waiting, standing still
reaching you as if you're here
looking old like that hill
where we met
and where you disappeared

when he looked at you
but you're uncertain
because it's hilarious
—because you think you're in love

everyday with him feels good,
and when he's not in a beautiful mood,
suddenly, you're gonna change yours too
and when you see him smile,
your lips are gonna lift your cheeks
until they turn red,
until you start to feel the heat
until you hear how your heart beats
—it feels amazing yet dangerous
your heart will always betray your mind

when you wanted to look cool
in front of him,
because you don’t want your feelings
to become obvious
your heart will start to make a move
your body parts will act awkwardly
smile involuntarily and say things that don't even make sense

how ridiculous it is to be in love
you become more careful
and clumsy at the same time
you see every little thing,
even the smallest thing in the world
that happens between you and him
you see him everywhere,
you memorize every part of him,
you know how he laughs and reacts
you know a lot of things about him
that everyone barely knows
—you can't deny it,
you're deeply in love

can I make you feel that again?
when you were hiding your smiles
giving me sparkles, no pain
back when I was on your side

can I make you do that again?
when you were filming my eyes,
holding my heart so tight
back when I was still in your heart

this is me, here again,
running back to your arms,
missing all your kisses and hugs,
after all those tears that I brought to you

I can see it in your face,
you're now capturing her eyes,
keeping her safe all the time
giving her things that she deserves everytime

now I know
everything is just a big "were"
yes, you were mine
but you are not mine