Shackles and chains

used to run through my veins.

Freedom did not know my name

Now I roam the halls with no shame.

A brand on my torso

haunts me also.

My writing lets out the built-up anger

of the anchor.

Betrayal and sorrow fills the room

but I do not have gloom.


I’m always tired

but I never sleep.

I’m also sad,

but you never see me weep.

Thunder and rain

gave me pain.

Ships and dancing

were never romancing.

And here in the freedom I stay

because the skies are no longer gray.


I am strong and I belong.

And I have known this all along.

Running through the maze
In this sleepy haze

Dressed up in blue and white
Here, underneath the moonlight

White roses painted red
And a man, with a messed up head

The tears of the blind
And the lies of the deaf.

And the people who wish for their death.

So many people lying in unmarked graves
And the people that we don't even know their names.

I fell down till I ran into you.

My wings were singed with
the black residue.

You took me to a store of fixing trinkets,
where I got black wings.

But God didn't warn me that there were strings.

Silence and empty rooms
Is all that you have left
Broken by the endless lies

This is theft.

Lost and confused by all of the fumes
So please tell me,
Where are you?

"Happy Father's Day."
They all say.

Celebrate your fathers, and step-fathers.
But what if you don't have one?
What do we do then? There is no one.

Then what if you have a wretched one?
People tell you that they are your only father.
They tell you that if you don't show them compassion,
You're going to burn to ash.

Not everyone has their "first hero"
Because some people are without a hero.

A shared dream
A silent scream

This is the New Day.

Open my eyes to a new day
But everything is the same.

The sky is still grey.
And no one knows my name

There is no way to run away
There is nothing to stop the decay
Just go weak and let the tears fall to the floor
Nothing to hide or hold in anymore

I just need more time
But my hope is smaller than a dime
This kind of life is painful
But everyone says to be grateful

But what can we be grateful for?
Shattered hearts and broken dreams
People coming apart at the seams
Beaten until we're black and blue
Killing the things that could have grew

Killing love, killing innocent kids
Killing hope, burning eyelids
Killing faith and ourselves

A million reasons to hate the world we live in
Seven billion people full of laughter and tears
Full of taken years
Kick the bucket and thank yourself for the win

We **** everything and leave nothing...

Draw-on smiles
Un-walked miles
A million places
A million faces
Around... and around.
I guess my ship can sink underground

Cling onto the trends
Finding war that never can end
Sleeping on the bend
Children black and blue
Parents waiting in a que
Unsolved cases
Broken vases

Scratched-off names
Billions of un-played games
Life that hasn't been lived
And moments to be relived

Love is found
In the smallest of towns.

Just me and you.
The taste of honeydew.

Plump lips and bare hips.

And at the edge of the night,
I'm not afraid to fight

I can't breathe, the dirt is filling my lungs
Trying to scream out the lies of their tongues
No one hears, and no one cares
All they give is glances and sad stares

Pierced hearts and missing eyes
Thinkin' they won a prize
Saying good-byes with no tears to be seen
They say they don't remember
But I know they do
Skin is turning blue

My life is fading
Never dealt with this kind of aching
Spine broke in half and neck snapped
And now I'm trapped.

I'm running out of air
Take me to place of bare love and tear

I'll get so **** drunk on senseless time
I'll get drunk on all the crime
Hiding bottles in drawers and desks
Smoking underneath stairs to get rid of pesks
Dealing in parks and day-cares
Shooting guns in pairs

Dried-up tears
And dead years
Drugs laced around drinks
Falling down in skating rinks
Broken skin, hoping to numb the pain
Everyone talks while thoughts go down the drain
Taking forever to let it out
Living forever in this drought

Making drugs in someone else's backyard
Abusing children while praying hard
Gambling high while money is low
Crushing heads just to make a show
Molding young minds just to get cash
Taking happiness and turning it all to ash.

But we live like it's alright
Because soon everything is going to die....

Alcohol take the pain of the tears away
Tears take away all the bad days
Drunken nights full of unnecessary tears
Oh my, oh my. oh my.
Maybe I will get drunk again...

It was a very young age
When the storm showed it's rage

Rain poured down on the, and they became sad.
But no one knew that it would ever be this bad

They went to a white room where they looked with dead eyes.
It never went anywhere, only pointless lies

The days dragged on and everything stayed the same.
It was always the same.

One day he looked at them and said
"Maybe life isn't for everyone."

Now it happens very quick!
Shh don't tell anyone but I'm quite sick!

All the pins drop and the clocks all tick.
Everything comes crashing down on everyone but me.

Oh can't they see my ***** little secret?
It leaves scars that nobody ever seems to see!

Everything is breaking
Everything is falling apart
Our faith is shaking
But I don't want to be another failed try on a broken chart
We're so lonely
But you are the only one I want.

When you are no longer the one to love me, then who will hold me?
Who will tell me that it's gonna be alright
When will I give up the fight
Because I can no longer make it through the night
Surrounded by my demons
Lost without my angel.


Too many nights spent shedding tears
Too many nights without cheer.
You. I need you.

When you are no longer the one to hold me, then who will love me?
Because I'm broken
Left behind with forgotten needs
I will sink down to the bottom of the sea
Forgetting what it's like to be free

I need you more that before
I just need you, tonight
So that I will be alright.

Your tongue has been ripped out
And you've been thrown out
Into the darkness with the beasts
A fire burning at your feet
People chanting for your defeat

Nails ripped off
****** fingers with throbbing pain
Eyes taken out
Letting your skin burn as you try to shout
Slowly leaving the world
As your insides twirl

Not enough breath to say goodbye
Not enough time to save your life

Suffocating on words that haven't been spoken
Trying to make up new ones to erase the past
Staring at the empty vast
Twenty-four hours to say what you need
But not enough time to say what you mean

Cramps over words that haven't been written
Empty pages full of headaches and stress
Not knowing which word to address
Trying to type with numb fingers
Paper after paper until you fill acres

Drowning over stories that haven't been told
Trying to make the new and re-invent the old
Wrapping your mind around imaginary time
This is something you can't mime
Looking in other people for stories to make your own
But it's hard to find them so you feel weak
And let the pain fill you week by week

Knees aching over things that haven't got old
Gold necklaces and price tags that we leave in bags
Going under debt just to fit in
Using the last bit of ink from the same pen
Needing a new book to write in
But there's not enough money in the couch cushions
So you pack your dreams and start pushing

Worrying over time that hasn't happened
Our hearts beat even when we're down six feet
Burying yourself in things that you can't beat
Rushing to make things great
But still trying not to break

The amount of irony in the world is too much to handle
War that doesn't end with peace
But we're breaking piece by piece
Gluing ourselves back together but missing the tiny cracks between
Stuck on everything with hope for nothing.

Invisible paint on our faces
Showing who we are
Just an ounce of fear in every step
An ounce of regret for every bar

They figured you out
You're different- you stand out
The beat you till blood breaks through your skin
But you still love

There's nothing wrong with you
But apparently everything is wrong with you
"I didn't raise you like that!" is what you hear from your embarrassed mother
Clinging on to the life of a useless father

"You're going to hell" shoots arrows into your throbbing heart
Screaming for help, wanting to be like everyone else
Hiding in your bedroom and letting them throw their darts
Crying yourself to sleep because the love has left you

You meet the perfect person, but you can't tell them
And you just go over the brim
It's not a choice, because if I could choose
I would choose the easy life
Drowning your thoughts in cheap *****

Kicked out by your own flesh and blood
Hating yourself, and etching patterns in your own skin
The hate comes over like a flood

But there's nothing wrong with you
Nothing has ever been wrong with you
And there will never be a **** thing wrong with you.

Once upon a time there was a lonely girl
In this big ol' world

She walked around with her head down

And she always felt like she was drowning
Never said a word, but she was treated like dirt.

All alone, nothing to live for
Surrounded, and can't reach the door
Step over the line
But apparently I'm fine
Hidden bandages and countless lies
Putting on the same thing everyone hides

Gripping onto hope
But going crazy trying to cope
Screaming for someone to help
But the help never comes
Scratched eyes and bleeding gums
The craziness has only begun

Where is everyone who said they'd be here?
I can't face this fear
Where are they now?
Nobody wants to help me now
They're letting me take the bow

All alone, no where to run.
I'm drunk on ***** and ***
No where to go
I go alone...

All I need
Is another night
Another chance to be alright
Because she is the sun and the moon
She is rain in June

Nothing compares to this kind of love
I want more, because I can never have enough
She's way too good for me
But I just can't let her be

A playlist of memories that runs through my head
Every day I think of all the words she said
What did I do to deserve her?
Because in winter everything will be a blur

Hold me tight and don't leave me
Just stay and tell me how to be free
Because she is so **** beautiful
And everything is wonderful

Because she is snow on Christmas day
She is the blooming flowers in May
All I need is her.

All I'll ever need is her....

You could break almost everything
Shattering everyone into nothing
Hold your head up so high
While I want to say good-bye

Good-bye to all the painful memories
Good-bye to begging on my knees
I remember everything from broken glass to the flying keys
Good-bye to us

Champagne classes full of empty wishes
Empty seats that my heart misses
Lost dreams between the sheets
A beautiful melody lost in high receipts

Something too close, yet something too far
Not ready to hear you say "Raise the bar"
The heat is too hot
And I can't hear any of my thoughts
Blurred out by the screaming

One last clink of the glass to say
Good-bye to us.

But if our eyes could speak we'd say three times the world.

If our eyes could speak, then never again would we have to talk.

But if our eyes could speak, they'd tell it all
Of every ball, of every fall, and of every brawl.

If eyes could speak, we wouldn't have to talk at all.