That glass piece,
fitting so perfectly
into my palm.
Smooth, cold, round,
holding my hand tighter than any ex-lover before.
That ginger kiss upon my lips,
sending smoke to hug my lungs.

Those IV bags dripping of happiness,
shooting euphoria through my bloodstream.

Anything to keep me from feeling numb.
Anything to prolong my inevitable fall,
back to my own personal purgatory.

oh dear,
it is okay to be sad,
but isn't okay it to be constant.

look at the sky
wanting you to
smile from within,
that,
the moon could set on.

the stars are waiting
you to dance on haven land,
that,
the flowers could bloom.

the butterflies arent chasing,
honey anymore
as its meaningless to have
the real honey in distraught.

why does it feel like the world is dark when you dont talk or smile anymore?

Swimming with stars, a cosmic stream
Saturn’s no longer a distant dream
Titan in one hand, the other waving to Ganymede
Ideas are rushing and fluttering
Like dandelion seeds in the wind, they’re slippering
Melodic strings then crashing drums
A chaotic orchestra, now here they come...
Melting shadowy figures from the dead
Delusions from the collapsed parts of my head

i have always been enough, now i understand.
far away from you, this is where i stand.
you being my solace was a mistake.
pills of euphoria i must take.

I never thought I'd be happy now, despite everything
Someone is making me happy
He controls me being sappy
He keeps me sane
Even after everything is not the same
I wish this feeling could last forever
I swear,
I'm gonna keep trying to be better

Once i saw your mellifluous smile
I feel like the felicity burst inside
I feel the euphoria inside of my soul
Your internal beauty is ineffable

Your mellifluous smile was pure solace for me
Since i saw your smile i really wanted to protect and cherish.
My feelings will be forever sealed eternal

and for so long I hid

                      my fingertips

                 stained by the ashes


           you hold them with yours, anyway.