What is this that I've let build up inside of me?
I'm only human, I get lonely
So, at first, it's easy to see why I didn't really mind the company
...at first...
With every attempt to shine a light on it, it seemed to get more ugly and angry
Personally becoming so entangled in my past I found myself imprisoned in my head, lost away and locked the key
Mass delusion feeds mass confusion obviously
Abused by depression and anxiety
Used simultaneously as prison guards to keep me here in captivity
A single inmate maximum security penitentiary
Making a mockery of my first 40
While I watch the worst of me became the only me
I foolishly pretend no one else could possibly see
As behind the scenes I try to wiggle free for a second or three
In an attempt at some sort of damage control on this fragile soul and fractured mentality
Trying in vain to make sense of the recipe
'Cause if this is how it's supposed to be
Then someone's going to need to explain to me
Exactly why my straight to TV, B movie horror mystery
Was scripted to be such a difficult and seemingly impossible journey
Where's the humanity?

©2024

Today, I feel free,
Free to love you,
Yes, I do feel so...

Today, I feel possessed,
Possessed by you,
Yes, I am so...

Today, I feel happy,
Happy to be with you,
Yes, I want you only so...

Today, I feel obsessed,
Obsessed with your love,
Yes, I am totally obsessed...

Today, I feel closer to you,
I am closer to your lips,
Yes, I hold your hips...

Today, I feel lifted up,
Up until the dark sky,
Yes, you are my light.

Today, I feel entangled,
Entangled in your slivers,
Yes, you are the biggest star.

𝖠𝗇𝖽 𝖳𝗁𝖾𝗋𝖾 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗎𝗇𝖽𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖲𝗎𝗇,
𝖶𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗌𝗎𝖼𝗁 𝗀𝗅𝗂𝗆𝗆𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗌𝗆𝗂𝗅𝖾 𝖺𝗅𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍,
𝖨𝗇 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗋𝗎𝗌𝗁 𝗍𝗈 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖺𝗂𝗌𝗅𝖾 𝖨 𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗌𝖾𝖽,
𝖮𝗇𝗅𝗒 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗁𝖺𝗇𝖽𝗌 𝗐𝖾𝗋𝖾 𝗆𝖺𝗋𝗄𝖾𝖽,
𝖲𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝗈𝗋𝖾 𝖺 𝗃𝖾𝗐𝖾𝗅 𝗈𝗇 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 𝖿𝗂𝗇𝗀𝖾𝗋,
𝖨𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝖻𝖾𝖺𝗎𝗍𝗂𝖿𝗎𝗅 𝖺𝗌 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗌, 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗂𝗌,
𝖲𝗁𝖾 𝖻𝖾𝗅𝗈𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝗍𝗈 𝖺𝗇𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋,
𝖠𝗇𝖽 𝖨 𝗅𝗎𝗋𝖾𝖽 𝖻𝗒 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗋𝖺𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋,
𝖮𝗇𝗅𝗒 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗂𝗌 𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾𝖽 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖺𝗇𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗋𝖾𝖽,
𝖭𝗈𝗐 𝗂𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗁𝖾𝖺𝗋𝗍 𝖺𝗆 𝖽𝖺𝗀𝗀𝖾𝗋𝖾𝖽.