"metamorphosize" poems
the words that once flowed off my tongue have all been dried,
leaving nothing but a cracked and barren wasteland,
desert termites squeeze themselves into places they’re not wanted,
the phantom figure of what was once alive cries for water in a broken voice that will never be heard,
even by the most intent of listeners.
the fruits of my labor are met with mud on my clothes and spit in my face.
at the night’s fall i bask in the eternal cold,
the air i abuse is extracted from my lungs with sleight of hand
and an unnervingly charming smile,
a cherry tree beckons me forward as it waves in the midnight wind,
the crickets fall silent and i am momentarily assuaged,
bathed in the yellow light of the moon.
time ebbs and time flows, bringing with her the judge, jury, and executioner.
like Saint Bartholomew, i am strewn up to be flayed,
from my pocket falls a needle and thread, a note from someone long ago left behind,
and a rotting apple core.
they belong to the Earth now,
and soon so will my precariously perched form,
my very essence pooling around the tree and staining the leaves pink.
at my decaying touch, maggots spawn.
as if trained, they surround my body,
a cocoon in which i metamorphosize into who i’ve always been.
in my chest, the vultures will nest,
feeling safer than i ever could have,
nothing left of the girl who once wove tales of grandeur and painted paradises in her mind,
but a torn canvas and an empty shell waiting for its puppeteer.
Feb 3, 2019
Feb 3, 2019 at 11:10 PM UTC
A warmth passed through photons
From thousands of miles away,
A warmth passed through my heart
From connections to my brain,
You give me that same warmth
As the Sun gives in full brightness,
And so I hope you'll forgive me
When I express my blindness,
There's more to me than seems
To meet your eyes my gorgeous friend,
I long for you to truly see what
I can bring to lend,
A steady hand, a steady heart,
A faithful pair of eyes,
I wish most that you consider
That none of this is lies
Changing beyond belief
My faith, my heart and my desires
Like some inch worm with too much food
I metamorphosize
Into a better man I grow
With every breath I take,
I wish to express to you "Love",
In my lungs I build strength
To take the steps I need to take
And fight what holds me back,
I need to fight any callings and
Stay on the right track,
I can do it if I have the support
I need, okay?
So please, for now, give me the leeway to find my own way.
I'm not a missionary though
I know I'm a good guy,
And it is this very thought which keeps
Me awake at night,
I hope and know I'm good enough,
To at least attempt your presence,
So feel no fear when we speak please
if you are feeling hesitant,
I'll do my best to not scare you
And rush this large decision,
And if you say "No," that's okay,
No hurt will come from fission
So take your time and when you feel
A choice is at a close,
Let me hear what you have to say
Because
Who really knows.
Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 7:22 AM UTC
Growing pains…not the ones that hurt because you grew 3 cm tall and everyone at thanksgiving noticed. No, the ones that hurt because your nephew is 17 now and “the system” no longer see him as a kid but as a **** a beast old enough to take bullets from the back but can’t envision him as the next Obama or the next Mansa Musa. Can’t seem to accept my blackness, **** they barely accept the jews. Growing pains…not the ones that got my hips spreading and my ******* developing. No, the ones that allow you to be thankful somehow, that your daddy was a rolling stone and taught you the ways of the play book, so you could be ready to read through any ******** men feed you. Like, “I know you scared but don’t be baby cause I got something to ease you.” Ruining your fairytale of loyalty, fidelity and men. Growing up to only find out you have daddy issues.
Growing pains, when you realize your narrow-minded perspective as a child gave you false hope as an adult. Thinking I wanted to be like my parents when I grow up. I just had an epiphany, I’m just like them, and that’s what ****** up. Living to metamorphosize into a greater being not just to break this generational curse but to live up to my expectations rather than finding out what’s worse.
Growing pains, digging up the emotional trauma. Discovering my triggers and healing from the past that no longer serves me. Having to navigate my own way to the destination. So, you birthed me, gave me beatings, personally prepped my platter of mental disarray. But I don’t blame you, mama. I forgive you…because you only taught me what you knew. And you taught me what not to be and from that I only grew like a mushroom that flourishes even through **** and still possess a magical hue.
Growing pains, realizing the elephant in the room was louder than any silence I have ever heard. For years, accepting everyone’s lies that turned into words that turned into truth that turned into hurt. Shaping me, molding me like clay, into a prisoner of their society. A prisoner who had to break free. A prisoner held captive for wanting to be an individual. What some would consider a pariah but really just a lost soul looking for a reason to breathe. Making use of this breathing container encapsulating the forsaken child within. Hidden in brown skin. Waiting to feel the liberation.
Never thought a therapist would be an essential part of my living. Never thought in a stranger I would ever find healing. Never expected my mental to be depressed or my feelings to be addressed, I’m just holding on to what’s left like a hoarder I’m obsessed but living that life I won’t progress so here it is…. I…. confess.
Mar 2, 2021
Mar 2, 2021 at 6:28 PM UTC
Who,
hurt you,
so bad,
that you haven’t let yourself heal,
& why,
do you,
let them,
continue to hurt you?
Why,
are you,
hiding in your shell,
you are not a shellfish,
here,
have, a well wish,
I wish,
you realize,
that you are stronger,
than any memory that you may have,
that you are stronger,
than any person that’s ever hurt you in the past,
that you are stronger,
than the darkness that’s invaded your light,
What a paradox you can often be,
one minute so outgoing the next minute totally shut off,
refusing dialogue not caring if you die at all,
on a walk in a park after dark communications shut down,
well you know what love, you’re too resolute,
to let let downs let you down,
I see you,
I see your struggles, I see your strengths,
I see that you are so close, to having a life altering epiphany,
I see it even if you don’t let me propose this question,
do you think a caterpillar knows as it grows,
that it’s about to metamorphosize into a beautiful butterfly?
See you might not see you, but I see you,
I see that you are so close, to having a life altering epiphany,
& breaking totally free, but you know what,
you don’t have to break to be free, you already are free,
you just have to realize it, & once you do, which you will,
you will see, no one can hurt you, not even you,
because you are a being, of such astounding strength,
that you’re just beginning to understand how strong you are,
so who cares who hurt you so bad you haven’t healed,
because from now on you will let no one ever hurt you again.
Remember that…
∆ LaLux ∆
from THHT3: The Hollywood Hills Trilogy 3
available worldwide here: www.amazon.com/dp/1950780023
This book is so important that if you can't buy it just message me directly and I'll buy it for you. Seriously.
∆
Sep 21, 2019
Sep 21, 2019 at 11:32 PM UTC
I’m wasted on
Mistrusted remedies misplaced among a messy world
Amidst the misappropriated masterpieces
Lost within our land
We were made for mighty minds
Need to metamorphosize
Find time
Stop the blind fantasizing
Come to die
Otherwise,
We future butterflies
Are consequently caterpillars
Falling from the trees
Can’t fly yet
Although we deny it
We are earthbound
Unfound but by the resounding sound of the hounds of time
And they will find us as we hide beneath our fear
Of death
Or we could face it
Face them, face death
This breath could be the last of the old way
The old order
At the border and the shore
Of life we know
Lets set sail
And stop pretending
I know it’s coming
There’s a mending
A trusted remedy
I beg you please
Don’t expect it from me
But if there’s a spirit in your flesh
Take the road and let it groan
For your home
Then listen
See there’s a meaning to the madness
It distracts us
From the atlas
In our souls
Neatly folded
Put on hold
The search for gold
Till we have time
Maybe till we’re older
Baby maybe till we’re bolder
Stay awake and let’s be soldiers
Storm the gates although they smolder
Though they’re heavier than boulders
Time to take back
What was stolen
Before time
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 3:12 PM UTC
I'm a hack of all trades.
Fondler of the sacred.
Like a roach,
Who turned into a human.
Metamorphosize that Kaf:
I'l have you spinning in your grave.
While darkness ***** on the sun.
Oh Clouds!
Clouds of blue, Clouds of grey!
Mark the evening sky,
With Buddah's laughter
Nature's secret,
What it has to teach:
There is no universal mind.
It's laughable and cyclical.
No wonder the smile...
Simulacra overload.
My mind is a toad
Jun 29, 2016
Jun 29, 2016 at 1:16 AM UTC
Autum, teach me how to be
Colorful like every tree
Let my brightness paint a scene
Metamorphosize from solid green
Autumn, chill my fevered soul
Teach me how to be made whole
Breezes cool and comfort me
Streaks of light pierce canopy
Autumn, teach me how to die
Crisp flight, alighting with a sigh
I'll pause a moment on the ground
Then wind will lift me heaven-bound
Sep 25, 2016
Sep 25, 2016 at 4:03 PM UTC
In this back pocket of the Universe I call my Body and Mind
wages a constant struggle for Self.
Aspects of me such as Shadow and Ego
strive for my mental electoral college votes
to preside as a sort of Pope of Cognition,
but they can only win
if I don't fight them;
if you can best your Shadow aspects and Ego beasts,
they will respect you,
and when your Shadow and Ego respect you,
You metamorphosize into Yougod;
people will sing your praise
and you will want them to stop
for they are the same thing in potentia
and they only distract themselves with their reverence
instead of actualizing their own potential
and becoming Godselves, themselves.
May 30, 2013
May 30, 2013 at 9:53 PM UTC
just
as I reach out
for the glimmering light
it slips, in-
between nooks and cranny's
in every crevice
a ***** in my armor
Humpty Dumpty could relate,
fissures in my soul
just...CrACKing open,
releasing the past,
through painful rifts
seeping into veiny rivers,
until I am consumed-
by the beauty
of my own death
an rebirth
I burst,
from my chrysalis
stuck eternal
forever it seems
I will
continue to metamorphosize
an such are the pains of growing.
Ma Cherie© 2017
Jul 3, 2017
Jul 3, 2017 at 10:35 AM UTC
I used to spend hours looking down
At the thousands of small critters
I used to look at the caterpillars
Checkered, bristle-covered enveloped bodies
As they roamed the soil for growth
A breeze, a storm
Enough to flood the land
The caterpillars gasped for air
Lost, alone.
But the sun struggled through
The storms calmed
And the caterpillars emerged from the water
Ready to fly,
Ready to metamorphosize.
Now I look up, up to the sky
and I finally see
Momentary beauty, splendid nonetheless:
Purple wings glistening through the wind.
That’s what I aspire to be.
May 1, 2020
May 1, 2020 at 6:20 PM UTC
Metamorphosize my inner eye, dimension shift, new paradigm. Distant lands, travelling through time - seeking the secrets I may never find.
On the edge of the universe, I feel at home.
Ancient wisdoms of past existences echo throughout the galaxy just as stars twinkle.
It’s all so overwhelming…
At the galaxies end I am in searching for the context of life, and what it all really means. Suddenly an uncontrollable feeling of ignorance seeps over me.
My journey is far from finished.
Jun 28, 2017
Jun 28, 2017 at 7:09 PM UTC
Holding on to you is like walking on broken glass with shoes in the hand.
I can save myself but the gashes on my thigh drain the longing soberly.
That evening you embarrassed my potency to write, by finding the sentences forcibly rhythmic and the feelings so unapologetically naked, that you felt disgusted.
I thought my humour could hypnotize you, but every time you laugh, only I get more hypnotized.
Sometimes I feel like drawing you next to my body and dancing away the distance within, but then my waist is wide and ******* unattractive.
Whiskey doesn't captivate me for long.i want to drink from my eyes.
Its surprising how I can never stir your emotions with the magic of my long eyelashes and red lipstick; how those kisses only held meaning for me.
You make me feel like a mother whose womb dried before her seedling could metamorphosize; or an alzheimer's struck old priest who doesn't remember his religion.
I dont remember when I felt like going to the church last . silence seems claustrophobic now.
As a child, I wondered if ****** ever waited for marriage proposals; waiting for your reciprocation is quite similar.
If I confess this to you, instead of vomiting on a piece of paper which begs for breath, you might feel intimidated or appalling first. And nothing after it.
The only time I have been careful in life, was while adding sugar and oil to the dessert I cooked for you.
The fragrance of your shirt is the only smell I find in my rose-garden. My consciousness is losing momentum.
I have realised how goodbyes taste. They taste like blood.
Sometimes when you hold my wrist, it feels you passionately want to press my veins to an extent that the pulse would stop.
Tonight I am removing the hopes you dressed me with. For they have rusted and shrunk due to repetitive washing.
Jul 1, 2014
Jul 1, 2014 at 1:25 AM UTC
I've been gifted with the curse to wield a black skin
In a society where dreams metamorphosize to nightmares
Boarding a taxi of unfulfilled dreams
Dancing around the edge of a razer blade
Misery and pain kiss my dreams
As they all queue to take turns on me like humans on ATM
Hope disappears like **** in a fan firm
And my head is stuck between the pace of my legs
Achievementphobia strikes like cholera
And anguish jets on souls like ebola
With millions of dead dreams and thousands hospitalized
Today I will pack my Shattered dream
And move on with the littlest crumbs of hope in me
To journey through valleys, mountains and ocean
That I may find a place for my dream somewhere
.
©️Drunk_poet
May 27, 2018
May 27, 2018 at 9:36 PM UTC
if i am again reduced to a bad memory,
i might assume that role.
when i am history and i am the writer's enemy,
i might leave those letters frozen cold.
because if that is what i am in your mind,
that might be all i'll ever be.
what do you care if i metamorphosize?
why do i care what you think of me?
i am just a bad memory
and the only pieces of me you hold
are nothing but my history.
there is nothing i can do to change that.
no part of it i can erase.
but if i am someone's bad memory,
why should that stop me from becoming
another's beloved at this present moment?
Mar 11, 2021
Mar 11, 2021 at 3:32 PM UTC
im not forty-five just yet~
the picnic table to celebrate this
occasion was likely constructed
in the 1960's just as the illusion
of security began to unravel
it will have marks cut into it from
a paring knife some kid snuck out
of his mother's napsack to
scratch in a few here-and-there notches,
juvenile swirlies and crisscross patterns
expressing out with what little language
he could muster at the time
and —of course— some initials
two letters representing a presence
which will later metamorphosize this
simple gathering point into somebody's
threshold between the sky and the grave—
a horizon cruel, unyielding and
dead straight
i wonder how many have sat there, pondering
the timelines carved into this rest area where
forty-five years of inertia will be spent in a
long venting breath
the picnic basket will be packed light when my
day comes, observing in the company of old and
weathered timbers, feeling the etchmarks with
worn fingertips for a name i never was...
"forty-five"
© 2009 by Seranaea Jones
all rights reserved
Aug 22, 2020
Aug 22, 2020 at 12:07 PM UTC