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Jul 2018 · 464
Relief
Elle H Jul 2018
You're making me suffocate.
I look at you and it feels like you're taking all the air from my lungs.
I get nervous thinking about you.
I release a sigh of relief once you are gone.
I feel free from you.
You always come back or wait for me to come back to you.
We wait for each other to be able to breathe around each other.
We never are.
Mar 2018 · 631
Friends
Elle H Mar 2018
I decided to call you, after 3 months.
The time was short but long.
I remembered how it felt to be around you again, so comforting and warm.
We spoke about how everything is now for us, one of the first things you said to me was, "Maybe it would have been better if we just stayed friends and 'us' never happened."
I thought the same; that maybe if I never told you how I genuinely felt about you, maybe we could've been together as friends, longer.
Although I felt differently, I felt my heart hurt, I felt as if you were saying that to cover up the fact you never felt the same.
with hesitation I looked up at you and replied, "Yeah, you're right. I still love you, as a friend."
I'm glad we're friends again, but too bad I'm lying to you again.
Mar 2018 · 314
Indecisive
Elle H Mar 2018
I am stuck.
I want to tell you everything, but I can't.
I fear that you are doing so well without me and I'm happy if that's so.
I think to myself what if he doesn't miss me?
I want my friend back.
I want our unquestionable love and care for one another back.
Please come back.
Mar 2018 · 426
Comfort
Elle H Mar 2018
How is that, when you're gone, I still have you constantly in my mind?
You're dearest thing I held to my heart.
I miss you chuckling softly, whispering that it's okay, as I cried in your arms and apologized for doing so.
Sometimes I forget your voice,
but when I cry, it's the first thing in my mind.
Feb 2018 · 748
Bottom Of My Heart
Elle H Feb 2018
From the bottom of my heart,
I miss you.
From the bottom of my heart,
I miss us.
From the bottom of my heart,
I miss the smiles.
From the bottom of my heart,
I miss our laughs.
From the bottom of my heart,
I miss your love.
From the bottom of my heart,
I will always love you.
...
I Have Always Loved You.
Feb 2018 · 486
You Did Not Love Me
Elle H Feb 2018
You did not love me.
From the big hopeful eyes,
to the brightest smiles.
You never meant a word you have told me.
From the softest whispers,
to the biggest secrets.
Instead you loved her, as you 'loved' me.
Her kind heart,
to her sweet laugh.

- From the girl who still loved you when you never did.
Jan 2018 · 366
Past
Elle H Jan 2018
All I ever known was how to be safe, to be careful.
The day I stopped being so safe was when I told you, "Promise to never hurt me."
I risked myself to put all my trust in you.
I was a fool for not being careful this time.
Even now I wish I could go back; to tell you that I didn't love you and that I never would.
I wished I lied to you, so that you'd still be here to love me as a friend.

- from the girl whose heart you broke; who still loves you.
Jan 2018 · 331
Us
Elle H Jan 2018
Us
I ran my fingers across the screen.
I tapped on the video of us, that I created.
It was a video with our favorite song.
Although there was more than one voice, and all the music,
the only thing I could focus on;
was your voice.
Dec 2017 · 371
love
Elle H Dec 2017
‘How do you tell someone you stopped loving them?’
I told you, ‘you don’t.’
You can’t tell them because it’ll cause heartbreak.
You can’t look them in the eyes and tell them that; that you the person they are most vulnerable to, has stopped loving them.
Dec 2017 · 341
all of me
Elle H Dec 2017
It’s been awhile.
I hope you’re doing well, I miss you so much.
I met someone new, I think you’d like him; he’s very kind and reminds me of you a bit.
Then again, everything does.
I’m slowly learning how to forget it all.
I never thought it would happen again between us.
I left because you no longer loved me, but that’s okay.
I have someone who will love me like I loved you- with all of them.
Dec 2017 · 991
First.
Elle H Dec 2017
I told you I no longer loved you.
It was a white lie.
I loved you more than you could ever imagine.
I wasn't an idiot though, I saw the way you looked at her.
I felt you stayed because you were unsure; whether you loved me or her.
Either that or you were afraid of breaking my heart because I was the one who was always there for you; you were afraid of me leaving.
I couldn't take the pain of knowing you loved her the way you loved me.
So that night I let you go, I let the pain take over me entirely, so you could love her entirely.
I have found another love, but, you will always be the first.

- From the girl who never stopped loving you.
Nov 2017 · 362
Fool
Elle H Nov 2017
I feel so dumb.
I sit here with tears filling my eyes, but yet I still believe you.
All you have to say is "I Love You," and I'll be right there at your feet.
I gave all of me to you that it pains me to ever leave.
I know you already left me, but yet I still stay.
Nov 2017 · 357
Untitled
Elle H Nov 2017
My friends ask how I’m doing, I tell them I don’t know.
Every question I receive I say I don’t know because I honestly don’t.
I don’t know what it is like to not think about you.
To not worry about you.
To not talk to you.
To not be without you.
You left me again but this time I saw it, I saw you slowly leave me.
So I allowed you to because all I ever cared about was your happiness.
I left you because you already left me, so please learn how it is to be without me loving you.
It was toxic for me to stay; hard for me to go
Nov 2017 · 461
sleepy
Elle H Nov 2017
I’m so tired.
I’m done loving you.
It’s exhausting to love someone who never seemed to love you back.
I’m tired of believing your words.
This is me saying goodbye.
Nov 2017 · 407
Some Part of Me
Elle H Nov 2017
I'm here.
I have always been.
When you stopped talking to me, I was there.
Then you left and came back, and I was still there.
You always seem so shocked that I stay.
It is because no matter what happens, I will always be here for you.
I told you I would never leave you, I haven't.
Instead I sit and wait, for you, to come back with your heart shattered; for you to come back to be surprised that I waited.
No matter how many times you come and go, I will sit and wait for you to come back, because some part of me still loves you when you do.
Nov 2017 · 392
worst night
Elle H Nov 2017
I remember that night.
I drove to your friends house.
I walked to the garage to greet you.
You looked down at me with that smile of yours, god I loved it so much.
I looked you in the eyes and said I never loved you.
I lied.
I wanted to cry in front of you, but instead I walked away as you just looked.
I just hope you knew that I was lying.
Nov 2017 · 433
Memories
Elle H Nov 2017
It’s been a year.
No contact whatsoever.
But, I still remembered.
I remember how you’d whisper lightly when I’d be barely awake.
I remember how every word I said you’d listen and smile while I spoke with excitement.
I remember how you said “I love you too,” when I told you I loved you.
Every little thing, I have remembered.
But, now I wish I didn't.
Because you’re not that boy I love anymore.
Nov 2017 · 1.2k
Him
Elle H Nov 2017
Him
I look at him with adoring eyes, but my mind is stuck on you.
When I kiss him, I think it’s you.
When I make love to him, I imagine it’s you.
When I say the words, “I love you” to him, I wish it was you.
I’m in love with you but I’m loving him.
Oct 2017 · 1.1k
To Love Another
Elle H Oct 2017
What do you expect?
For me to sit here and say, “I love you”
When you don’t even do the same.
You don’t treat me like you used to.
So please, I beg of you,
Do Not Hate Me.
Do not hate me when I love someone else.
Do not hate me when I tell them I adore them with all my heart.
Do not hate me when they’re the one I think about constantly.
Do not hate me for falling out of love with you.
I stay because I fear breaking your heart, breaking the promise that I’d love you forever.
You don’t even bat an eye at me,
So forgive me when I love someone who loves me too.
Oct 2017 · 491
New Beginnings
Elle H Oct 2017
Where do I start?
From the day we met?
From the day you left?
From the day you came back?
From the day I told you how I felt?
From the day you told me you loved me?
From the day you stopped loving me?
From the day she came back?
Or how about now?
I’ll begin by moving on.
Oct 2017 · 1.8k
Apology
Elle H Oct 2017
I am sorry.
Sorry that I thought of you every second.
Sorry that I smiled every time I thought of you.
Sorry that I called every night to ask if you were okay.
Sorry that I texted you endless paragraphs about how much I adored you.
Sorry that I ever loved you.
I am so so sorry that I thought you loved me like I loved you.
We were everything till it became nothing.
Oct 2017 · 670
You
Elle H Oct 2017
You
You are perfect to me.
Your smile makes me smile.
Your laugh makes me giggle.
Your hugs make me feel safe.
Your kisses make me feel warm.
You tell me you love me sometimes.
Only so I'd appreciate it more.
I tell you I love you everyday,
because,
I fall in love with you over and over again.
Oct 2017 · 729
A boy
Elle H Oct 2017
Girls can hurt guys too
Girls can break hearts too
Girls can ruin someone too
Pity the boy who loves a girl like that
Pity the boy who loved me before you
He loved me the way i love you
I remember the night i broke his heart
He cried that night
I kissed you that night
I ruined him
He never loved a single girl after me
Because he believed they were all like me
I made him forget what it was like to love someone
Im so so sorry i broke your heart W.
Oct 2017 · 332
thoughts
Elle H Oct 2017
sometimes i think
i think to myself
why
why do i stay
why do i sit and stay
why do i look at you
with big shiny eyes
why do i smile
so hard that it hurts
why do i feel
my heart and the love i have
why do i do this
all while you do the same
but for her, never me
you're here but you're gone
Oct 2017 · 405
Unnamed #2
Elle H Oct 2017
I loved someone else before you
He brought light into my life like you do
He was also the one who broke me
He was the one who broke my heart
He was the one who made me forget about love
I forgot what it was like to trust someone
what it was like to feel the happiest
then again it was also hard to forget him
to look at something and not be reminded of him
to say the words i love you and not hear his voice
then you came into my life
you came into my life and made me forget
forget the one who broke my heart
you made me remember what it was like to love again
I'm happy but, is he?
Oct 2017 · 378
Unnamed #1
Elle H Oct 2017
Why do you stay?
Is it because you feel like you have to?
You were the one who left me and the one who came back
You said yourself that I could leave you once you explained
explained why you left without a word
I decided to stay, to let you come back into my life
You are now the love of my life
I promised to always stay because I don't want you to feel the pain
The pain I felt when you left me
Now you seem as if you want to leave
but you refuse to leave me
So why do you stay?
Is it because you love me or because you feel like you have to?
Sep 2017 · 371
Everything
Elle H Sep 2017
Every word I have told you I meant
Every good moment I either had with you or I was quick to tell you
Every bad moment I'd go to you for comfort
Every smile you saw on my face was because of you
Every tear you saw roll down my face was because you kept hurting me
Everyday I think about the night that I let you go
I still remember how hurt you seemed
I lied to you telling you I no longer loved you the way I used to
You were everything to me,
I never stopped loving you.
Sep 2017 · 222
#5
Elle H Sep 2017
#5
every since it started i was unsure
i was unsure if you loved me
Aug 2017 · 289
Grow
Elle H Aug 2017
We pick the things we like
We watch the things we love, grow
Aug 2017 · 203
Reflection
Elle H Aug 2017
I look in the mirror one night
all i see is myself
i stare blankly and frown
i see nothing but a gloomy girl
i see this girl over and over
until one day she smiles as she looks
she kisses a boy in front of the mirror
a big grin on her face as she looks in his eyes
this continued on
the boy always with her and happiness washed over their faces
then one day she was by herself again
the same gloomy girl i saw 3 years ago
staring blankly at the same mirror
Aug 2017 · 251
Words
Elle H Aug 2017
I write them in my journal
I write them on my walls and furniture
I write them on the whiteboards and chalkboards
I write them on the streets in chalk
I type them on my computer
Words are what you used to speak to me
They are what you used to tell me you love me
They are what you used to tell me you miss me
They are what you didn't say when you left
He came back to just leave again
Aug 2017 · 315
Ode to You
Elle H Aug 2017
You have a cute smile that, makes me smile too.
You have chocolate brown eyes that, you use to stare into mine.
You have a laugh that sounds like music to my ears.
You have soft curly dark brown hair, that bounces when you laugh.
Your voice is so smooth and soft, it puts me at ease.
You're the boy, that i love but, can't have.
He's my best friend.
Jun 2017 · 200
#4
Elle H Jun 2017
#4
I feel lonely and sad
not every once in a while
but all the time

it kills me so much
it makes me cry
it makes me feel hurt

then you showed up
you showed me love
and happiness

you made me fall in love
with you; a boy who
didn't love

I knew you slept
with different girls
every night

I still let myself
love you endlessly
you were everything

you made me feel whole
you got rid of the sad
and lonely

you showed me the love
and the happiness
you made me love you

the one night i
noticed you were the same
you were lonely and sad

thats why you slept
with different girls
every night

It made me feel hurt for you
but it made me angry as well
i wanted you to love me too

i wanted you to find your
love and happiness in me
with me

but one night you met her
you found it with her
that night

i was back to how it was in the beginning.
Jun 2017 · 185
#3
Elle H Jun 2017
#3
You were the boy i fell in love with
The boy with curly straight brown hair,
chocolate brown eyes, an entrancing smile,
and a laugh that would continuously ring in your ears.

I wanted you to love me
The girl with straight brown hair,
brown eyes, small smile, and an outrageous laugh.

Instead you fell in love with her
The girl with curly blond hair like golden ribbon,
ocean blue eyes so mesmerizing, a beautiful smile,
and a nice girly laugh.
Jun 2017 · 186
#2
Elle H Jun 2017
#2
Once you stopped thinking of me
i felt cold
i felt so cold that even winter felt torrid
you were the one who made me warm and giddy
then you left
when you left
all that was left of me was
a girl who felt cold, so so cold
that it killed her to feel such a way
it bit at her, making her numb
Jun 2017 · 236
#1
Elle H Jun 2017
#1
Since the day i met you
i would stare at my phone screen constantly
i was always sitting and watching; waiting for your name to pop up
i would always wait for you to reply to me or message me first
it made me feel whole, that in that moment when you replied or messaged me
you thought of me
but then you decided to let her take control
so your name stopped popping up as often
you stopped thinking of me so often
Jun 2017 · 252
The One
Elle H Jun 2017
I wanted to be the one.
The one who made you feel love and happiness.
The one who made your smile bigger.
The one who made your eyes shine brighter.
The one who made you see the world in color.
The one who you wanted to be with till the end of time.
The one who you would love unconditionally.
But, instead she was the one,
the one who made you feel love and happiness,
the one who made your smile bigger,
the one who made your eyes shine brighter,
the one who made you see the world in color,
the one who you wanted to be with till the end of time,
the one you loved unconditionally.
I never knew why she was the one,
so i kept asking myself why i wasn't.

— The End —