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Nov 2018 · 86
Gloom Bug
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
woke up today feeling empty
I can't feel something without someone feeling worse
And so what I feel becomes nothing
No one can see you the smaller you are
It places me in a place of gloom
I become a tomb for the dead living
Call me strange for being sad on your best day
But when you can't see my struggle
You don't get to judge my gloom
Now I have to bite you
I must bring you down to my level
I need you to be able to see me
If you can't save me
Understand
It's not easy
Being a gloom bug


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Nov 2018 · 337
Ghost Diaries - Gloom Bug
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
Hello Dear…
__________________­
There's a lot of pain in my soul.
I don't feel like I can be seen, hence being a ghost.
I'm not calling the seen those who gather attention.
I've never been able to hold the necessary attention that is love.
I'm tiny.
Ugly.
Little to ńöẗḧïńġ...
But I'm something.
I mustered up courage deep inside me, somewhere in my shadow...
I pulled it out and coated it with what I thought was hope.
But whether it was or wasn't, it overpowered that courage.
It escalated until it had no other option but to fall.
When it fell, the choices were already in motion.
A result was ready to explode...and cause casualties.
...Or just one casualty.
I guess a ghost can see the future.
Its shadow can do more than foreshadow.
I opened up a door for courage...
But I let out a demon called melancholy.
I made a mistake...
And it led to another heartache.
I never knew that I was my own weakness...
Not until I was bitten by the Gloom Bug.
Nov 2018 · 120
Color ᴹᴱ Gloom
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
I've made a mistake yesterday
Thought I was finally ready to fly...
I asked around, a circle of trust
If I should contact a guy...
I wanted his number, I felt we were cool
I thought there was a good vibe
Everyone was conflicted, no one had depicted
My next choice would break down my sky...
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I mustered up lost courage
The little bit I had left
That was entwined in a very poor light.
I pulled on my pants
The mental left strands
And I covered the shadows in my sight.
I called his job, I go there so much
I had no idea what was to come.
I told him it was I, and I had a question to ask
I felt myself starting to feel dumb.
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.
.
I alerted him then
Not to take it a weird way
And I said it was going to be awkward.
He silently listened
There was nothing I felt was different
And so I went onto a path that was harder.
I asked for his number
Not to be a bother
But just so that we could be friends
right..
He silently hurt me
Then proceeded into killing
He took it the wrong way, assumed I was flirting
Ouch...
I giggled in a worry
No, please don't mistake me
I'm just asking to be just friends
Ugh...
He silently left me
The phone left me empty
He hung up like I didn't exist...
Oof...*
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It's not his fault,
I was the one who called,
I should have taken the conflicting gut as a sign
But I had no idea,
If I didn't make an effort...
All the courage would have been for nothing...
And I've never felt bolder
I never felt as confident
I just needed to jump out my shadow.........
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.
.
But I fell right back in
I've drowned and died again
It's become much denser and even colder...
Nov 2018 · 70
Offline Adventures
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
I've been stuck in a limbo.
My eyes may open, and my soul may be ready...
But my body lays steady in gravity that's heavy.
My whole is holed with so many emotions
Commotion for futures unfolded in potions.
A nightmare at midnight surrounded in darkness,
A staircase built up of our cemented hardships
Crackled and brittle, you can't judge us so harshly
Sprinkled with sugar, coated with bitter green envy.
My offline adventures are harder than yours
Some say this in the mirror, reflecting self-scorns.
Nov 2018 · 61
Untitled
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
Sometimes I come to this darkened place to unleash a scream
But nothing ever leaves my mouth
I can't tell you these crazy things
Without feeling out of place...
And offline adventures have become jokes
A trolls no man land.
A rope for me to go and croak...
A twisted wonderland...

I talk about the wonderlands
I'm called out for repetition...
But what you all don't know about those lands
Is that they've trapped me in limbo...
Oct 2018 · 236
Reset
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Annoited within the bleeding
Left falling in broken endings
A story built on our showers
A horror built up like towers

Humanity is resetting
Repeating all of our actions
Resulting in stories setting
A looping theme of the masses

A tragedy's in progression
No peace sent into the pending
Will, we ever have a session
That'll end without us pleading

Absence in understanding
We'd not know what's up ahead
As we wander the forest thinking
We've won when we've lost instead.
Oct 2018 · 262
Stranger
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Stranger, Stranger
Save me today
Please come to me, my love
okay
Stranger, Stranger
For once just stay
It's not fair I'll never get to say

At once some time I've not known you
Yet now we share a bond that's new
A crystallized informality
You've been ingrained into my memory

I saw the somber in your eyes
I could have made you feel alright
I sat silent, composed and shy
You'll never know me, to that I
sigh...
In every stranger...there is one that'll attract a ghost...
Oct 2018 · 83
Fated
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Sometimes my eyes open into a world where my body is stuck...


There's usually a hand that's gripping my head with a shadow man telling me that if I'm quiet I'll be fed. There's a cold atmosphere surrounding my mind and drowning it in gray sounds. A wave of pulses rushing through me like a siren's sound, forcing me to drown and now I'm truly silent... The shadow man wins once again and for one to feel this void of black numbness is one driven into insanity. I've exploded because sometimes he takes pleasure in torturing my prospering mind. The hand on my head once released me and I could see, but all I could see was a horror show called destiny. I don't know how anyone can call this terror a fantasy when all it shows you is the inevitable tragedies. The hand went from my head and gave me an awe, and then...it went for my throat and closed all of my hope. For some of you, you may think I simply sit there in fear as this shadow man plays with my body in a fit of stillness, but I tell you this, I speak to him.

Although I never actually say anything, he always knows my thoughts.

Little lonely weakened willow, saddened sour by blue fate? Forced to tricking your yearning soul somber and acknowledging wake. Wrest duly drowned in inevitable sorrow someday you'll yield an advent romancer.

I don't always understand the shadow man, and I do wonder why he never scares me...he let go of my throat and then I yelled until I was set free...

I wonder what the shadow meant. His words stick like glue to a stick. I'm fated to something uncertain...my world may have just now been broken.
Oct 2018 · 113
Pink Nothing
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
I loved you when you couldn't see me

My pink nothing came unintentionally

I didn't want to bring a bag of colors for them to be robbed

You took it all and left me raw and now all I do is sob

I could go out and make my mission a haunting

But all it would do is make me look like a weakling

And so what I do is cover my pink nothing

And trade it out for a gloomier color and drown to feel something
Oct 2018 · 837
Entropy
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
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Boo
Happy Pre-Holloween
Oct 2018 · 95
Down The Drain
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Once an ocean
Now a dessert
Living broken
Walking hazard
Silent Thunder
Intense shaking
Sudden sunder
Abrupt thinking
Once a painting
Full of virtue
Now lights waning
My light is due
Wandering
Here comes the dark
My body sinks
Alert the sharks
Oct 2018 · 266
¡SCREAMAERCS!
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
I know that it *****.
I just compress this
Oh, I will blow up
A bomb rage consists
The forest fires are living calmer
Pleading for rest I'm living somber
I want to scream out
I need to release
The flames coming out
Insanity ceased.
Clue.
Hopefully, I did it correctly.
Oct 2018 · 371
Glass Magician
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
He's a magician.

Oh, how beautiful his illusions are;
His dashing, mesmerizing smirk;
Those colorful eyes;
His way at making what I see bend;
Capable of manipulating reality.

Pulling me in, as he motions his seductive scope;
Flawlessly choosing the next set of actions;
An awe-inducing thing, he is.

But he's also glass.

Cracked by his past;
Pretending that he healed so fast;
So fragile, and yet so strong too;
He could break if the pressures too much;
But he could take a bullet for you.

He's a glass magician.

Playing tricks with the fragile;
Although, he isn't any more agile;
His exotic motions and beautiful projections worthwhile;
But he's still on the verge of breaking;
You can see his body shaking;
Molding him back solid won't be realistic;
I wouldn't believe that he was ever like it.

For every angle, there's a new scene;
Formed by his ways and only his means;
He's sculpted by a world that lives life insane;
That's why he has cracks, cause he's formed by the pain.
Oct 2018 · 187
Composing
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
He sits in a shadow composed, unthawed.
Drove to live apathetically...
He hears a whisper right by his ear,
Don't be emotional, my dear.

A lonely path he'd like to fill.
There's no reason to fight alone.
He hates feeling like he's a tragedy,
Doomed to live on his own.

A chill of many unknown ends,
Surrounded by a sea of eyes,
No one noticed his fragile heart,
Yet he remains to simply cry.

He glances through the room he's in.
Looking for unknown predators.
A troubled past will do that, so...
Easily torn by just the wind.

Composing minor destruction.
Lucid chaotic construction.
How must he live in such a world,
That spits a path to combustion?

With many minor injuries,
His life may seem to wilt and bleed.
A cast of iron stained on him.
Choked by that life's sharp thorny weeds.
Oct 2018 · 208
FearCry
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
What do I do now...?
I need someone right now.
Please don't make any sound.
I need someone right now.

A tsunami of hardships rushing tremors of blessing into my
tornado spinning life.

A kiss of misfortunate fates attached to overwhelming shaking I can't do this alone...

A silent churned catastrophically composed orchestra overloading my senses.

What do I do now...?
I want someone to hug now.
A wanted soul wants to be found.
I need someone here right now...
Oct 2018 · 260
Classic
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Tell me you love me
Never forget me
Take me right out to town.

Birds of a feather
Flock out together
A fate so grand is bound.

The tears of many
A ***** penny
Turn our world upside down.

When we are lonely
No one to hold me
Now all there is are frowns.

Whisper love, mister
I'll touch your kisser
Make your night good tonight.

Sell you my body
My soul is rotting
I pretend I'm alright.

I could scream loudly
No one would hear me
It won't change anything.

Even if I crawl
Die as I lose all
Clipping my only wing.

Tears of a rainfall
Fear of what I saw
No way this life exists.

I need a ###man
Take out my lights and
There won't be any risks.

Ghosts don't go missing
It won't change something
Guess this is how it is...
Oct 2018 · 73
gHost
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Do I need to set the world on fire
to make my pain known
I don't want your sudden care and tears
when I've left home
I held the gun to my head
begging you with my eyes to help me
That's when you helped pull the trigger
pretending you've set me free
Oct 2018 · 165
Subjective
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
It's easy to complain
When you can't see your gain
But it's easy to praise
When their hurt seems worse than your pain
Oct 2018 · 215
You Have to be Pretty
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
A wish may come and then it withers.
A bird can trance one with their feathers.
All of all, the ocean quiets.
A song for somber chills of silence.

Living in a lightless zone
Where'd everyone go?

Falling leaves may color the sky, color your eyes.
Broken blue seas, shattered glass lies, never ask why.

Don't you know what's life for a ghost?
A life where you are there but alone.
A moth gets crushed for being ugly.
Don't hurt me
A world where you have to be pretty.

Living in a lightless zone
Where'd everyone go?
Oct 2018 · 99
Don't Watch Me Cry
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
It's not easy taking the blows
Letting the wind remain at a flow
Suffocating silently, no one can understand...
Frozen in time, in a sick wonderland

It's hard to breathe in a time like this
Reminds me of worse and a darkened kiss
Could It be me that deserves this torture
Don't watch me cry, that worsens my horror

It's hard enough to walk this alone
Now here it comes back freezing my bones
These tears can't end, I'm a walking tsunami
I hate my hearts heart, I've become a living zombie
Oct 2018 · 192
If Only
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
If only

He would see me as worthy,
maybe i'd change his life for the better,
make October happy again...together.

If only

That butterfly would land on my shoulder...
change on me; bring me glee,
set me free.

ıʄ ơŋƖყ

You would smile sometime...
Compliment that (wo)man that's scowling into nothing,
as (s)he walks in h(er/is) bluffing.


Maybe, just maybe...

It will be the only act needed to set some of these wings free...
Oct 2018 · 103
Broken Beauty
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
My life may be in tatters,
And yeah, I might be an overflowing fountain of grief...

But what you don't realize...is that that is broken beauty.

I am still living,
And I'm breathing somewhat okay.
But I live in this moment,
I get to say whatever I want to say.

For there may not be a tomorrow,
So I should shout out right here and now,

And yes, that too is just okay...
Let my scream break every glass wall down.
Oct 2018 · 1.7k
Ghost Moth
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Maybe you don't really get it...
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I am a ghost moth,
An ugly nothing,
And as I fly up,
I'm called disgusting,
However I know,
They cannot see Me,
Cause I'm a ghost moth,
An ugly nothing.

No one can see me,
They love pretending,
They all grow weary,
Now they are leaving,
There isn't a light,
That won't come stinging,
I'm all alone now...

No news that I see.

I cannot be squished,
Although I do wish,
I've seen my future,
There's nothing to miss,
I always yearn love,
Love does not yearn me,
Not the parent stuff,
More like romancing,
When will I get it,
I've been cursed and stung,
No light in my eyes,
I wish I were done.

You will find someone,
That helps my curse grow,
Like it works backward,
It reverses flow,
Tell me I'm lying,
I'm only crying,
Why can't I wake up,
It's worse than dying.

Now to the ending,
I want apathy,
Drowning my sorrows,
Numb in my sighing,
When the light does fade,
It will then get cold,
Wasted my one wish,
Dead young, I was told.

I do deserve this...
I feel so careless,
The moth that's like me,
Hope that you are bliss...
Oct 2018 · 82
Cursed.
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
I may not have it worse.
My problems may not seem or be as big as others...
But listen to this one thing; something I can't change...
Even if I wanted to.

I'm cursed.
I'm not sure how it happened.
Don't know which parent ****** up a witch's morning...
But I have a theory.

Once upon a time, I was a child.
As a child, something I've always wanted was a companion.
Yes, I wanted the ultimate friend (and sometimes foe) - A soul mate.
Though I didn't know where it came from at the time, I soon discovered more to that desire.
It started with my first friend.
He was such a charming guy, like a wolf with dog traits.
He was the first reason.
Soon, I discovered another guy, but with skin a pretty as snow and a voice as absent as a winter night's sound.
That was my second reason.
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.
.
You know how this'll go.
I've come to realize that I wanted more than a soul mate. I wanted a lover...or a romantic soul mate...
But I've never received that one desire among many...


I'm not the boldest moth, nor am I the most secure ghost.
If I see a light, no matter how awe-inducing, I won't get closer unless I know I won't get stung...
I like to watch it from afar.
You know...feel it's smile warm me...
But I'd never get too close. It always ends badly...


How many times do I have to get stung before I find a light that won't sting me...?
Why can't I have a light that'll find me...?
Same goes for other moths I befriend...
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I attempt to keep moths around, but no matter what I do...they leave as if I died.
They move, they disconnect, and they disappear...
...Oh wait, I'm a ghost moth.
.
. - Wait!
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I never said I chose to be a moth...or a ghost. I never wanted this life...and I never asked to be cursed.

I've come to realize that I always end up alone, but I only ever hear that it's never my fault.

Some moths think I should just settle for the light from the stars...because I get that light without much effort...but do they not realize the damage of having to stretch my wings to reach a star...
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.
Just to find out that they could care less about who you are...
.
.
Yeah, no.






But anyway, to end this...because I don't want you to get bored of little ole me, which you most likely are, cause no one would read my life...unless I keep continuing to destroy it.
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I am cursed...and I have absolutely no ******* idea how or what I did or what I can do to stop it.
Oct 2018 · 228
aMUSEd.
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Leaves aren't appreciated until they're dying.
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Even if they were, you wouldn't know.
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After death, harsher death comes...and yet it's the most beautiful silence you can ever have.
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Sometimes the sun can be too hot, and sometimes the air can get too cold...but people walk in the snow in shorts and bathe in the sun.
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How can you envy someone else who envies you and not see the ignorance?
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Why do people feel obligated to yell when they don't understand things...
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Why do we spend so much of our time trying to make mistakes that we know we'll regret and hate afterward?
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If there is no God, then what is God?
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Why do we excuse our wrongs; pretending our wrongs are for the benefit of another when it is never...?
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We've enslaved something that was wild until it obeyed us...but sometimes they get unstable too.
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Why do we spend our lives to spend our lives with money; where did this value go wrong?
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Why do people always look for the wrong in something and the right in something, but no one looks for what's logical on the other side?
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Why does it hurt so much to be alone...and it hurts so much to be surrounded...?
Oct 2018 · 68
Losing...
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Woe my lost
As here I die
My soul exhausts
The urge to cry
It's not my fault
This world is dark
Once light I sought
Brought me to sharks
Pity me free
My empty hands
No nothings glee
When burnt in sand
For flags will rise
Not for the win
They will be white
I lost again.
Oct 2018 · 14.9k
ѕєducє
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Sweetly loving on my lips, swooning when you grab my hips
Sweet as honey with every sip, causing my intoxication
To bite your lip, and grin at me, drowning me deeper in serenity
Your lovely tongue, oh my, a heatwave to my mind
You've awestruck me with many waves of this pleasure
Strong enough to send the innocent into whiplash
You handsome brute, taking everything else out of my sight
My legs turn to jelly when you hold me so tightly, I've lost this fight
Causing waves of commotion a force of ***** insanity forming

Let my melody drug you, Our experience won't be boring
As my seductive lips craft your every moan, calling me, echoing
Your eyes fall back and you'll fall into a rippling sensation of bliss
All along I've been your gift
Making dreams come true in just the simplicity of a kiss
Sometimes love bites
But, you like that I insist
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
I don't really have friends.

I mean, I have people to talk to...
At work...
At school...
In my hea-...

Err, yeah; I'm typically alone. Sometimes it's the most relaxed I am...

...And other times, it's the worst experience you can have without literally freaking the f*ck out.
Have you ever felt so small around people who pretend they're so open and nice and caring?
Like, shut up! It's not easy having to watch people laugh together...

Overhearing something funny someone says, and then you quietly enter the conversation from afar. Pretending you're a part of their group.

Then go talk to them.

Right, I'll go and put my biggest smile on. I'll come and sit down at their table and make their day about me. That's the perfect thing to do, right?
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.
.
Maybe you're just alone because you don't get out there.

Ha! Getting out there and expecting a change is like buying a lottery ticket and expecting to win because some psychic told you that you would.

Don't get confused. I am complaining...but why is it bad to do so?
Just because I don't tell myself a lie and pretend that that lie is true, does not make me wrong. If I am annoying for complaining about a real thing...then you're dumb.

Then what are you really trying to get from this?

I wonder what anyone is trying to get from anything.

Maybe what I want is to be loved...
Maybe I just want this pain to go away.
I might just want to get high.
I don't know anymore.
All I know Is that the world works like a game.
You can either have a guild, group, duo or play solo...

Some people don't have a choice...
I'm just happy that being alone doesn't mean that I am necessarily alone...
Oct 2018 · 73
Notes 1
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Why do people read poems?

This is something I've been wondering for a while...
Like, some people actually read poems and then move on...
No opinions.
No reactions...
Nothing.


It reminds me of myself.
Hell, I don't even read poetry.
I think everything I make is word death.
Wasting the energy of the internet to be disgusting on another site...
But then again. I don't really care.
At least, I hope I don't...
Oct 2018 · 1.0k
Enemy: October
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
I'm not a fighter
Yet, I'm like a silencer
So, you should see the red signs.

You snuffed all of the heat
Which makes you my enemy
Know that means that you should hide

You and deception
Mouth your confessions
Don't let the blue dagger slip

For you are beneath me
You love when I'm hurting
Hope you're the next one to trip

A snake can be heavy
Their bites can be crazy
Look I have lost my ****** mind


Yet here I am, ready
My actions are steady
You've once called me one of a kind


Now you will see many
Come shadows of plenty
I hope you swallow your pride


You've never met crazy
Your sight might get hazy
Get ready for a real ride

Oct 2018 · 203
What Do You Want From Me
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Leave me be if I tell you that I'm alone,
Yet you tell me that it's cause I don't explore the crowd I can see...

You don't know what it feels like to be made a jester when you are a king...a queen...something of higher royalty...

No, this does not mean that I have vanity,
though this does mean that I don't know what you want from me...

I'm tired of it always being MY fault...when all I did wrong was listen to the wrongs you were taught...

You aren't helping me if anything, really.
You're one of the things destroying me, silly.
Sep 2018 · 943
Feel Me
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
You may rip a paper heart
And it may solve your problem too
Or watch the water come and start
To drench it till water falls through
As birds may fly into the sky
or dive into the dancing sea
Don't ever try to clip their wings
Unless you know what that will mean
You selfish little waterbug
Come to collect it all for you
Or get crushed under someone's heel
Watch your life underneath their shoe
Till death may do you ever part
Sons cursed to fake their every kiss
Left lonely and without a heart
Sociopathic son of a witch
Sep 2018 · 108
Butterflies Fall
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
What's this pit of butterflies doing in my stomach?

Dancing in the dark like there won't be another start...

When did the sky become so black?

I can feel it's pressure click like a living trap...

When did Fear starting leaving its home?

It never really looked away from its phone...

When did the good of this world fall?

It's started with the butterflies, of all...
Sep 2018 · 208
Stranded
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
When did crying become funny?
Why did rain become the preference to the sunny?
Why am I so distant and all alone?
Why do all the bridges I make go?

It's not like...

I'm a m o n s t e r.

They act like...

I'm a b o t h e r.

It's not right...

Why they'd leave m e.

I must fight...

The demons e a t i n g.


I get afraid when,
I only see the darkness overlaying the important picture.

Who would be laughing,
When all is lost and the feelings you have go numb?

When did this life,
Become a game for a monster to seek as if we hide?

Walking Disaster,
A rollercoaster that you'd never want to ride.



Sometimes we get stranded,
Our soul may break inside...
You're not reprimanded,
If you had the choice to reside...
Try to see both hands in it,
They both have a use in all this...
They've taken us for granted,
It's us that they will truly miss...
Sep 2018 · 250
вℓα¢к мιяяσя
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
May I trip on purpose,
Fall into strength,
Get back up into confidence,
And stride on my glory.

There's a mirror I look into that's as black as my pupils,
I can only look as far as my eyes can squint...
before they close.

I come to realize that I see nothing. Just darkness. I can't see cracks, or colors, or hopes, or dreams, or anything.

Even in the dark of the mirror, nothing reflects back on me...
Maybe it's all just me...
In my head...

Or maybe, I can see...
yet this entire time I've been blinded by me.

What if I have only seen what I think people see when all I see are the weapons that can be used to hurt me...

Trying to protect me by hurting myself first never really worked anyway.

So when I trip on my shame,
and I fall because I've been cursed lame,
And I can't get up cause I'm weighted by the chains,
Let me crawling tell you something...
Never stop crawling if you can't walk.
Sep 2018 · 882
FALL [I]n Anniversary
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Ye does not know what's to come.
.
.
Forests come falling down like ash.
.
.
And must the colors cease to one?
.
.
Let death come with snow in its wrath.
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.
With me, a weakened soul remains.
.
.
An evil tried to break it down.
.
.
But ye of only little faith...
.
Can't see that my soul sings aloud.
.
.
Oh, October has shed its tear.
.
.
With nothing, all left to remain.
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.
But dead leaves always settle here.
.
.
Where I may stand up in the rain...
...
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For ye of only little faith
A light with wings protects me
Here Winter comes with frozen fangs
Let it not ever prosper

Let no evil prosper.
Sep 2018 · 84
Ghosts Don't Flirt
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Ghosts don't flirt...
But neither do they have much to flirt with...
No one can see them...
Not like they wish they could be seen...
Wandering, no, hovering over the ground with their head down
There are no catcalls...
But then again...there's nothing at all
No smiles that aren't practiced
No compliments that may catch them off guard
No one that has the guts to say that they care
How are they supposed to know that they are even there...
Oh.


It's hard to love being a ghost when you're the only friend or mate you'll ever know.
Sep 2018 · 374
ᴄᴏʟᴅʙᴀɴᴇ
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
I bite my tongue when I'm afraid.
It's not easy for those who stay.
It's colder this coming Winter.
I can already feel shivers.
I see my soul staring at me.
I wonder what it just might see.
And all of this causes me grief.
A little one,
So Cold,
Crying...

This time of year, a bane of sweets...
Caught by surprise, nowhere to flee.
I've lost it now,
A lock, No key.
A darkened path,
No light to see...
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
All alone in a world that has gone to the other side of the moon's secret shade
Living secrets, laughing, regrets, crashing, all in all of the whimpering emotions fading
Autumn Woe oh
Lend me your hand, don't you dare leave me again
Fall of falls until my secret glazed colored butterfly wings come free
Fall out of me, I feel myself being pushed down in the ground
Collapsing me, until It only gets...harder for me to breath
Woe oh,
It's Autumn woe,
Sombering my days, blank face
Oh woah,
Woe oh,
It's Autumn woe,
Nothing like it's depression.
.
.
.
Depression completing my sadness...
Although oh,
It's Autumn Woe,
It wasn't always like this...
That's sometimes why Ghosts exist.
Sep 2018 · 178
Wahooohaaaa
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
I'm done and i'm ready to show my real crazy

Let it all go,
shoot out the rainbow confetti

I'm no longer stable,
my bridges aren't steady

I want to go haunting people like I'm Freddy...
Sep 2018 · 362
ĐɍɇȺm Ꝁɨłłɇɍ
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Rapid fire, now ambushed by formal liars,
Impatience becomes required in silence settled in choirs,
I cannot contemplate writers who sit in darkness when tired,
Faithful that they will be rescued by someone who wasn't hired,
Why does freedom even have taxes we wouldn't ever get back,
Places branding for fame and hiding all of their regrettings,
Yet looking right in the mirror and seeing the rising prices,
Taking fortune for its own while we're glaring at their dices,
I'm tired of ******* looking, breaking into all my dreams,
Killing them all completely,
Leaving me feeling empty...
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.
.
.
A moment of silence,
To those that belong,
A soul of potential,
Trapped within a song,
A right without vows and,
A will without bows and,
A place full of broken dreams,
Dead on the ground...
How do I sound...?
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.
.
We are so ******* now...
Sep 2018 · 115
ᴳʰᵒˢᵗᴹᵒᵗʰ
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Am I real...?

I mean, I think I am.



Reasons to believe that I am real:
- I love!
- I hate...
- I cry...
- I laugh!
.
.
.
.
As I've found myself falling away from time
I can't tell you how good it feels to leave all of it behind
But this path is a lonely path, no wonder they call it solitaire
A game that can only be a solo...a game that doesn't feel any fair...

Another bug on the wall, yet now, it's just me for another day
Though some may think me beautiful...I get killed anyway
And with my death, I become a new nonimproved ghost...

Another game of solitaire...a game with me as the guest and the host.
Sep 2018 · 416
Tell ησ σηє
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Close your eyes
Don't say a word
Be of surprise
Nothing was heard
Don't bat your eyes
Don't make a move
Let us cut ties
We don't leave clues

Romanticize
Stitch up your lips
Don't you realize, you *******
You need to run
You better hide
Not even you
Can see this side
Don't mutter words
That holds a gun

Or you will pray
When I am done.
Sep 2018 · 102
Nothing
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
What a wonder
O' you are
Now I ponder
The ends not far
Yet I feel lost
I've lost my glow
A mental picture
Of how life goes...

Ticking timing empty bomb
Lost all my fire powers gone
And yet I can't help but feel full
Of nothing, that's just how I boom
A living losing TNT
I feel my life falling from me
A world of hatred in this heart
Coated in sadness, foreign parts...

Coated in sadness
Here I go
Exploding madness
Blackened soul
It's better I just disappear
All I have asked
Was for an ear...




It's better I just disappear...
Somethings aren't tragic
...Like my tears.
Sep 2018 · 96
In The End You Shut Down
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Lucidity is something we take for granted.
I sure do...
And yet I move on with my life blindly...
And so do you too.
As we ponder out our night,
Planning out our next move.
Praying away all future strifes,
To ourselves for better moods,
We know this world not be as sound.
Where is the end leading us to?
The end being a power outage...
Our end we shut down when life's due.
Sep 2018 · 251
Bloody Murder
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
It's easier said than done
Silence when they draw the gun
No way to escape
Try to run
Screaming...
****** ******
What did this become

La-la looping around ties
Must be scary
Time must fly
It's too late to try and hide
****** ******...
My
Oh
My
Sep 2018 · 934
Poet's Vanity
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
It's easy to pretend to be this wise owl, dancing around with the words of your mind.

Raising your head to look down on others...oh, you didn't know that that is a poet's kind?

Some forget that a poet's greatest feature is their power to think...

But others will say that that isn't at all true. It's their power to snake around until they've settled down.

A poet's wise moments can be the same as a crow being an omen. Evil in certain settings and simple in others...

Don't use your wisdom as a dagger to shank down your enemies and fuel the worse in humanity...

Don't turn a blind eye to someone or many whose on the brink of insanity...clapping when someone dances in the words of love or nostalgia...vile for poets to even consider it wisdom...


Where is the wisdom inside of a lie...why bother...why?
Sep 2018 · 545
Death's Door
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Don't look at me!
I feel so hideous.
Begging on Death's cold porch.
A peasant to the poor.

Oh, woe is I!
Moi can't take this any longer.
I've been rejected by this world.
Life's grip has left me to wonder...

Why should I settle for life?
I didn't know my options.
Death's door is just right here!
I come to the ground as with all of my tears.

It's time I leave my Life.
Although he's so precious.
I'm cheating on him for Death.
So please, just let me in!

Although Death could take me...
And do it without effort...
No one has opened up.
And now I'm regretting my mistake...

I don't want to go back...
But I cannot stay here...
Death didn't take me In.
That's something I should fear.


I guess I'm stuck in pause.
Living with the Limbo.
Between Life, my ex and Death.
I have no one to settle with.

I will never wake up...
In a way, Death took me anyway.
Life still comes over too.
Fighting for me even though I said I was through.
Analogy
Sep 2018 · 235
Thought Trash
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Came back from work today...I'm not allowed to fix any mistakes
All I keep doing is thinking and thinking and its driving me
down
down
down
into the full yet empty darkness settling down
comforting the silence
and yet Ive never screamed louder
crying in a distant commotion
confused about my own morality
tragedies happen every day
and yet I'm not happy
You can't expect me to be smiling
Depression comes and goes like your shadow
Gathering all the thoughts you have and then molding them into a weapon
shoving them down your throat
suffocating until you croak
over
over
over
game
over
.
.
.


then theres a light
shining above you
begging you to step back in
the weight on your feet
pulling you into a darkness without end
how did this all begin
when will this ever end
end
end
end
e..
n..
d.....


s o m e t i m e s
o u r
m i n d
i s
a s
p a p e r
t h i n
a s
o u r
  *s o u l
Words pile up like *****
Sep 2018 · 990
Don't Summon MyᎠҽʍօղ
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
You'll wish you were dead, you shouldn't play with fire,
Now I am in your head, your underneath my tire,
Please rest your soul on the bed, bounded down to my game,
Heed the words I have said, I'll make you go insane.

It's like a crazy wonderland,
Nothing looks weird to me,
Of course, It's mad to the sane,
But that's what you may see,
Like I am a Cheshire cat,
Smiling ear-to-ear,
A prey as small as a rat,
You will only feel fear...


Let's change the vibe, ѕнαℓℓ ωє...


Black and white, a checkerboard,
Your battlefield for my playground,
A cat, a mouse, four claws then squeaks,
You will never ever be found,
Don't think I pursued you, My҉ d҉ear҉,
I can't summon any demons,
You did, however, summon me,
Your act will be judged as treason....



:)
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