Fake smile
Dried eyes
Scratched wrists
Bruised thighs

White pills
Rope tied
Gun loaded
*Suicide

I have a sinking feeling
That our lips smashing together
Was closer to a car crash than romance.

It was beautiful in the moment,
As your heartbeat gave you away,
But the aftermath will be a mess without insurance.

For I don’t have the currency or wit
To pay for my emotional recklessness,
And I fall victim to my own mouth.

he loves me, he loves me not.
Now that I'm used, I'm feeling the rot.
he claimed he was ready, wanted to love.
It's clear he was lying. Tears flood,
My vision blurred,
My heart deterred.
Now that I'm free,
I could fly like a bird.

But, I'm broken and used, I've been thrown away,
Now I sit, bleed and pray,
that someone, oh, anyone will tell me I'm worth it.
Fix me, love me, cover the slits.

I don't want this life, the mutilation and blood.
No sleeve or stitch can cover what's done.
Awake and bleeding, my skin feels hot.
I tell myself, "he loves me not."

Your room, clouded with cigarette smoke,
Old pizza, leftovers, and last night's ****.
Whiskey and beer had stained your white rug,
I'll never comprehend why you looked so smug.
I didn't do anything to deserve your fist,
Your open hand, your rage, your Vulcan grip.
I begged you to stop, I pleaded for release,
But your hand was tight, 'til we called the police.
You resisted arrest and claimed you were sober,
Mom cried and sobbed, I only could hold her.
There was no fixing what you had done,
You beat me and bruised me and emptied my lungs.

Everyone told me I did nothing wrong,
But the nightmares shook me like a gong.
They kept me awake 'til the break of dawn,
I'll never know what brought this on.
Your mind has changed since you bumped your head,
And the brother I once had is dead.

Sticks and stones, she said.
They'll break my bones.
Words won't hurt me.
She lied, I feel alone.

Words break more,
They call me *****,
Slam me into locker doors,
I can't take much more!

Words are painless! she said.
My being is shattered.
In death, I'll wonder,
Did my life even matter?

Mirror, mirror, on the wall.
Picture perfect, porcelain doll.
That perfect body and human desire,
They say she's a tease, sets boys on fire.

She looks in the mirror, searching for admiration.
But all she finds is mutilation.
A broken beauty. With makeup, she hides.
Hiding scars, hiding lies.

Hand-shaped bruises plaster her body.
Her daddy loves her,
And thinks she's a hottie.
Mirror, mirror, on the wall.
Reflections shatter, blood falls.

She tried to stop him,
He held her tight.
Pushed her around,
Made her fight.
His sadistic game
Played out of spite.

One swig too many,
His eyes turn to glaze.
Her anger and pain
Have built up a blaze.

One missed step and a roll down the stairs.
The smell of ***** and a broken neck.
A broken heart, released into freedom,
Wet eyes look down at the wreck.

Mirror, mirror on the wall,
She's the fairest of them all.
Hand-shaped bruises fade from her body.
She knows her daddy was very naughty