they say that 'what ifs' are the most painful one
but for me, it's my signal for me to try again
to try the things I haven't done yet
or the things I have tried.

I asked myself
what if I'll love you again?
will it be the same love as before
or will it be sweeter than the first time we fall?

I asked myself
what if I'll love you again?
will you give me the same love like before
or will you turn your back and give me nothing at all?

You lit my insides on fire

voiced the words sunken deep in my linear

spoken against,

the stillest water

I could of sworn I saw it move.

your eyes blushing as 
you
articulate her thigh

I saw it in you,

your shy endorsement
for the same

***
 curious movements

from gentle hands

lip gnawed and panicked

I ran my hand through boyish hair

and god I am such a cliche

why won’t you come and say
*hello

I'm less & less shocked now-a-days
when I found out people's secret ways
each time just sounding more & more
like things I've heard before
If people would pay attention just a little bit
they'd notice quite a lot more ****
people have more in common that they realize
but instead people just assume & spread lies
as rumors rapidly spread
each time getting more twisted as it is repeated & said
even the truth eventually becomes inaccurate & deflated
that's when trust begins to get disintegrated
causing drama along the way
the reason a good relationship begins to decay
it all just started to become clear
judging just needs to disappear
We're all just human & the same on the inside
despite what secrets we choose to hide
they're hidden away
in fear of being labeled a certain way
unfortunately not everyone is comfortable standing out
but that's really not what it's about
really they can't handle the cruel attack
since their self-confidence is something they lack
people's criticism can be ****** & vile
& a person can only take so much for a short while
always assuming the negative is going to happen
before anything even has a chance to begin
their solution to their problem is this....
Any kind of change just ignore & dismiss
avoiding it all together
remaining the same, never changing & undercover, unhappy forever.