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Lefa Mzondi Mar 2019
Unfair
Lefa Mzondi
Mar 2019
You want to know what's unfair?
Unfair is having diagnosed with pulmonary tuberculosis at the age of 22 despite never having smoked a single cigarette your entire life.
Unfair is having to take 3 months unpaid leave because you're "not safe" to be around anybody.
What's not fair is the inability to walk 5 steps to the kitchen without running out of breath.
What's not fair is the never ending painful coughs at night and having neighbours complaining.
You know what's unfair?
Unfair is losing half of your lung in a battle you never started.
What's unfair is hearing your family members talking behind your back claiming you have Aids, despite never been with a woman before.
What's unfair is fighting so hard to get back on your feet, to get back to full recovery only to get the news that you are now diagnosed with Bronchitis;
Hearing that you will never be able to run like you used to.
That you will never be able play soccer again.
What's unfair is the constant fear that follows after.
The fear that no girl would ever want you.
The constant fear that you might never be able to satisfy any girl.
The fear that, what if you get someone sick despite being 100% cleared?
Now that is unfair.
Unfair is whilst other people take few days to heal from cold and flue, you have to take weeks of antibiotic treatment, just to rid off the same cold.
What's unfair is people constantly thinking your TB is back everytime that cold starts.
Unfair is constantly having to explain why you breathe so heavily.
Unfair is always trying to act "normal"
You really wanna know what's unfair?
Unfair is having your brother lose the battle against the same TB you won against 3 years ago.
What's unfair is having him leave behind his 3 year old with no one.
What's unfair is that you didn't choose any of this.
And Unfair is writing all of this with a broken heart and a tear rolling down my cheek, because this is a true story.
It's My story. And regardless, I'm Still here.
Unfair is having diagnosed with pulmonary tuberculosis at the age of 22 despite never having smoked a single cigarette your entire life.
Unfair is having to take 3 months unpaid leave because you're "not safe" to be around anybody.
What's not fair is the inability to walk 5 steps to the kitchen without running out of breath.
What's not fair is the never ending painful coughs at night and having neighbours complaining.
You know what's unfair?
Unfair is losing half of your lung in a battle you never started.
What's unfair is hearing your family members talking behind your back claiming you have Aids, despite never been with a woman before.
What's unfair is fighting so hard to get back on your feet, to get back to full recovery only to get the news that you are now diagnosed with Bronchitis;
Hearing that you will never be able to run like you used to.
That you will never be able play soccer again.
What's unfair is the constant fear that follows after.
The fear that no girl would ever want you.
The constant fear that you might never be able to satisfy any girl.
The fear that, what if you get someone sick despite being 100% cleared?
Now that is unfair.
Unfair is whilst other people take few days to heal from cold and flue, you have to take weeks of antibiotic treatment, just to rid off the same cold.
What's unfair is people constantly thinking your TB is back everytime that cold starts.
Unfair is constantly having to explain why you breathe so heavily.
Unfair is always trying to act "normal"
You really wanna know what's unfair?
Unfair is having your brother lose the battle against the same TB you won against 3 years ago.
What's unfair is having him leave behind his 3 year old with no one.
What's unfair is that you didn't choose any of this.
And Unfair is writing all of this with a broken heart and a tear rolling down my cheek, because this is a true story.
It's My story. And regardless, I'm Still here.
Melancholy of Innocence Sep 2018
Unfair
Melancholy of Innocence
Sep 2018
Look at my LOVE
Do not look at my looks
And please tell me
What is going on in YOU?
Are you still thinking?
May I tell you not to think
Are you still evaluating?
Can I ask you not to...
When it comes to LOVE
It is unfair for the clouds of LOVE
Not to rain on YOU
It is unfair for the breeze of LOVE
To not carry the fragrance of LOVE to YOU
It is unfair on the dew
Not to form on your grass
It is unfair for the bees
To not find your flower to **** honey
It is unfair for the birds
Not to find a BLUE sky
To soar wings in flight
It is unfair for the Lioness
To cajole the Lion to LOVE
It is unfair for water to be dammed
And not flow into your ocean of LOVE
It is unfair to my skin woolens
Not to cover you with LOVE warmth
It is unfair for my blood
Not to flow within your veins
It is as much unfair for my breathe
Not to be oxygen for your lungs
Is not the silence of your being
Narrating a tale of LOVE?
The looks in your eyes
That shines rays of LOVE
That brings sunshine to life
Shows your tender heart within
Which is so overflowing with LOVE
It is unfair to imprisoned your LOVE
I took a second to tell YOU
"I LOVE YOU very much"
Now please give me
A million life-times
To be with YOU
To prove to you
How much I LOVE YOU
It is unfair for life not to LOVE
It is unfair for me not to LOVE YOU
ADEOLUWAJOJU Dec 2018
INJUSTICE
ADEOLUWAJOJU
Dec 2018
You are unfair
Unfair to your words
Unfair to my heart
Unfair to your eyes
Unfair to my mouth
Unfair to your promises
Unfair to my beliefs
Unfair to your lies
Unfair to my truth
Unfair to your lustful self
Unfair to my righteous self
Unfair to your hypocrisy
Unfair to my vulnerability
You are unfair for lusting after me
I am unfair to myself for loving you!!!
Unfair to your words
Unfair to my heart
Unfair to your eyes
Unfair to my mouth
Unfair to your promises
Unfair to my beliefs
Unfair to your lies
Unfair to my truth
Unfair to your lustful self
Unfair to my righteous self
Unfair to your hypocrisy
Unfair to my vulnerability
You are unfair for lusting after me
I am unfair to myself for loving you!!!
Do you ever love so hard, that you realize it isn’t worth it?