A friend of mine reminds me of a shadow
She was there when I am all good and fine
And disappeared when time is tough and hard
Just like a shadow
Only there when there's lights
And disappeared in the darkest night.

Maybe* someday we will grow stronger,
Maybe someday we will be brave enough,
to fight those fears that has been trying,
to swallow, and harm us in so many horrific ways,
In these maybe I want to believe,
Though maybe these maybe ain't gonna be real,
At least when time get too tough and hard I know, I have these maybe with me,
which are so much bigger than any hopes
I could build.

"aaaaahh,
maybe someday I will grow stronger,
maybe someday I will be brave,

*....maybe someday things will get better."

Love songs and sad songs are you,
Sun and moon are you,
stars too.
The flowers and trees are you,
The happiness and sadness are you,
The cure and pain are you,
The addiction is you,
The obsession is you,
The attraction is you,
The illusion is you.

What aren't you?
You are the drug,
The cure and the disease.

The water, the fire, the virus, the lies,
the truth, the bad, the best,
All are you.

"Through the health and the sick,
Through the thick and the thin,
Through happy moments and the hardship,
Together forever."*
Your vow.

Are those words really are cheap?
because I see now you are no where to be seen.

There, a lonesome one
With a lot of problems
And confused too
Don't know what to do

When it comes to love
She thought she knows it best
But just not ready yet
Though that's not the fact

She's a lonesome one.

When it comes to love
She's just too afraid
To give what she has
And accept something back

But she feels so lonely
When she is now with nobody
She is so complex
She is a mystery.

I can't love you back
simply because you love me,
I have to love your personality,
your true self,
So I can feel less cruel and
unfair to you and myself,
Miss you when you're away
and excited to see you,
And feel sad
instead of relief
when you leave

I am a little too tired of it.

Once, a friend asked me why I write poems --

"Maybe because I am happy
Maybe because I am sad
Maybe because I want to find release
*of so many emotions built inside "

sorry
is easy

I'll say it
thousand times a day.

I don't get it
What the actual ******* want from me

Talk! Say it!
You don't have to ignore me
You don't have to talk sarcasticly
Be true! Make it clear!

So I do understand
The actual thing you want from me
If I did wrong so I can apologise
If I am behaving bad so I can improvise

But don't ignore me
Dont make me feel useless
I have heart too
I have feelings

But sometimes this silly mind of mine can be tactless
It can be hard for me to catch up on things if you did't tell
Because what seems right to me might seems wrong to you
So say it! Talk!
I am a human too
I am not perfect.

I need your love
I need your care
You don't have to pour a bath
Just a  little  drop everyday
I'll keep it in a bottle
For every single drop you gave
So on the day I cry
I can compare
What's more
The tears or the loves and cares
And ask myself
Does it worth to cry and fight
When I have bottles of your loves in hands

Attention was all she need

She did hunger strike
She cut her wrist
She intentionally failed exams

For a very uncertain attention she's hoping from them
But no one bother pay a glance

The efforts, the hopes
All been thrown in the ocean of vains
Yes, her life too.

Is attention that great?
Does it worth a life?

You disguised as somebody else
So they won't leave you
So they'll keep loving you
But are you sure it's you?
The one they're staying with,
The one they love,
Or did you forget?
You disguised as somebody else.

Saying you only miss me when you miss me
You only need me when you need me
Got me thinking
I'm not the one in your mind at all time
Because you have never say you miss me
You have never say you need me.

He is one lonely man
He lives in his own world
The world where he can expands his happy imagination into wild and fascinating one
He talks when he feels the need to
He tweets when he wants to
He does what he wants to do
He talks sweet
Got ladies head over heels over him
His every word does hurt but it has point
He is one of a kind. A kind that attracts me
A lot

He used to call me every night
Just to make sure I had a pleasant day
When I'm sad, he cherished me up
When I cry, he lent me his shoulders and comfort me
Whenever we went out for date, he would held my hands
Before we say our goodbyes, he would kiss me and lean in whispering the 3 powerful sweet words "I LOVE YOU" which was never fail to send shiver down my spine

The way he moves, the way he acts, I'm just in love in every part of him
He showed me light when I'm lost
He is the sun, The unforgettable one
With him near, Sky was never dark
The light he brought along, Brighten up my whole world at all time

One day he walked away
He said he had never love me
He told me not to call him again, he won't pick up his phone, he won't call back

It has been months
I'm missing him, badly
I need those affection he used to give
I need those hands which were used to hold mine
I need him

Without him around, I'm dead
And I'm barely holding on

Then I found out he's dead
He got tumor, passed away a month ago
Half a year after our break up
His surgery failed
The fact that he broke with me because he was sick break my heart
About he had never love me, it was a lie
**** it! How can I know nothing about this?!

Without him around, I'm nothing less than an almost dead flower
Sways around whenever wind blows
I might fall at any moment

I'm scared and I'm barely holding on..

One nice man and one young lady
They had been bestfriends since forever
One day he knelt down on his knees
And said "My young lady, will you marry me?"
She said "That's not funny, get up you fool"
He Gave her a serious look. His eyes showed pain
"You can't be serious!"
He held her hands and said "TBH I am, I love you"
"No we can't, we are bestfriends"
"Learn to love me as much as I love you. You won't regret, I promise you"
She laughed as in disbelief of what he just said
He stood up. He smiled and said "I dare you"
He walked away with a very painful look pasted on his face
She stared at his back and laughed awkwardly. She whispered "You don't have to.. Because I love you more than you do love me. I have always be".

I'm sick enough i might die
I can take no more pain
But it is just not 'The Time' yet
God, my soul inside you still haven't take

He gives me pain to **** the sins cause by my mistakes
He gives me pain as a chance to change

Dear god, you still let me breath
As I awaken with fully recovered soul today,
I whispered Alhamdulillah, Allah you're so great