Once you stopped thinking of me
i felt cold
i felt so cold that even winter felt torrid
you were the one who made me warm and giddy
then you left
when you left
all that was left of me was
a girl who felt cold, so so cold
that it killed her to feel such a way
it bit at her, making her numb

I feel lonely and sad
not every once in a while
but all the time

it kills me so much
it makes me cry
it makes me feel hurt

then you showed up
you showed me love
and happiness

you made me fall in love
with you; a boy who
didn't love

I knew you slept
with different girls
every night

I still let myself
love you endlessly
you were everything

you made me feel whole
you got rid of the sad
and lonely

you showed me the love
and the happiness
you made me love you

the one night i
noticed you were the same
you were lonely and sad

thats why you slept
with different girls
every night

It made me feel hurt for you
but it made me angry as well
i wanted you to love me too

i wanted you to find your
love and happiness in me
with me

but one night you met her
you found it with her
that night

i was back to how it was in the beginning.

every since it started i was unsure
i was unsure if you loved me

I told you I no longer loved you.
It was a white lie.
I loved you more than you could ever imagine.
I wasn't an idiot though, I saw the way you looked at her.
I felt you stayed because you were unsure; whether you loved me or her.
Either that or you were afraid of breaking my heart because I was the one who was always there for you; you were afraid of me leaving.
I couldn't take the pain of knowing you loved her the way you loved me.
So that night I let you go, I let the pain take over me entirely, so you could love her entirely.
I have found another love, but, you will always be the first.

- From the girl who never stopped loving you.

I look at him with adoring eyes, but my mind is stuck on you.
When I kiss him, I think it’s you.
When I make love to him, I imagine it’s you.
When I say the words, “I love you” to him, I wish it was you.
I’m in love with you but I’m loving him.

‘How do you tell someone you stopped loving them?’
I told you, ‘you don’t.’
You can’t tell them because it’ll cause heartbreak.
You can’t look them in the eyes and tell them that; that you the person they are most vulnerable to, has stopped loving them.

Where do I start?
From the day we met?
From the day you left?
From the day you came back?
From the day I told you how I felt?
From the day you told me you loved me?
From the day you stopped loving me?
From the day she came back?
Or how about now?
I’ll begin by moving on.

I wanted to be the one.
The one who made you feel love and happiness.
The one who made your smile bigger.
The one who made your eyes shine brighter.
The one who made you see the world in color.
The one who you wanted to be with till the end of time.
The one who you would love unconditionally.
But, instead she was the one,
the one who made you feel love and happiness,
the one who made your smile bigger,
the one who made your eyes shine brighter,
the one who made you see the world in color,
the one who you wanted to be with till the end of time,
the one you loved unconditionally.
I never knew why she was the one,
so i kept asking myself why i wasn't.

I loved someone else before you
He brought light into my life like you do
He was also the one who broke me
He was the one who broke my heart
He was the one who made me forget about love
I forgot what it was like to trust someone
what it was like to feel the happiest
then again it was also hard to forget him
to look at something and not be reminded of him
to say the words i love you and not hear his voice
then you came into my life
you came into my life and made me forget
forget the one who broke my heart
you made me remember what it was like to love again

You did not love me.
From the big hopeful eyes,
to the brightest smiles.
You never meant a word you have told me.
From the softest whispers,
to the biggest secrets.
Instead you loved her, as you 'loved' me.
Her kind heart,
to her sweet laugh.

- From the girl who still loved you when you never did.