Maybe I've had an increase in confidence
Or perhaps this is something that I just think is common sense*

You see, the only thing I expect is respect and curtesy
I give it; thus, I expect to receive in return common decency
Don't act sincere then suddenly change on me
I've noticed that it happens constantly
And that's something I just can't stand to see
What I'm asking for is simply sincerity
Just be you around everyone and also around me
It isn't that difficult, honestly
Though, I've learned that to most people it seems to be

I've learned that the Real really are a rarity
It's unfortunate to have that type of clarity
I'll treat you the same way you treat me
I'll always stay the same, how I was initially
And all I expect is respect and always sincerity
That's common decency
At least that's I how I see it, you see
But I see some people don't see it like me
And I think that's just a tragedy

Tangled
*******
Little knots

Narrow
Unfazed
Dull thoughts

Obscure
Underground
Sit as it rots

Undone
Defying
Boiled in pots

Badlands
Abandoned
Inhabited lots

"I'm supposed to be in love
But I'm numb again"

Your words used to hurt me
But now you've lost power

There's only one way to break me
But I'm afraid you've found it

There's not much I can do
But I'm going to try

It may take some work
I may sell my soul

But I'm going to defeat you tonight
And leave your body where it lies

Trading my eternity for a little help
Watch in awe as my power swells

And I call upon the tainted forces
Of all the demons that dwell within my flesh

Allow them to manifest
Put you to rest

HOW DARE YOU STRIKE ME
COME AGAINST ME

NOW YOU MAY TASTE THE STING
OF A FORCE SO TORTURING

I'll rip apart your flesh
Feed on the pain

Revel in your suffering
And laugh at your screams

I'll video tape it and
Watch it later

Drink your blood and
Call it liquor

Soak in your utter shock
That it's evil that is my center

Embracing the burn
That comes with the flames

Might as well get used to it
It's my destination

But you'll be there too
You horrible *****

You're too stupid to realize
That we never believed you

We, of all people, knew you
Lies were never really accepted

Your days of terrorizing us are over
Now go ahead and scream and cry

Catch ya later then
I'll See You In Hell

And there it was
Beating in my hands

I didn't know
What to do with it

So I threw it down
**Leaving it in the sand

Oh. So you're back.
I knew it.
She didn't cut it
So you've come back around.

You still have faith in us?

Where was that faith
When you left me?

Where was that faith
When I begged desperately?

Where was that faith
When you moved on from me?

It wasn't there.
You left.
**So now it's my turn to bail.

I grasp for the remnants
Of what I once was

Things won’t feel good all the time
But lately I feel I’ve lost my mind
And like I’m losing what could be mine
On top of hating when I should feel fine

I want you to drink with me
Sit back, talk and think with me

I want you to drink with me
Lay back, smoke some things with me

I want you to drink with me
Open your mind, come laugh with me

I want you to drink with me
Hold me close, rap and maybe sing to me

I want you to drink with me
Hold my hand and imagine things with me

I want you to drink with me
Stare at the clouds and the stars with me

*I just want you to Drink With Me

It goes
1 pill
2 pills
Now 3..

..It takes 4 pills
Just to get some sleep

Not to mention how many lines
It takes to ease my mind

And roll my *** out of bed
Baby girl's sober; she's dead

It goes
1 pill
2 pills
Now 3..

**..It takes 4 pills
Just to feel like me

Hollowed out
Dense
Bitter to the core
Stung
Cleanse the soul
Burn

Break the harlot
That bleeds scarlet
Lose the sanity
That taints humanity

Filled with rage
Blind
Turned cold
Frozen
Live in disgust
Sickened

Trust no one
Murdered for fun
Those who ****
Accept what's real

Sitting here at the keyboard
Fingers soar
Wrists damaged
I try to write something
Anything at all
That could express
What I feel right now

But it's not that simple
There aren't really words
None English,
None German,
None Latin,
That could adequately describe
How broken I am on the inside

I'm not really healing
Like I thought I could
And I'm not moving on
Like I know I should
I'm just burying you
Like I'm used to doing

There's so much confusion
So much pain
So much distrust
I'm ashamed
It took so much for me
To love you the way I did
It took so much
To break down the walls
And let you in..

But I did it
And I trusted you
I believed you
And look now
Here we are
Broken, alone
Torn apart
Maybe not you
But certainly me
Once again
I'm left, weeping

Goodnight
Goodbye
Auf Wiedersehen
I hope I never
Have to see you again

I go through your page

over and over

And it makes me feel

Like you're here

i miss you

But all i have is your page

And sometimes your voice

from far away

I don't get to touch you

No hugs can be given

I don't get to see you

All i have is pictures

on your page

So when I miss you

I read your poems

And I remember you

*I'm going to go look at your page

You are nothing
That I'd fight for
Why?
Because I already fought.
I did all I can do
So now I give up on you.

I'd rather
spend my life
buzzed
and regretting it

than stay
sober
and
**end it

Even in the darkness
I still see you

Even in the sadness
I still think of you

Even when I’m sleeping
I still dream about you

Even when it’s over
It all begins with you

It’s always you

Life is an up and down roller coaster of disasters
Full of twists and turns and some dastardly *******
Pacifists passing fists passively; are they real or just actors?
We're not on the same page; we're in whole other chapters
You might just find that you're the most complicating factor
And in any moment that things can flip backwards
The best cure may be to forget and get plastered
When you've realized that there's nothing you've mastered

He whispers in your ear
"Just one time.
Just a taste"

And so you do it.
Just a taste

He whispers in your ear
"Just one more time.
Didn't you like it?"

And so you do it.
Just a taste

He whispers in your ear
"Come one. Do it.
Don't you love me?"

And so you do it.
*Just a taste

“I guess words are a
*******

they can be
great

or they can
degrade

or even worse

they can teach
hate”

-Marshall Mathers III

Becoming enough for you still isn't possible in the slightest..

Even when I'm sleeping and I'm dreaming at my wildest..

You claim to no longer have any love left to be harnessed..

Of all the pills I've swallowed, this has been one of the hardest..

In a world full of diamonds and emeralds
People with purpose, with great destinies
People who will accomplish great things

I sit among the gravel, the poor few
Who know not what to do
Who can only see the view

We simply go with the flow
Knowing not what to become
What good things we could have done

Those like us, confused and lost
Thinking in blank lines
Thinking in empty sounds

We are the ones wishing
For guidance and clarity
For a chance to be lovely

Dull is gravel, overlooked..ignored
We sit waiting to know more
We sit wanting a chance to soar

Not laziness or bitterness in us
We wish to find our talents
We wish to find our places

We are the gravel, the poor few
Who know not what to do
Who can only enjoy the view

I was handcrafted
Woven with words whispered by the breeze
Molded by melodies that let themselves freeze

For you.

.......

You were handmade
Seasoned by homemade remedies, equipped with amenities
Expensively constructed as a penthouse with luxuries

For me.

.......

We were man-made
Birth-bound to smooth one another's rough patches
Brains aflame, man-made matched as lit matches

We'll either mend each other
Or we'll each tear the other apart

We'll either make it through this
Or we'll get lost in the recklessness

We'll either fall in love
Or it's love we'll get sick of

Either way it goes
**There's no other way to know

The sun is bright outside
But, I swear, it isn't shining

Thoughts are racing inside
My resolve is successfully hiding

On this sad, broken carnival ride
There exists no desire to cease crying

No one in which to confide
Empty rooms, blank walls presiding

I'll be melancholy's bride
So, the loneliness isn't subsiding

Searching for the bright side
Something this life isn't providing

Yes, I'll be melancholy's bride
In my brokenness, I'll be hiding