How
did you manage to get all of what you wanted
when all you wanted while you were with me,
was to do nothing.

He was perhaps,
No let me correct perhaps.
He was (perhaps)
the most important man in
my life

Only Til Today

He was perhaps,
No let me correct perhaps.
He was (perhaps)
the most loving man in
my life

Only Til Today

He was perhaps,
No let me correct perhaps.
Oh why do I keep saying perhaps???
Perhaps I'm stupid.
There I go again with perhaps!

HE WAS. HE WAS. HE WAS.
never perhaps.

I AM. I AM. I AM.
stupid for sure.

There was a storm
Where I played in the wind
Tree branches  mimicking my movements
Looked at them in a strange way
Wondering what they were doing
And I didn't know that there was a storm
You looked up to the sky and you saw it but
Said nothing and walked out
like saving me was out of pocket

Laziness maybe was what you had
But I know you don't care
What gets tangled in my hair
Or what wraps around my lungs
Or how my death will be soon because of all the things you flung around

The storm was  brewing
Poured in all the perfect ingredients
That's what you were doing
Recipes
That's what you had
Looked up rainy clouds
How to make
Now you're gone and it's raining out

Did you think you was gonna pull the wolf over my eyes

Why do you talk stupid?


To make you undersand!
Dont you know it's a dog eat dog world out there, it's survival of the fattest

There you go talking stupid again!!


And there you go understanding again

Sometimes I try and step up to be brave
Then stuff comes in and jumbles in my brain
I try to ignore it but then I fall apart
I should have listened when they said it'd be hard
Walk down a path and try to look brave
Keep your head above water
Clean cut and then shave
Now I am here
A jumbled mess now in your view
Try to keep that distance
Maybe you'll see who I am soon
When I spill my drink all over you
Or trip down the stairs
and I hope you don't  puke
I wasn't made as a beautiful view
Because I wasn't made to be perfection at all
In fact I can tell you  I wasn't even planned at all
Try not to judge too much because I'll warn you
I'm going to fall or fail something soon

She said he'll be back
She said his doing everything for us
She said his getting tired serving others just to provide my future
She said his a good man
And I believe it every day
Until one day
She said he'll never go back
I get sad and asked her why
She answered me and said his busy serving others
So I went into our roof and put on my blanket on my neck and tight it up
I lift up my two arms and shout
"I'll be there dad. I'll help you serve others so you can finally go home."
And then I jump.
Thats where I got my scar
Cause I fell down
They send me to hospital but he never came
I was hurt but what hurts the most is knowing that all you have been believing for so long was all lie
He has a new family and he didn't choose us
He choose to leave us
And from then I vow myself not to talked to him ever again.