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I'm made of all; The books I've ever read Poems I've ever written Faces who have smiled at me Hugs that have wrapped around me Caresses that have graced my inner thigh Countries & continents my feet have touched The lovers as we simultaneously reach ecstasy within Lonely nights shedding tear drops Nights gazing black skies moon & stars Children falling asleep to my heartbeat Animals whose soul was found through reflective eye stares Conversations spoken in French, Spanish, Italian, Xhosa, Afrikaans, Norwegian, German Years of ****** cognitive-, dialectical-, art-, drama-, music-, mindfulness-, trauma-, psychiatry-; therapies The drinks & drugs & mind altering substances dispersing my mind In all I'm made of; Love Lust Greed Fear Joy Freedom Longing Dreams Despair Sadness Anger Frustrations Happiness Anxieties Insecurities.... In all I'm made of; A soul; securely contained within a body of battled scars; over; pain & triumphs, losses & gains, rejections & acceptances, dishonours & accolades... With the hope; she too, can live life through. © Sia Jane
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Sep 22, 2014
Sep 22, 2014 at 8:52 PM UTC
Chapters of Self
Box fitted vans moving on the prowl. Waiting for these kids in an easy take Preteen gangster violence, With your lovely daughter playing jail bait. We're all thievish wolves, All hungry for more, we're hungry for more. So please tell me that this is under control. As our sons sniffing the product you were forced to recall. Please tell me that this is under control while your misses is prostituting just to feel at home. Please tell me that this is under control While my darling little princess is lying tagged by the toe. Our therapies are burning and our do hearts do swell, Which has got us in love with these feelings, that we've never felt. And I'll take these violent words as nothing more then a test. Try to feed me please for this is nothing more then a crimson mess. This nuclear family Is decaying Right in front of me, Right in front of me. Covered by the trace in the hallow moonlight, pack of wolves at our back. Some one calls out in silence, are fresh killers what we lack? We're ragged fools, just fear in the fold only to feel at home. Our therapies are burning as our do hearts do swell, Which has got us in love with these feelings, that we've never felt. And I'll take this fermented world, right off my chest. Then lead you to the ruins, for the better I digress. Now forgive me, this is how the story goes. Feeding in the innocent stripped to the bones. Please tell me that this is under control While your misses is prostituting just to feel at home. Please tell me we are under control. Swinging from the gallows, caught by the throat.
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Jan 30, 2014
Jan 30, 2014 at 6:17 PM UTC
Aim for the Bushes.
Box fitted vans moving on the prowl. Waiting for these kids in an easy take Preteen gangster violence, With your lovely daughter playing jail bait. We're all thievish wolves, All hungry for more, we're hungry for more. So please tell me that this is under control. As our sons sniffing the product you were forced to recall. Please tell me that this is under control while your misses is prostituting just to feel at home. Please tell me that this is under control While my darling little princess is lying tagged by the toe. Our therapies are burning and our do hearts do swell, Which has got us in love with these feelings, that we've never felt. And I'll take these violent words as nothing more then a test. Try to feed me please for this is nothing more then a crimson mess. This nuclear family Is decaying Right in front of me, Right in front of me. Covered by the trace in the hallow moonlight, pack of wolves at our back. Some one calls out in silence, are fresh killers what we lack? We're ragged fools, just fear in the fold only to feel at home. Our therapies are burning as our do hearts do swell, Which has got us in love with these feelings, that we've never felt. And I'll take this fermented world, right off my chest. Then lead you to the ruins, for the better I digress. Now forgive me, this is how the story goes. Feeding in the innocent stripped to the bones. Please tell me that this is under control While your misses is prostituting just to feel at home. Please tell me we are under control. Swinging from the gallows, caught by the throat.
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From a young age I was claiming to see angels, aliens, elementals, sometimes god himself walking in the sun. I remember surprising my teacher at age four by explaining infinity and drawing a figure eight for her. I'm telling you these things, and other parts of my background because it all just feels necessary, if I'm to have any credibility for rational thought when I somehow find a way to explain what happened in there. It's been almost a week, I'm still jacked in the head. One thought, one memory, one feeling and all I can do is sob. I digress. My point is that I've always been a highly spiritual person. What started as a Catholic would travel through taoism, Buddhism, the Cherokee and Hopi, the Hindu.. I've learned their Kung Fu, their Asana yoga, their healing through chi. I can say with no ego or shame, I am a shaman. Christ, coming full circle, now amazes me the most. From that short line, "for through me all things are possible." It's funny, but it took all that eastern mystic learning for me to come to understand the truly timeless nature of the cross, of God, and of ourselves. I also, from age fifteen, was frequently hypnotized, and used an array of other advanced tequnique therapies meant to increase sub concsious brain hemisphere communication speeds. Remarkable stuff. From there I taught myself how to meditate and heal, and my colleague and I continued our experiments on into my early thirties. I'm writing all of this because I want you all to know what I mean when I say "I am extremely in tune with my body and often sense things intuitively."
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Sep 21, 2018
Sep 21, 2018 at 4:15 AM UTC
The Torture pt2: my saving graces
From a young age I was claiming to see angels, aliens, elementals, sometimes god himself walking in the sun. I remember surprising my teacher at age four by explaining infinity and drawing a figure eight for her. I'm telling you these things, and other parts of my background because it all just feels necessary, if I'm to have any credibility for rational thought when I somehow find a way to explain what happened in there. It's been almost a week, I'm still jacked in the head. One thought, one memory, one feeling and all I can do is sob. I digress. My point is that I've always been a highly spiritual person. What started as a Catholic would travel through taoism, Buddhism, the Cherokee and Hopi, the Hindu.. I've learned their Kung Fu, their Asana yoga, their healing through chi. I can say with no ego or shame, I am a shaman. Christ, coming full circle, now amazes me the most. From that short line, "for through me all things are possible." It's funny, but it took all that eastern mystic learning for me to come to understand the truly timeless nature of the cross, of God, and of ourselves. I also, from age fifteen, was frequently hypnotized, and used an array of other advanced tequnique therapies meant to increase sub concsious brain hemisphere communication speeds. Remarkable stuff. From there I taught myself how to meditate and heal, and my colleague and I continued our experiments on into my early thirties. I'm writing all of this because I want you all to know what I mean when I say "I am extremely in tune with my body and often sense things intuitively."
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Assertion Clammed-up On the relay Second guessing The shrunken head Of old therapies The clock says It's time To nod off Greet the morn With withered fist Rationalised fury Trying to Replace the Pimply face Of ****** Angst baseless in Content On the tether Of just another Addiction in a Succession Of spiritual Vices perpetuated By the nonchalant Visage of a world Uncaring In derision From calloused hands Caused by Hard work With little or no Monetary avail Hand to mouth Foot in mouth Hand on crotch Crotch saddle sore What's the point Of a worn-down point Dull but Double-edged Just to prove The sword of Damocles Is still hanging Over the head Of your enemies Who pop Their heads Up over The hedgerows Like pictures In a shooting gallery At the carnival of A battlefield distant Filled with relics Of another Dead-end Ill-purposed war Of the worlds floating On the crest of Mine-dotted airwaves Prompting viewers To drown negativity And to salvage The positive A broadcast from Bipolar formats In living colour Double-edged Double-standards Double-dealing Double-meaning Double-minded Double-jeopardy Double-trouble Double your money Doppelganger leading Double life All propagated in Double-time Best Double your efforts And tune out!
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Oct 18, 2017
Oct 18, 2017 at 1:42 PM UTC
Double Your Efforts & Tune Out
The walls are caving in Darkness setting in Not a single ray of light seeps in But i like it. Everyone Everyone i knew Everyone i had Everyone i loved And still love Everyone that i gave a piece of me to turned away and walked away with that piece never looking back. not even once, But i like it. Everyday I feel as if I am walking under clouds That are raining knives With the knives piercing through me In every way it could Just like innocent raindrops. But i like it. Each night I wet my eyes With my own raindrops Then i shut them tight and lock myself away Repeating the mantra Don't wake up. Don't wake up. Don't wake me up. But when the morning comes I will be awake And my eyes were allowed to be opened. I have no choice then I have to get up And live it away Bleeding as i walk around The face of this Earth. People throwing words at me as i walk You need to stop. You need to get out of this. Lets find a way together. But no. This pain is a drug That i am addicted to And no rehab nor therapies could fix it. And i Love it.
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Jun 30, 2014
Jun 30, 2014 at 2:33 AM UTC
Drug
Gasp! I stutter! Chest rising, air-hungry... Again, I sputter! Efforts to resuscitate My grappling form Are all falling in vain What is this storm? Hands reaching out With a desperate yearn for something I lost, while I was busy Extracting, gaining, bargaining. Parched throat Unmoistened by water Tremulous heart Beating feebler, faster. No antidote works, No therapies suffice, Oxygen flows through, Still I'm devoid of life. The world dejectedly shakes its head Everything known to man Has been done. But twists of fate, who can understand? 'Cause in a magical instant, The Hand divine Rests on my ebbing existence One more time. Once again dysrhythmic heart beats Start dancing in orderly unison. Breaths start entering-exiting In perfect, beautiful, natural fashion. In goes life, The reason for my being, In goes truth, All knowledge, all meaning. And finally, after the Evil, cidal, unending eternity, Out comes a deep, long, fulfilling Exhalation of Poetry. Now, alive, I truly am.
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Jul 22, 2013
Jul 22, 2013 at 3:44 PM UTC
Breathe Poetry
I cannot keep this This fruitless ache This pounding in my head There go my blades At their works ****** arts! Sign the dotted line in blood Your blood! We try to bleed it out! each droplet an hour of agonies crimson muck We cried but in vain This depressive, this manic This open raw wound to which everyone spits in For tis that which they doth not see Oh so blind to! Therapies, forsooth! a worthless pastime Clonazepam, Quetiapine Dampen the mood, quieten the voices A mind torn asunder for of winter snow and summer thunder a body I do plunder to rip out these demons exorcise these ghouls claw out these ghosts This cannot be glorified it is not beautifully broken but tearing oneself apart to remove the ashes in my head Borderline personality disorder Post traumatic stress disorder...
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Dec 4, 2016
Dec 4, 2016 at 3:40 PM UTC
Untitled
I am not a psychotherapist But sometimes I think I'm just ****** And I give out therapies Like I gave him too many tears I ask all the questions That no one wants to answer In hopes that the truth will smack them Open their eyes wide Like it did mine I listen to their answers Testimonies of their pathetic attempts To convince themselves of happiness No one changes unless they want to And quite frankly Sometimes it feels good to hate and hurt To convince ourselves that we're different when really We're all the same Tell me why you want to die And I'll tell you not to But this circle ends and begins with You I cannot save you I can lend out a hand to your drowning soul But you must decide to help yourself And take it I am not a psychotherapist But I am a ****** therapist I'll tell you to save yourself While I number my days
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Apr 2, 2014
Apr 2, 2014 at 10:44 PM UTC
****** therapist
Saint Patrick died on March 17th. So we celebrate the day with green and drink. Patrick, was kidnapped to Ireland as a slave, a condition he never fully forgot or forgave. Patty (as he was known by his friends)   was a sober, relentless, devout Christian. As a missionary, he gallivanted methodically, converting heathens and if he failed to convert you, you weren’t left breathin’. He could burn you at the steak for ignoring ‘reason’. To show Christ’s power, he ‘banished’ the snakes, It’s amazing, the difference a miracle can make. The year 461 pre-dated laptops and even the Internet, so, I think it’s time we finally forgive and even forget the sad, sordid history of Catholic conversion “therapies” because today we need a reason to drink until we’re green.
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Mar 16, 2023
Mar 16, 2023 at 10:08 PM UTC
Patrick’s tale
Oh no! I have just been diagnosed, With a case of Extreme Stupidity, My doctor says its probably terminal, But with advanced methods and invasive procedures, My chances of survival, Are, at best, hopeless, With proper treatment, And a well-balanced diet, I should be able to overcome the side-effects of the medication and therapies afforded by the state-run institutions, And return to a 'normal and happy stupidless life' There is no family history of this disorder, But ten-out-of-twelve succumb to it, So he says, As I try and do the math, The manifestation of this illness becomes clear, Ten of twelve is equal to...umm...let's see...if there were one hundred...divided by...umm...okay wait...say we had twelve...or no ten...hold on...let's round this up to the nearest number...what is thirteen..dividing it by eleven...when chances are...2:1...is that what he said? Oh **** I am terminal...minus 1.
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Nov 11, 2012
Nov 11, 2012 at 8:58 AM UTC
Oh No!
A week of pills awaits your mother In their little plastic bins; Remembering them is now her bother A handful each, across the labeled row. Saturday's her day to fill, One each, A steady line of soldiers: Pills to calm her and to thrill, Pills to orient her heart... To end the day...and start it. To speed the ticker up, Or to ****** it. Then of course, the irony... (We can't forget this part!) Pills to make the side-effects Of other pills depart. Therapies with warnings are included, What to take with food or take without, And whom to call should side-effects appear. (No one ever reads a word; The print is much too small)... "Besides, this is the only cure." A pharmaceutic's pleasure is Dispensing colored regulators... Encapsulated or enterically en-coated... To **** the cancer? An important goal... But more, I think, The goal should be To save the patient....
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Jun 25, 2012
Jun 25, 2012 at 9:58 AM UTC
Mother's Little Pills
Where you sat to wait out the seasons In your maple chair, tucked in the corner Born from smoke and dried lavender, Old photographs and dusty necklaces Stained the tablecloth with your empty smiles Puffed out smoke, eyes wide out the window Half asleep at the table in your blue bathrobe Buried in notebooks of days past, In a silence of summer mornings And hazy afternoons in bed. And that your breath was like acid, It still stains me today and Your words were as sweet- When you emptied those bottles. Still, you loved like no other Could Devise. Summer nights, beer, angry phone calls- Where I slept and knew not What is was you did, or why it was wrong But when the police came, I still hid under the coffee table. A young child's world tossing and turning Constant, like seas that grow with rain. Your warm presence, Easing eyes, thick hair, soft words The all encompassing memory that sings "Mother" In a delicate drawl like lace on the backs of brides. Where I sat and we laughed over daily things And you'd tell me about your new friend The bird that you saw, what you'd drawn Each day you reminded me of your dreams for us, We'd rise out of this hole "Twelve days", you'd said in dark You would heal, no more medicines or therapies, and you might have been on your way there. Where your body draped over the toilet Fourty-five coursing through your veins Lungs struggling to grasp air, Arms went limp and neck grew cold Did you regret the decision you had made? Darling mother. Where I stood in the door frame And gazed over your lifeless body, Paralyzed in fear Stumbled to the trees to hear my mind's calm To escape the screaming of Too young Too old, at one tragic time Quivering to check your wrists for some jumping pulse But only a deep stillness sat over you, Froze you in time. And still frozen in my memory you sit, Somewhere between where moments turn to memory And where lifetimes turn to fiction. Do not worry, mother. When you left, you did not leave ashes But a gaping pit that requires the strength of an army to fill And the courage of a millennium to even admit it's there. For everything you lacked, it was a gift. To that same seven year old that hid In a midnight hallway across a despairing wreck of a mother And taught her to hold on.
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Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 9:20 PM UTC
Mother
Where you sat to wait out the seasons In your maple chair, tucked in the corner Born from smoke and dried lavender, Old photographs and dusty necklaces Stained the tablecloth with your empty smiles Puffed out smoke, eyes wide out the window Half asleep at the table in your blue bathrobe Buried in notebooks of days past, In a silence of summer mornings And hazy afternoons in bed. And that your breath was like acid, It still stains me today and Your words were as sweet- When you emptied those bottles. Still, you loved like no other Could Devise. Summer nights, beer, angry phone calls- Where I slept and knew not What is was you did, or why it was wrong But when the police came, I still hid under the coffee table. A young child's world tossing and turning Constant, like seas that grow with rain. Your warm presence, Easing eyes, thick hair, soft words The all encompassing memory that sings "Mother" In a delicate drawl like lace on the backs of brides. Where I sat and we laughed over daily things And you'd tell me about your new friend The bird that you saw, what you'd drawn Each day you reminded me of your dreams for us, We'd rise out of this hole "Twelve days", you'd said in dark You would heal, no more medicines or therapies, and you might have been on your way there. Where your body draped over the toilet Fourty-five coursing through your veins Lungs struggling to grasp air, Arms went limp and neck grew cold Did you regret the decision you had made? Darling mother. Where I stood in the door frame And gazed over your lifeless body, Paralyzed in fear Stumbled to the trees to hear my mind's calm To escape the screaming of Too young Too old, at one tragic time Quivering to check your wrists for some jumping pulse But only a deep stillness sat over you, Froze you in time. And still frozen in my memory you sit, Somewhere between where moments turn to memory And where lifetimes turn to fiction. Do not worry, mother. When you left, you did not leave ashes But a gaping pit that requires the strength of an army to fill And the courage of a millennium to even admit it's there. For everything you lacked, it was a gift. To that same seven year old that hid In a midnight hallway across a despairing wreck of a mother And taught her to hold on.
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All alternative therapies and all religious practices may be placebos, like we might as well drink sugar water, but we shouldn't forget that a placebo sometimes is a cure, simply because we believe.
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Oct 21, 2010
Oct 21, 2010 at 10:59 PM UTC
Placebos?
Scarpered for the siren liquor Shame-seared claret cheeks Lost to time and regulation Found by terrified relation Taught that gravity was quicker Supine in the streets Too pie-eyed for interventions Fuddled buccaneer Too aware for rectifiers No relief with pacifiers Banished now for contraventions No more welcome here Therein lies the contradiction Tricksy elbow-bender You designed this cunning passport Teamed constabulary transport Speedy coveted eviction Purposeful offender Now we nurse the convalescent Scarring quips ignore Dodging pleading, wounding protest Culpable without an inquest Feeling without feel-depressant Pain-drink tug-of-war Where to put our damaged kindred Languishing in grief Ductile truth in glass distended Remedies are not extended Therapies are judgement-tinted Distanced from relief Imminent familiar wipeout Nowhere safe to be Don’t do as the doc suggested Cede to being bottle-bested Bottle-lock in private hideout Throw away the key
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Aug 16, 2024
Aug 16, 2024 at 12:56 AM UTC
Bad advice
They call it flooding sensory overloading and psyche attack persisting harping on negatives acts created this to a spineless snowflake would drive insane they see it as gnawing at a scar re opening wounds for pain or the torturing style of keeping a prisoner awake while music runs playing unappreciated sounds over and over and over and over again he sadist ****** buzzes believing we are doing his head cracking it I see emotional intelligence this is psychotic obsession by an inferior bully imagine the damage inherent in minds such as these imagine how useless inadequate unfulfilled and pained to do this I feel sorry for them then I find it funny they put in time and effort then even funnier  that there is no bases in reality or truth to it at all perhaps sadly I also see there are loads of unhinged people around then gainfully it all reinforces my confidence and self assurance and in all modesty the difference between good education an ******* But there is something I do not comprehend why ingrates have not considered that if their acts impacted I have choice to leave site and not read their delusion therapies do they imagine I am masochistic or numb as they erroneously say I think not its simply narcissists are arrogant and lack introspection which brings me to a salient assertion which again I state humbly If I'm going to be driven mad it would not be by a bunch of asinine nutcases and semi illiterate spineless cowards and certified toe-rags I rest my Lords......
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Sep 1, 2019
Sep 1, 2019 at 8:42 AM UTC
I swear on my life......
They call it flooding sensory overloading and psyche attack persisting harping on negatives acts created this to a spineless snowflake would drive insane they see it as gnawing at a scar re opening wounds for pain or the torturing style of keeping a prisoner awake while music runs playing unappreciated sounds over and over and over and over again he sadist ****** buzzes believing we are doing his head cracking it I see emotional intelligence this is psychotic obsession by an inferior bully imagine the damage inherent in minds such as these imagine how useless inadequate unfulfilled and pained to do this I feel sorry for them then I find it funny they put in time and effort then even funnier  that there is no bases in reality or truth to it at all perhaps sadly I also see there are loads of unhinged people around then gainfully it all reinforces my confidence and self assurance and in all modesty the difference between good education an ******* But there is something I do not comprehend why ingrates have not considered that if their acts impacted I have choice to leave site and not read their delusion therapies do they imagine I am masochistic or numb as they erroneously say I think not its simply narcissists are arrogant and lack introspection which brings me to a salient assertion which again I state humbly If I'm going to be driven mad it would not be by a bunch of asinine nutcases and semi illiterate spineless cowards and certified toe-rags I rest my Lords......
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Leather seats and fluorescent lighting Dressed up insight deigned as wisdom when it's Nothing more than cheap talk White noise that fills the time with a shallow stare Sitting with no real new ideas No experience to relate to Yet you dare to call this therapy For years I endure this I'm told that it will help He can deduce the cause of my idiosyncrasies As if being different is a disease Failing to find a way to truly help Letting this anger and frustration boil like a bitter stew This is not  my therapy My therapy lies in a sea of strangers Dead center of the crowd, a clearing appears It is there I find my release Leaping in, I make eyes with a stranger Without words, a deal is made A pact that is honored for the sole reason That we understand each other We are each other's therapists Charging forward, we collide The pain numbed by soundwaves and adrenaline Like a bullet off of Superman, we ricochet Our bodies meet that of another They shove us away but it is welcome Time disappears Lost in these moments The most physical of therapies Our bodies become busted and broken The pain is welcome With each collision, each shove, we find release Anger dissipates with each bruise Each crack of flesh on flesh, bone against bone Lets loose a wave of pent-up hostility It a balloon popping with a smile This sought out violence is not aggression This is compassion of the highest caliber Complete strangers Locking eyes and saying, I am here Release your fury upon upon me Without judgement, I can assist you You place your life in this figure's hands Because they are willing to do the same You know that they will makes sure you survive And the wall of people behind you A group of people will make sure you do not fall And ask for nothing in return And once the night ends You relish the aches Every bruise is a battle scar From a war that you know is not yet over But for now, you march away Until your next session Of Mosh Therapy
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Jul 31, 2014
Jul 31, 2014 at 4:00 AM UTC
Mosh Therapy
Leather seats and fluorescent lighting Dressed up insight deigned as wisdom when it's Nothing more than cheap talk White noise that fills the time with a shallow stare Sitting with no real new ideas No experience to relate to Yet you dare to call this therapy For years I endure this I'm told that it will help He can deduce the cause of my idiosyncrasies As if being different is a disease Failing to find a way to truly help Letting this anger and frustration boil like a bitter stew This is not  my therapy My therapy lies in a sea of strangers Dead center of the crowd, a clearing appears It is there I find my release Leaping in, I make eyes with a stranger Without words, a deal is made A pact that is honored for the sole reason That we understand each other We are each other's therapists Charging forward, we collide The pain numbed by soundwaves and adrenaline Like a bullet off of Superman, we ricochet Our bodies meet that of another They shove us away but it is welcome Time disappears Lost in these moments The most physical of therapies Our bodies become busted and broken The pain is welcome With each collision, each shove, we find release Anger dissipates with each bruise Each crack of flesh on flesh, bone against bone Lets loose a wave of pent-up hostility It a balloon popping with a smile This sought out violence is not aggression This is compassion of the highest caliber Complete strangers Locking eyes and saying, I am here Release your fury upon upon me Without judgement, I can assist you You place your life in this figure's hands Because they are willing to do the same You know that they will makes sure you survive And the wall of people behind you A group of people will make sure you do not fall And ask for nothing in return And once the night ends You relish the aches Every bruise is a battle scar From a war that you know is not yet over But for now, you march away Until your next session Of Mosh Therapy
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My mind screams STRANGLE and my heart whimpers a cry I don't hear. This doctors not to be trusted, he's in on it too, I swear. Where are my claws when I need them? These petty fingernails just leave red marks as I sit in this chair like at the dentist, but instead of cleaning my teeth they're cleaning my mind!!! Patches of grey from here on out. Little dixie cups with pills that I don't want but I fear for what happens if I refuse. 'That's a good boy' they say as I swig down the water, sour taste left in my mouth. They don't let you sleep here, during the day at least. And they're ALLLL out to get ya, watching your every move. I don't know where the entrance is let alone the exit. Everythings so clean, if I could even see straight I'd see no specks of dust. Group therapies with more spies, tryin' to get me to talk. It's a ploy! Don't say a word boy! I play chess with my roommate cuz the meds don't let me read. He gets me, checkmate.
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Aug 4, 2010
Aug 4, 2010 at 9:54 PM UTC
One North
He was institutionalized Because he was crazy In their eyes Guess he shouldn't have talked to himself on the streets But his argument was he just had a really small Bluetooth piece But to keep the peace he went Took all his meds Ate all the food he was fed Often he cried in his bed From the shock therapy he got in his head Even if he was sane The nurses played doctor with his brain Making him insane So he decided opt out the game He swiped some keys and made it to the outside world The wind was whipping And the sky was weeping It seems as though he had to changed his fate He could see the entrance gate There was just a river that kept him fenced in So he hurried and dived in Then he remembered The shocked therapies made him forget He couldn't swim
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Mar 26, 2015
Mar 26, 2015 at 11:37 AM UTC
Untitled
They call it flooding sensory overloading and psyche attack persisting harping on negatives acts created this to a spineless snowflake would drive insane they see it as gnawing at a scar re opening wounds for pain or the torturing style of keeping a prisoner awake while music runs playing unappreciated sounds over and over and over and over again them sadist psychos buzzes believing we are doing his head in, cracking it I see from emotional intelligence this is psychotic obsessions by an inferior bullies imagine the damage inherent in minds such as these imagine how useless inadequate unfulfilled and pained to do this I feel sorry for them then I find it funny they put in time and effort then even funnier  that there is no bases in reality or truth to it at all perhaps sadly I also see there are loads of unhinged people around then gainfully it all reinforces my confidence and self assurance and in all modesty the difference between good education an ******* But there is something I do not comprehend why ingrates have not considered that if their acts impacted I have choice to leave site and not read their delusion therapies do they imagine I am masochistic or numb as they erroneously say I think not its simply narcissists are arrogant and lack introspection which brings me to a salient assertion which again I state humbly If I'm going to be driven mad it would not be by a bunch of asinine nutcases and semi illiterate spineless cowards and certified toe-rags
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Sep 2, 2019
Sep 2, 2019 at 3:50 PM UTC
I'm yawning again....
They call it flooding sensory overloading and psyche attack persisting harping on negatives acts created this to a spineless snowflake would drive insane they see it as gnawing at a scar re opening wounds for pain or the torturing style of keeping a prisoner awake while music runs playing unappreciated sounds over and over and over and over again them sadist psychos buzzes believing we are doing his head in, cracking it I see from emotional intelligence this is psychotic obsessions by an inferior bullies imagine the damage inherent in minds such as these imagine how useless inadequate unfulfilled and pained to do this I feel sorry for them then I find it funny they put in time and effort then even funnier  that there is no bases in reality or truth to it at all perhaps sadly I also see there are loads of unhinged people around then gainfully it all reinforces my confidence and self assurance and in all modesty the difference between good education an ******* But there is something I do not comprehend why ingrates have not considered that if their acts impacted I have choice to leave site and not read their delusion therapies do they imagine I am masochistic or numb as they erroneously say I think not its simply narcissists are arrogant and lack introspection which brings me to a salient assertion which again I state humbly If I'm going to be driven mad it would not be by a bunch of asinine nutcases and semi illiterate spineless cowards and certified toe-rags
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When they bring you to therapies, you know what that means? They think you're crazy.
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Sep 4, 2015
Sep 4, 2015 at 12:49 PM UTC
Crazy
Where oh where could my little sense of humour have gone? Oh where oh where could it beeee? Last time I saw it wandering trying to find a big enough bin to put my emotional baggage in Lost among traumatic memories It didn't enjoy my therapies Dampened by big pharma remedies Sedated, it traveled slowly but far and despite its growing number of scars Still searched for truth in the bizarre I've been finding pieces among the trash Funnier jokes asking to be rehashed Of times of freedom, a big ol' stash Where oh where could my little sense of humour have gone? Oh where oh where could it beeee? Finally, happy to see me, we embraced all night I laughed till I cried at it's clever insight And now humour and I write
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Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 8:57 PM UTC
Keep me alive
I never held you, only met you once— a blurry FaceTime smile through the screen of someone breaking. Your name still echoes in the chambers of my heart. I asked for pictures, asked about your therapies, asked if she missed you. She said yes. She said so much. She said nothing at all that could undo the dark she kept choosing. I offered her light. A room. A chance. A future where you had a mother who came back for you. But she blurred the days until stars and moon meant nothing. She couldn't see you through the fog. I tried to be enough for both of you— enough to help her see your little hands as a lifeline, not a burden. But she let go. I held on too long. Not to her, but to hope— that you'd be her reason. That love might dig her out when logic couldn’t. You were never the problem. You were the light. The small, glowing miracle she left in the dark. And still, I think of you. Jeremiah. Jerbear. Sweet boy with a story written before you could speak it. Maybe you’ll find me someday, when you're older, when the past starts to ache. I’ll tell you how I tried. How your mother did love you— in a way too bruised to be safe. In a way too broken to hold on. But I never stopped thinking you were worth it. And I still believe it now.
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Mar 23, 2025
Mar 23, 2025 at 6:56 AM UTC
Dear Jeremiah
I am my own worst enemy I lost my mind Tears - they kept on flowing. 18 electro-convulsive therapies later… My mind’s all scared.. Like nuking meat in the microwave… It’s sad and glowing. On and off the wagon I hurt my leg and couldn't keep walking. I beg for help But I couldn't afford the crutch Can I play this game, any longer? Before I lose everything..everyone that I care for? What I need in my life, so very much? The storm was started As anger lit the match I mended such broken parts back together Can’t you see? Insanity? It might be said “to last, forever.” “Will you get the best of me?” “Never!”
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Feb 2, 2019
Feb 2, 2019 at 1:46 AM UTC
I am my own worst enemy
I think I am cured but still not assured that yesterday won't get in the way and mark my cards, like it did back in the day. This programme I'm on, 12 million steps long and all uphill, will either **** me or make me, break me or take me beyond where I was. I do it because it is there and it only seems fair I should start paying my dues, after all what can I lose but my life.
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Aug 25, 2014
Aug 25, 2014 at 4:29 AM UTC
Therapies
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Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 9:25 AM UTC
Ignoscope synchronization
| And early morning began to be important, especially music and lifestyle.    Girls clubs female musicians play in the air surface, that is, expression, and will be, if it is not || certain that his ideas about Graham strong possibility Greek, Italian (Sheba) 10, 2012 || (60) 12, 100, C34 / (3er ABC) 12163168 3300 16 3 (c) and gynecological therapies for women that started early in the morning, said Ignoscope synchronization juice whales (3) (3) (,,,,,,,, read 2, 1500 - ICC and Spanish click on 1004 342 requests c is 1683 viewers (3) c XXB correct course is very important to be stronger than women and muscles. (3) (2 ,,,, reads 1500 - (100) treatments are all females and scenes in the morning early in the morning and early in the morning began with Finan, but the most important juice work and 5 of the color painting line from God in his life tried 1 or spirits T, | incense, men, women, the surface of | the media of the world, because the | expensive and the drink, the drink, the drink, the drink TRAPPISTES do not understand and the drink, the *** the drink, cream of unknown people show the fruits of this kind should be noted, however, the city was with God on earth, the weight of a ********** by turning away from God, Bo, so that it is a woman. Graham strong ideas, according to the Greek, Italian (Sheba) 20 and called Treatment's Glory Abosogal Ignoscope women and early in the morning, early morning to drink life style juice fix our life, six women of ****** abuse to sabotage beer? A piece of pizza is baked on charcoal with their feet in the world and                    = the outside world. ||| |
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