly and with such strength
Her integrity is never in question

She can soothe your soul as she disappears into the atmosphere
And Dancing her majestic tune she can capture you

Predictably unpredictable she lights the darkness in her unique way as she sways

Tranquil she remains, the knower of her own destiny she burns for our peace

If you watch a candles flame She
burns calmly and with such strength
Her integrity is never in question

Acceptance of oneself opens the doors to true living

We started of as colleagues
Professionals at our peak

Talking to one another
When days and nights were bleak

Working and socialising as friends
And then we'd meet

This friendship turned to lust
With its hot and steamy greets

We played with one another
About once a week

With strong feelings and emotions
I fell at your feet

You held me up for a while
Until your retreat

Your caress then turned to desire
For that only we would meet

Looking back I try and wonder why I did not see
You've left me there exposed you liar, you traitor you cheat!

A hug is what Im sending you
I'm holding you close so don't you move
It's warm and tender and loving too
This hug has been built in mind for you

Better days are ahead I feel it in my bones
Better days are ahead the vibes have taken ahold
Better days are ahead just you wait and see
Keep those eyes peeled for love and certainty!

I'm only as mad as you led me to be!
Your teasing that exasperates my insecurities  
When will this stop?
When will you realise your jokes have zero humour within them?
How many times can I say this before I decided to lash out again?
You tread a thin rope which you cannot even see and that's why this will always be!

As I watch you pass by I'm in awe by your gentle rhythm on a landscape of endless blue
Overcast by you, I dream away
How can I be closer to you?
How and why do you exist ?
And of course there are several answers, but I continue to ponder over you
For my heart craves for the mystery in you and to be with you
So I continue to watch and wait until such a return home to you, to me, our resting place
As I watch you pass by I'm in awe by your gentle rhythm on a landscape of endless blue

Feed your soul
She quenches for your thirst
Let her breathe
She's ready to elevate but depends on you
What are you waiting for?

at your own pace you fill yourself up with good thoughts, a gradual build leading to a much fuller space
Your unique essence being released into the world
And as you feel the returned good vibrations of those you touch on your journey, you become aware of what filling yourself does for others but also for you
A high of all highs with views you never knew existed
Flowing with life and it's exciting twists and turns
You appreciate just where you are and how far you have come

That dull beating of the drum is your Heart....it's time to let it beat!
Hear it, acknowledge it and then follow it!

The beauty in you sees the beauty in me
I see your kindness, your essence, your touch
You see my essence, the very core of me, fighting to live
And up until now I had not seen that you were not my lover but my mirror and teacher
Thus we reflected and radiated from one another
The confusion was easy as we both felt it once, the connection and bond that could not be mistaken
But I see now that lovers can only be lovers if they fight for their love
and fight you could not as the reflection blinded me and not you
So you are now my mirror, nothing more but maybe something less
And I now see you looking back at me
The beauty in me sees the beauty in you

I was always blessed
I will always be blessed
and I contimue to be grateful

Somewhere along the lines I decided that staying in the corner was best for me. The world was too scary and that I had to protect myself in order not to feel pain, but the pain that I felt after was much more than it could have ever have been with to begin with.  Eventually my thoughts turned into habbit which led to behaviours a belief and then a way of life. Being older does not necessarily mean being wiser but with growth comes awareness and  Im beginning to see that staying in the corner is no longer the salvation I thought it was and is in fact my hell. If life is a box then I want to experience the full four corners of it!!

Broken, he found me lying there
He cleaned and fed me and took me upstairs
He lay me down and covered my scars
I felt free for there were no bars

I had been tired, is what I'd said
And my guardian angel its more than widespread
A gentle hand brushed my forehead
Sleep my sweet, is what he said

As he got up to walk away
I pulled him close and asked him to stay
He replied, my love, for not today
Our time will come, I'm here to stay

He held me till my tears had dried
Until the hurt and pain had subside

He must have left throughout the night
For when I woke up he was out of sight

I looked around this new room of mine
I saw some clothes left on the side
And a note from my angel it read...

Good morning sunshine I hope you slept well
Please treat this place as it's yours to sell
Theres breakfast in the kitchen and a place to freshen
The day is your own do as you please
I'll come home and fall at your feet
Call if you need me.
Signed your A N G E L.

I freshened up and wondered around
Is this my new place and where I am to be found?

Time passed quickly from reading
a book
For the first time in ages I had a brighter outlook

Angel returned home and started to cook
I watched him attentively, not just a look

We talked and laughed till the early hours
My angel, I thought, has special powers

Days passed by and I started to grow
I even learned how let go

The past is the past for this now I know
The future is for me to love and grow

There is no sense in holding on so tight that you bruise your hands

I'm captivated by your soul that belongs to her

As she lay there waiting for him to arrive she adored him, his chest, his arms, his vigour. Caught up in the moments until he came. Finally a knock at the door....

Once you learn to be comfortably alone, being in company will be a wonderful gift...

Remember that.....
Today is the only day and that.....
Now is the only moment

It's hard to count your blessings when you feel crushed
But it's not impossible

I used to cry so much
that I felt it never stopped
I cried about what had happened
and how he was so lost

I cried about the future
and how he would survive
I cried about his reaction
which was so unidentified

I cried throughout the day
morning, noon and night
I cried of all the hurt
and sorrow I felt inside

Now when I hear good news
I cry, oh boy, I cry!
For its now these special hope filled stories
that bring a shimmer to my eyes

They watch me, I feel them so
A gentle breeze whispers to me
Their angelic wings steer me there
To Where the light shines her spirit on tiny me
And awakened is my beating heart and expanded soul
Feeling exhilarated and belonging
To where I must be, This is my true calling and I accept most graciously
Grateful to arrive, To this my true home

Arguing like its a war that must be won
Voicing my right thats right
Your opinion differs so strongly it's not the same at all

Lacking unity and understanding
Not agreeing on the big things
Things that matter and that should be set in stone

We are different and it's more evident when we are alone
Bickering, being spiteful and sarcastic are what we know

Lashing out at one another in different ways
We found we don't fit yet again
The anger builds up and the venom starts to spill like a burst tap

It's out of control
Be careful
Be safe and don't push too much

I want to run in the opposite direction from you
I''m not bad or wrong
We simply do not agree
Who is to blame, the truth is no one

Until its calm again and we make up
We agree that we simply do not agree
And let the truth settle
That is that are two worlds trying to co exist as one, a challenging task for anyone

Minds are different as are the thoughts within them
Can two minds ever be the same
Yearning for one outcome

Can love conquer all
Will it prevail against everything 
Maybe
Maybe not
Time will tell 
For that remains untold

Feed your soul
For She quenches for your thirst
Let her breathe
She's ready to touch, taste, see and smell all the world has to give
What are you waiting for?

The softness of you
Easing my worries
Caressing through me, to me

belonging to you
Heart and soul
Journeys different but destinations one

Letting go
But hopeful still
Momentous memories come to mind and overspill

The All knowing God guiding us to our truth
Belonging to ourselves
soulful journeys our only truth

Gone but never forgotten
Connected always
That's the ultimate truth

We know not yet what we are capable of and the beauty will surely be grand,
So soar the skies and feel the elation
for this world is truly yours to land

My own unrealistic expectations I cannot fulfil
Finally I can breathe
Finally I can be
Free..

In being free you can capture many hearts

When I give to you I give to me

The friendships you had yesterday might not be the ones you have today and the friendships you have today might not be the ones you will have tomorrow, so accept those who leave, embrace those who are and be excited by those to come!

Iced over
I'm too sober

Whiskey my lover
My cloud cover

Heat seeps in
This is no sin

Joy speaks
I see great peaks

Melting ice
She smells of spice

Heated passion
With compassion

Morning dawns
On the sunny lawn

Realisation it's morning
I slip out, no forewarning

Iced over
I'm too sober

Your greatest gift is YOU

Expected and wanted you waited eagerly
9 months of loving your tummy oh so tenderly

Through sickness and pain you kept your cool
Time passing you by for the moment of truth

Then came blessed Reuben, a gift from above,
your first born, your new hope to nurture and love

I don't mind anymore if you meet her
I don't mind it you  have more in common with her
I don't mind if we part
I don't mind

God I feel I need you close
My heart in your hand to feed my soul
And when I feel lost or alone
Can you hold me like I've known?

God I ask you widen my sight
To come close so I feel your light
And when I feel scared and hurt
Can you show me your signs? I'll stay alert!

And then I hear a voice so clear,
" why Noor I never left you dear"
With this thought I take a breath, my soul at peace as I lay to rest..... Good bye fear.

I tremble
But it's not shaking

You're either leading or learning!

He says my wish will be his command, but the truth is, my wish will be my command which in turn will lead to my happiness

Heal him
I asked, I pleaded I begged 

Make him
The way we remember him, at once my GOOD friend 

You have the power
To make him fresh

Hear my cry
Mend him, I said

Time passes by 
I see little changes
Signs of hope
But with little scope 

I need him to be well, cured is better instead! !

It's so long ago since he was my real brother
The very essence of him hidden under those unshakeable covers

Heal him
I ask, I plead, I beg

Help, I yelp from under my breath
Can't you hear me, I pled?
Rescue me, my crying demand ! Take me to another place
Does my silence not awaken you?

He's sick
He's old
He's all over cold
He's poor
He's tired
He's just been fired
..... He's still ALIVE

I hear you beckon me,
The Sea she echoes, she breathes,
Follow me for a time to a place to be,
And you will see, you will feel, you will know where you belong,
And if you find this time and space blissful,
Why not stay a while and visit when you can.

Let the loud voices continue on their own path... Let the whispers of your heart guide you home..

Let not the fear stop you from discovering yourself and going where  you belong

RAT
A nothing, a joke
He's not worth it, they say
Why do the poke

I am human, I say 
I have feelings too
Is it too much to ask
To be recognised for my truth 

You look away
As you don't like to see
It could happen to you
Like it happened to me

I made mistakes
Not huge ones you should believe 
It happened bit by bit
No envy for me

I ask for your hand 
A kind word and a smile
Instead you turn away
Looking at me and my bile 

Anyone can fall
And are able not to rise
Help me my child
And you could end up changing my life