How can it be that I want to say I love you when I've only known you days
How can it be that I want to be called your girlfriend when we are new to one another
How can it be ?

Humankind
Togetherness, units, entities
All created as neighbours, to live in harmony
Yet history can reveal such destruction
inflicted by these very neighbours

Delivered to this universe to co exist
Not as one, but as many, but co exist
To learn from and to teach one another

Growing through the centuries
Excelling in their lifestyles
Sharing as brothers n sisters
And mothers and fathers

Love binding them through life's
same and also different troubles
Supporting one another
Lines blurring within one another

Building a better future for all mankind
People, animals and nature alike
Making our maker proud
For what has been created

Benevolent and most loving
For that's the real unforgettable Humankind

I am but a man
I posses none
And none posses me
My spirit I give freely
And experience more freedom
The gift of giving soon becomes the retuned gift

In the beginning there was me ,
I was there in the middle too
and when the end arrives I shall hold my hand and embrace what is to come

I'm not perfect nor am I imperfect... I'm
human

Stop, I shout
At the venom you spout
I am fine the way I am!

Please, I say
God made me this way
I am fine the way I am!

Angrily, I cry
Am I broken, I sigh
Aren't I fine the way I am?

You are right, I whisper
I am not a pretty picture
I will change the way I am!
Ok, I state
And part hesitate
I will change the way I am!

Entangled and trapped 
I can't react 
I'm trying to change the way I am!

Enslaved and broken
My words unspoken 
I can't change the way I am?

Wearily, I speak
Confusion at its peak
I can't change the way I am!
The essence of me
Is undoubtably me
And I am the way I am! ! !

Enraged, I scorn!
You have been warned!
Love me or let me be....

Your leaving me did not destroy me more than it annoyed me
Your silence did not ******* me more than it left a ripple in me
But it's ok I still vibrate

I used to cry so much
that I felt  it never stopped
I cried about what had happened
and how he was so lost

I cried about the future
and how he would survive
I cried about his reaction
which was so unidentified

I cried throughout the day
morning, noon and night
I cried of all the hurt
and sorrow I felt inside

Now when I hear good news
I cry, oh boy, I cry!
For its now these special hope filled stories
that bring a shimmer to my eyes

If I gave myself to you would you keep me? 
Would you be happy with what you see?
Would you take me for all that I am
And all that i cannot be?
Would you love me as they say unconditionally ?
If I gave myself to you would you keep me?

I learnt a new word today
Forlorn, penned a fellow poet
The feeling of pitiful, abandoned or lonely
How this poem spoke to me
About you, but more clearly about me

Can I resist you Forlorn or will that increase our connection ?
Will I resist you Forlorn or have our existences now been firmly welding together?

I made a lovely mistake today!
I contacted him
I contacted him
Because I felt low

Because I felt low
I reached out to him
I reached out to him
And it made me feel better

And it made me feel better
Because he is my escape my outlet
Because he is my escape my outlet
I am writing this poem

I am writing this poem
Because I made a mistake today?

I'm cursed and I knew it since the day I was born,  my life was riddled with hate and scorn
Tormenting and troubled were times at school, wishing I wasn't around playing the fool
I grew up unsuccessfully, sad and rejected its no wonder that I now feel so  alone and disconnected 
Death and sickness is all I can see, my heart in turmoil by just being me
Now married and older my thoughts are catching up with me, I wish I never entered
this place where they say the best things in life are free

I can't stop smiling
Grinning like someone just told me a joke and the punch line is echoing in my mind
I see onlookers wondering why
Well, I say to myself, the sun is shining on the inside and on the outside.... What a bonus that the sun reflects my mood and when it rains as it will do my inner shine will remain for as long as it does and may even shine down others

I'm your button
Round and whole
Attach me on and i'll guard your soul

I can be different sizes and colours too
I'll radiate your life
Like you never knew

And when its dawned just what I can do
Off I'll pop just to annoy you ;)

It's not love
It's not hate
It's not joy
It's not sorrow
It's a steady stream of unrest and sadness
I'm in between states

You have taken my sleep my sweet
With thoughts of yesterday

You have taken my sleep my sweet
With dreams that want to remain

You have taken my sleep my sweet
With fantasies that rage within 

You have taken my sleep my sweet
And with that my sanity

As I open my eyes I see you laying there peaceful
I feel our psyches intertwined
I'm Memorised by us
I nudge you to feel your comforting embrace
And as planned you embrace me and fall into slumber soon
I'm awake but caught in a drowsy state of bliss and worry
I shouldn't be here with you
I don't belong to you
My focus upon you once again
I resist not to embracing you again
A comfort I'm willing to get lost in and never to return from
You embrace me once again
I close my eyes and we lay peacefully until the dawn

When you let go..... you GROW...

It's been a while since I wrote for you
But I've always know that Expression is a special gift to give to oneself
Not because only a few people can express themselves as that is untrue
But because expression brings curiosity, growth and freedom
And if others are touched by those expressions the gift gives more than it could have anticipated

Where you are now is ok
Explore it further and you will see it could be worse
Ponder on it even more so and you will realise it's where you are supposed to be for now
and when the time shall come you will be in another place wondering why you were ever uncertain and over analysed it all

I can hear the silence and its nullness
It speaks to me

Constant, cool and uninviting it beckons me to join

Getting closer, I tremble with a shocking fright

"Come hither" silence calls on this dark and starry night

The wind whistles an eerie calling to all those unseen and unheard

Where am I, I wonder suddenly joined by those unearthed

I'm frightened, but continue unable turn back

"I'm coming", I call to silence, he is my internal map

Thoughts rush of the days I leave behind , a mother, a brother and I freeze with emotion

Can I leave ?

Suddenly Silence calms me and guides me to him

A longing so yearned, I'm swept away

My resting place ...Peace on this dark day

I want his hands on my body
Holding me down rough

I want his soft tender kisses
that never seem enough

I want his strong hugs
that I long to get lost in

I want his charming banter
that quickly turns into sin

I want his demands
And I want them now

I want to meet them
And then take a bow

I want his mind and his heart
Although he's scared for that to start

I want him to want me
Like he once did

I want him to realise
I'm his and to bid

It doesn't matter if you are a rose or a dandelion, it only matters that you are.

This mind can dream of a thousand stars, a sea of galaxies from here to Mars
This mind can dream a thousand deaths, gruesomely freakish till I awaken with scars

You beckon me and I haste
But this will be the last time I put my heart on the line
The skies are changing and there's a sign
That a lovely goodbye is dawning in the real world
In the fantasy world, of course, we still exist, hearts connected and spirits intertwined
The oneness of the universe felt for eternity between us
But for now its goodbye

While we have nothing much to express to one another....let's allow this state to envelop us....

The past is your lesson,
The present is your engine,
The future is your vehicle

Experiences are either easy or they help you to grow

It is what it is until it changes...

Are you existing or are you LIVING?

One day there was stillness
... Life shortly followed

People come into your life for reasons and seasons
Imprints left upon your heart
Life never quite seeming the same
Memories and nostalgia heightening your senses
The moon beckoning her shore on this day
Until the rising of the Sun
A new day dawning
Freshness engulfing all that she sees
Your heart repairing itself to breathe
People come into your life for reasons and seasons

So you're back again
Knocking at my door
I'd been fooled into thinking we were over
But you were waiting
you've been hiding under those veils of smiles and hope
I feel you wrapping your claws around me
Waiting to immerse yourself into me until we are completely one

Feelings of sadness and sorrow
Does anyone have a little happiness I can borrow?

A ray of light here and a smile there someone to hold me and
show that they care

A kiss on the head and then on my lips
A solid grip works your way to my hips

Suffocated by your warm embrace
Here is where I am for it is my only escape

A stretch accompanied with some stirs
I awaken alone...just me and my Mr liqueur!

Silence can be so deafening

My hand I give to you, but my heart belongs to me...

Love is when time stands still but you and I grow old together

Love is a richness that cannot be bought

In LOVING life
You will see that life has no choice but to LOVE you right back

If you ask if you can love me I'll say no
But if decide to love me, I shall submit!

Take a hold of me I beg thee
Kiss me like you cannot see

Slide your hand along my knee
Until you meet my love mystic

Caress my ******* eagerly
Let me be your fantasy

Tell me what you want from me
I'll play it out, it'll be your treat

Tenderly and passionately
We'll both be in ecstasy

When I am old and grey and have lost my memory I will think of you

Missing you
My focus is upon you
Near or far but always in sight
The feeling of peace cocoons us
Whilst deserts and seas exist between us
Intrigued by this I question and ponder to an overthought place
Soon back to peace with your touch, heart and soul in mind
Engulfed by your vibration
Until the day I'll lay with you
That's where I long to stay
Missing you

He said I was amazing,
My eyes now blazing,
I watched as he walked away,
To his home, the Lords bay,
I didn't fit there,
Then where?, I say as I lay
I miss you,
Waiting for these feelings to be through,
But you knew,
You were not with my/our long term view,
For a time you were,
We both concur,
And I knew that the time had come,
But my eyes and head felt numb,
Waiting for the feelings to pass,
The weight feeling like a mass,
Upon my shoulders,
Been hit with a boulder