Let me whisper to you gently with the rays of my heart
Two interconnected souls that will never depart

The way you touch me without the sense of touch
No one would believe the power of this rush

That drives deep into my body
Like shock waves of a sting gun
Miles apart but your heart's rays still stung

I'm caught
Like a fish after bait
I tried to swim back but i'll admit it's too late

Oh the language of love
And I'm fluent when it comes to you
-Lady Ju

I thought I knew God
But all I know is religion

Concluding God only lived in a book
From my man made traditions

I've been wishing, no crying, God I need to find
"Keep Searching, He said, I've told you time and time"

My fear to change for People, Someone tell me is it twisted up?
Or am I not a good "Christian" because I keep messing up?

Ignoring my God given talents
For a robotic routine
Is that what living for God really means?

We're so quick to take credit where our credit isn't due
We take these scriptures out of context and tell these people this is really true

Man I'm so scared for you
Because I'm so scared for me

For so long, this is what I believed
Over consumption of my "Sins,"
Depressed wondering if they'd ever end?

But If God forgives why can't we
God created every bone in my body
So why is it so hard to accept me for me?

If defending your faith means degrading another human being
You're wrong and I won't do it

I choose God over religion
And that's what I've concluded
#MyFreedomWithGod - Lady Ju

I close my eyelids hoping to remove this pain
But the off beat of my heart
Tells me these feelings haven't changed
Every memory of you makes me feel nauseous
How can I give my heart again when I'm feeling this cautious
Flowing in the river of these tears you've created
Facebook status changed but my hearts not updated
I hate it
-Lady Ju

When you said you did not want me
was it love that hurt or pride?

Like a near death experience all our ecstasy
flashed right before my eyes.

How could you not value our memories?
a treasure I only opened at night.

The town was asleep - at last I was lonely.
Now you would only be mine.

Oh how rich you made my singularity.
An injection to make me feel outright.

Your dark side only made us more lively.
As I wanted to win this fight.

Even though it bruised my soul and body
You were the air that made me sigh.

But you said you did not want me.

What did I lose?

Was it love or my pride?

Sick and tired of this pain
Release me of these chains
Crying out for freedom
But locked up is what I remain

It's a shame
To have these feelings that I do
Once thought it was love
Now I'm questioning was it true

No I'm not questioning was it true
Just questioning why it was you
Is love supposed to abuse?
Did my heart really choose?

To give something so intimate
Just for it to lose?...shoot
Maybe it wasn't yours to have in the first place
God I'm sorry for giving away your space

If you knew the truth in it all
You’d think differently
Funny how the past repeats itself like History
Hearts don’t change just mentally
Do you even understand the magnitude of
What you meant to me?
Wait a minute there’s no past tense
Still the same
Love looks for nothing to gain
So really nothings *changed