So...
I'm so sad
It feels like i broke up with myself!

I hate to see you cry.
But, you only look beautiful when you cry.
My only wish is, that i would stop being your reason to.

Looks can be deceiving...
Why don't you just look deceiving??

They said, that water is colorless.
So if the tears were the water of the heart.
Then why was her own red...

Each blue mark that has evolved into purple on her body.
Shows the journey she's gone.
Each tears tell how far the journey is.
Each smile faked, says too much about pain endured.
Each silence she kept.
Spake volumes too high for ears to bare!

Once!
I was afraid of losing you!
Now,
I'm afraid, that I am losing you!

They say only the devil walks in darkness.
But I pray daily in darkness...
And sin openly in the light!
What does that make me??

If love could be bottled up.
Then my bottle would be...
Empty!

They... They will take yhur pride and expect you to stand tall.
They will collect your ballon and expect you to smile.
They will take your meals and expect you not to starve.
They will take your God and expect you to have faith.
And they will take your happiness and still expect a laughter.
Take your life and expect you to live.

If love had a color...
What color do you think it would be??
Well i know for a fact, thet her color
Was transparent.
For she had lost it.

Yhu gave me butterflies...
But not in a good way. Those were times when, i was important to yhu...
Now, my only importance is yhur idea of me.
"Sometimes yhu have to give space, so people can miss yhu"
Maybe then, yhu'll get yhur value back!

Even though I have been on my best behavior all year.
Santa won't come for me!
Sad...
But true!!

So i discovered that yhu are happy now.
Too bad, I'm not the source.
Maybe yhu'll find out, how immense
My pain is...
Perhaps, someday too. I hope yhu know.
That yhu are the source.

Paintings... Huh
If paintings could use their canvases to show pain.
I bet the only picture there would be yhurs!

If i could turn back the hands of time...
Then maybe, I'll ask God. Why!!
Why me??
Why this generation??
And "***"

Tell her she's beautiful...
Do things yhu used to do with her when yhu started fresh with her.
Correct her in a calm and subtile way.
Reassure her, tell her how important she is.
Tell her yhur world without her in t, would be like the first verse and chapter of Genesis.
Even times, when she's falling... Remind her of how strong she is, do not give up on her.
She's really special. Would t **** yhu to let her know that, no matter how annoying she is, i mean. No matter how annoying. Sometimes she might drive to to the edge, but she needs to hear yhu say those words.
#to all the wives, widows, mothers and girlfriends.
Hang in there, we see yhu!

It's twilights...
From afar they look so pretty
Unfortunately the sun burns

Why do you keep, showing up in my life.
Like a bad habit?

Feelings of a dead man??
That's ironic.
Dead people don't feel.
But I'm alive, and i feel death.
Someone, anyone....
Please save me!

Pretty-sunflowers
Only if mother-nature would kiss them,
They might actually scent!

I have gotten used to the hurt.

Yhur soft lips, spitting hard hurtful words.

But please, if yhu are going to cry wolf, then yhu should mean it.

Don't try to save yhur life by taking mine.

Yhu can't heal a scar with a bandage.

I should be fine...
I should be...
I should...
I.
...
.

She was beautiful when yhu met her.
Now her face is all blue, and scars inner.
She had a gorgeous eyes that sees through crystal.
Now there's a patch of blood on the left eye.
Her smile was like the sunset, before a red moon.
Now, yhu have slapped away the nerve that controls the smile.
I'm no doctor.
But i think she's suffering from a "you syndrome"
Why abuse what yhu claim to love??

If i were to say...
That the interesting thing to me, right now.
Is the calling of the silver blade on the table in front of me.
Placing it on my skin and letting t go deep like hot knife on butter.
Let it help my veins loose a little,
And let me see the color i so love.
The color red!!
If i were to say that...
Would i be considered suicidal??

We are still going to be friends right??
We won't forget each other...
Right??

So...
When love exists, and the relationship goes cold.
What do we do??
Wait till we grow old??
Sometimes, love just isn't enough!

Love comes with the season.
Or so they say.
But the seasons come and go.
So, do we play??
We are stranded here, off love...
Do we stay??

I want it all...
All the love stories I've heard. Including the ones i saw in movies.
Oh wait, i want my money back for those movies too.
Disney lied to me.
I want the coffee smell at dawn.
The smell of cuddles at cold nights.
I want to taste a soft lips, mixed with sweet saliva.
Disgusting?? Who cares?? I want that.
I want someone to look at me like, I'm the last and only thing they want in life before rapture.
I want to not feel like happiness z over rated.
Or is that too much of a want??
Or does my want not want me??

Those kisses, hold no weight.
Those hugs, they hold no feelings.
Those caresses, they hold no tingling.
Those cuddles, hold no warmth.
Those eyes... why are they so cold??
Those words, well they didn't hold any truth in them.
Even while yhu are here!
I am still alone!

Was the darkness present, so light could be created??
Or was t because light came, that the darkness appeared??
Cause, when light shines, t creates a shadow.
Can we say that darkness z the mother of light??

So... If, too strong of a belief in a thing, blinds one's eyes and heart.
Then, could we place love under a belief??
If so...
What about lust??

So, all the love, cynical pleasures, and time spent together, building up memories...
Feelings, piled up, and love spreading out.
"I don't want to be with yhu anymore"
Was how yhu ended t...