By Arcassin Burnham



one more thing that i gotta know,
before you go,
is the love real?
one more thing that i gotta know,
before you go,
is the love real?
one more thing that i gotta know,
before you go,
is the love real?
one more thing that i gotta know,
before you go,
is the love real?
one more thing that i gotta know,
before you go,
is the love real?
one more thing that i gotta know,
before you go,
is the love real?

well..........is it ?

The only thing I crave
After drinking myself sick
Is to be in your presence.
And I'm sorry for all of the drunk calls
But you never answer anyway.
I'm wondering if I'm nauseated
By the whiskey in my blood
Or the coldness of your eyes
That practically shouted their goodbyes
And gave me nightmares
About soulless creatures
And almost lovers.
I feel like I've said this all before
But you're never around to hear it.
I miss you, I miss you, I miss you,
But I'm sick, sick, sick.

It repeats, repeats
This feeling repeats
The need to hurt, to get this unspoken pain out
It repeats, it repeats

It repeats, it repeats
The panic
The shaky breaths, the heart racing
It repeats, repeats

It repeats, it repeats
The phone rings
Need to call, need to get help
It repeats, it repeats

She repeats, she repeats
Try to breathe
Find your favorite song, drink some tea
She repeats, she repeats

Song repeats, song repeats
I can breathe
Sing along, drink the hot tea
Song repeats, song repeats

Back on repeat, back on repeat
I'm okay
Just praying it will stay this way
Back on repeat, back on repeat

I remember the first time I gazed into your eyes
They were something magnificent
They sparkled they dazzled they danced and they burned with a passion
They didn't just look at me they saw me ... the real me

I remember the time our hands first interlocked and my heart literally locked onto you
I memorized your heart beat and my smile became synced to it
So that's why you're always a chance I wish to repeat

So maybe we weren't given a forever
But the time with you was enough to make me believe in one
And God forgive me but I curse you for taking her from me even thought she was an angel of your creation that was carved from my imagination.

But love isn't some song that you can just put on pause
But our love is something that I wish to repeat

Laying straight across my bed with images painted of you charges the waves in my head.
Hair flown through the air capsules occupying space across your shoulders.

The way your face glows like snow on Christmas morning.
Giving my spine flowing shivers of elation and angst.
Formations created by muscles fibers, causing a earthquake in knee joints with a simple smile.

Never seen a softer jaw line fill my imagination so often.
Under flowing gorgeous hair your shoulders sit curved and forward like a anxious cat ready to pounce at the way I can't breathe when we catch eyes.
Moving down your body your flesh draws my attention to complete obliterating originality.

I know you love math so maybe you could understand, that there Is not an answer for every equation.
Like how when you take the square root of beauty, divide it by a curve, and rethink the small of your back you get knees that shake with giddy.

This doesn't quite make sense anymore because my thoughts become paralyzed at the possibility of you actively playing the violin strings between my ability to feel. I want to listen to the orchestra of your body every moment of my awaken state.

It plays love. It screams in the face of didn't think I had a chance to catch my heart from running off into the sunset. Let's run away together. That way I can learn every part of you deeper than this simple poem I'm writing.

repetition remains constant
despite it's continuous efforts to be reminded of
over and over, birds chirp in the morning sun
over and over, a vinyl spins on the player
over and over, the world revolves on
while you sat on the other side of the phone
your chest rising with a breath
we exchanged a verbal i love you

and i still can't tell who enjoyed it more
when you whispered longingly
"say it again"

and i repeated it
and i will
over and over

I love you
I love you so much
I love you I swear.
I'd die for you.
I love you don't leave
no, no, no
What did I do!
Babe, I promise don't leave!
Please!
Stop stop stop!!!







Wait. Who are you?

Eat.
Work.
Sleep.

Repeat.

Security. Stability.
But at what cost?