when I'm mad, there are no mess-ups
but one
I'm trying to explain
why do I resent
the fact
you
don't see me trying

J
it's hard to listen when I'm angry
I don't know you-?
You don't know me.
You know my stories and my ****** reactions
"I get that"
no, you don't
you don't get me
no one does
I'm losing myself
while you find yourself
I feel I can't say anything anymore
I can't say **** about you
I can't talk about my ex
I get shunned
you twist my words around
make it into something it's not
I try my hardest to stay on a good track
but God
sometimes
I wanna rip my arm open
but that's hard
hard because everyone else around me does
and I'm trying to prove
I'm stronger than that
I try to be stronger
laughing
laughing
laughing
God, shut up.
shut up.
I laugh and laugh but it isn't funny.
but if I'm not funny
you won't love me

quiet.

we haven't talked just listen to your music

is that wrong?
is it?
is it bad that that's the only way that things come out of my mouth?
they whisper
I turn it up
they scream,
I blare
is it wrong that the voices don't stop

my mind is something you will never understand
but it's okay
I don't either
whatever makes
me
happy
you hate?
I know you have weird moods
so do i
so I guess I can't say much
sometimes J
just sometimes.
i

my whole life I've been shut down,
now by you too
I love you
but
the more we talk
the more that
I question your stories about
cheating and
being toxic
I doubt that
changed for me

everyone knows about your cps cases
and your grandfather

okay so I tell you things no one knows

but you tell me things everyone knows

quiet

silence
...
it's always had my back
but anyways
that shouldn't matter.

I'll just stay quiet.

**NOT MINE, MADE BY MY GIRLFRIEND, I JUST WROTE IT DOWN AS SHE WAS TALKING

Take away these brick and stones,
that we seek shelter in.
Take away the promises you once
pacified us all with.
Take away the blue skies above us,
and replace it with grey clouds.
Take away the land that your fraudulent
minds apparently amass.
Take away the nature which grew
it's roots deep into our souls.
Take away our property, wealth and trophies
that still reek of our sweat of ages.
Take away the media that we see
and blindfold her with injustice.
Take away but you can never take the soul
that keeps this land alive.
Take away but you can never take the knowledge
of your people.
Take away but you can't wipe the smile off
our children of soil.
Take away but we don't forgive nor forget.

waking up at around 3 am with only some alcohol to keep us awake as we go on bike rides on the highway, my hair was flying but it somehow didn’t bother me. i used to be a perfectionist but after meeting you i realized that life was too small to worry about whether a single strand of hair was misplaced or not. my arms were outstretched like a bird whose wings were trapped for so long and longed to find freedom. no one was supposed to drive while drunk or while sleepy but here we were, both, and breaking possibly every law known to mankind. but we didn’t care, we never did. the same way how we didn’t care that our love would end in heartbreak. ‘we’ were just supposed to be a pass time but in between, somewhere, somehow, we fell in love.
and just how we broke the rules that night, we broke our rule that we’d never fall in love.
for every love story would end in heartbreak, and so did ours.

It's so not fair!
I dealt with him already
This sounds so rare...
I feel so very unsteady

I lost that lover boy
When he moved away
I felt kind of like a toy
But we went our separate way

But when he left
School started anew
And I found out in my math class
I lost and "gained"
that boy I used to know.
The one who was quite stupid,
but I liked him anyway.

The very one who left me lone,
When I got away.

He invaded my home,
with unwanted memories of pain
Everything is red and gory
I feel the tear in reality.

Fate does not seem in my favor
The one I love
Moved away
The one I wanted to stay away
came anyway.

This is so unfair.
This is so cruel.
Has anyone seen this before?

I lost one
and gained the run away.


-3nwlry