i will suffer the consequences of my choice
if i ever make one

i wish that i could see into
the minds of others

but wishing is not an option.

it was all fun and games until it wasn't.
running around in circles, a mind and matter situation.

your words mean nothing to me
but i want you to keep talking

secrets come back to haunt you,
i am just learning that the
hard way

Why is it always the best people that we lose first?

since i was young i was told
over and over again
that life wasn't fair,
everything happens for a reason,
and that when we look at death
we have to see that person and know we will
see them again in the future.
but i look at it now and
don't understand anymore.

if everything happens for a reason
then explain this to me, how could
someone bring bad and suffering upon
a person knowingly? why would you do
this if you know it will hurt others?

it's in times like this i tend to lose my sanity,
hope, and faith.

i sat and watched her crumble you
to pieces. and you were only amused by
the fact that this meant my world
was falling apart.

eventually you get used to others
being sorry, you get tired of the pity
and would rather them say
nothing at all. all you want is
someone to talk to that relates.

i’m not happy.
and i don’t want anyone
else to be.

i don’t know what to do with myself

i am, on my own, putting myself into even deeper trouble.

and this time i looked up, thinking that would make me stop digging deeper.

but i have come to realize that it didn’t stop me

and that i am in the midst of my inevitable and predicted downfall.

i don't think i will ever realize the true depth
of trouble i am getting myself into

because no matter how far i am under,
i never look up

and maybe this flaw will
be my downfall

because afterall, i'm living a tragedy

i told u so
she doesn’t love u
she admitted it

i'm worried about You
please be okay
i can't lose You too
don't put Yourself down
it's not Your fault
know that You can talk to me
know that i am reaching out
please talk to me
please
please

he only wants to be understood

maybe it's just you afterall,
you need to realize that
you have no place to speak
when you are just as bad.

i am drowning and silently screaming for help.

i am weeping as you ask how i am.

i am in the midst of a dark time.

i am in deep and can't pull myself up.

i am an accident waiting to happen.

i am a bomb threatening to go off.

But Yeah, Of Course I'm Fine

he is genually happy when he looks at you,
i have never seen anything like it.
so no matter what i feel, i can't interfere,
in fear that something so great would be
yet again
demolished by a feeling i can't help.

i’m blind.
i can’t see the future
the consequences
the choices.
but i can see you
and i wish i hadn’t

it seems as though
only a month ago
i would **** for you.

jealousy makes us wicked
makes us hurt
makes us feel.
even when we don’t want to
even when we don’t believe we should

My vision has been contorted.
All colors no longer blend
but rather stand out and by
themselves. All lives and
positions seem different from
the angles they are presented in .

when you learned how to sleep with your
eyes open, you also climbed out of our grave
from six feet under. i stayed behind, and that's okay...

I was right to keep
To myself.
It would be worse for
Me in the long run.

it officially can not get any worse than this.
i feel like we have regressed and went back in time, and that is the worst feeling.

the past is filled with emotions and actions solely with the potential and willingness of evil.

and though i protect you,
i need saving too

this is how i know you are a bad friend.
you know the game,
but don't know you're the player.
secrets are meant to be kept
not to be vied in your selfishness.
but go ahead, keep doing what you do best,
we'll see who wins this time.

you made others numb with the
words you put together in order
to open their minds,
and though you referenced death
you never meant to bring it to life,
in fact your whole purpose
was to cure the others
who felt helpless.

you forever changed my perception
of emotion, and i need you in my life.